it's my life and i call it my way.

2011-07-03T03:50:00.001+08:00

goodbye.

welcometomylife.

2011-07-03T03:23:00.002+08:00

After 3 years of using this blog, I am thinking of shifting house for my blog again! Maybe on lj, wordpress or xanga. Not much reason for the shift, just felt like changing a new "environment" for a new start.

In the middle of the night at 3:30am, I am wide awake! I slept and I woke up 2 hours later.
This is how light sleeper I am. Bad for health. But really no choice.

I was browsing through my phone before I decided to came online, nothing much for me to play with my phone anyway. I dont have fantastic fun games either. Boring phone! ):
Oh well, I've decided to give MMSing Talent Contest a shot this time round, but I just can't seem to send that damn video to stomp! =( Just when I set my heart out to contest in a singing competition! not that I am fantastic, but worth a shot! Never try never know right? (:
Somemore, can get a chance to win camera leh! WHY DONT WANT! HAHAHAHAHHA! :P
if never try, the chances are 0! if you try, there is still a slightest chance!
Okay, gonna see how I can send that damn video out in the day! now super dark, I dont want to on the light in case my mum wakes up to give me a lecture on how I should sleep early!

Okay shall find a new home now! (:

In case you do not know, I care. ):

2011-07-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

moodswing.

1st July - Leo's Transit.

2011-07-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

I just woke up not long ago from a 13 hrs sleep. Woah, felt damnnn good and I am wide awake now.
Although I think I still feel kinda tired, if I want to continue sleeping, I definitely can.
Just that I think I shouldn't waste my time sleeping. :)

Met BESTFRIEND yesterday! :DDDDDDDDDDD
SO HAPPPPY SIA! =] I didn't sleep the entire night, part of me was excited t see him, the other part of me was trying not to emo cos the next time i'll see him is another 5-6 months! ):
Von stayed over at my house and we left house at 4:30am. (:
Reached airport at 5am, waiting patiently for NARDO! :DDDDD
and I saw him I saw him I saw him. EXCITEDDDDDDDD only!! (:
but it wasn't those drama mama type of run and hug him! HAHAHAHAHA! =]

Wanted to go watch sunrise, but due to the weather and also... BOB.. we did not! HAHAHAHAH!
BOB slept all the way til we decided to go his house and wake him up! =P
HENG, good thing his parents were awake and about to leave house!
So we managed to get into his house and got his mum to wake him up! (:

Breakfast @ 红心 Restaurant. (:
DIMSUM! Thank you Yvonne's Mum for treating the breakfast! (:
After that, we wanted to go play lan.
Ended up at Lucky Chinatown's kbox lunch! (:
MY 2 GUY FRIENDS CAN SING! Last time ask them to sing like asking them to swallow stone!
(:

And then back to airport.
the time for some cry cry boooobooooo moments! LOL!
Okay, im joking. We took MANY polaroids! :DDD
We made full use of the 18 films I have! LOL! =)
And he went in @ 4pm. BOOHOOOO CRY.
okay, just a lil emo I guess.

MJ and POOL time at yvonne's house after that! (:
DAMN HAPPY, because someone 放水 and let me win him in pool! ((((((:

That was how I spend my 1st July! =D

One whole week of AWESOME celebrations!

2011-07-01T00:04:00.003+08:00

Hello! :D
I was contemplating to blog about taiwan trip or my birthday celebrations..
I decided to blog about my 21st instead! :]

24th June:
Met Yvonne to swim at sengkang! (:
Dinner @ Hougang. (:
Back to Yvonne's place for MJ and sing!
Impromptu celebration for me! Thank you for the unique cake!!!! and for your SHOCKING present! :DDDDD
<3<3<3<3<3

25th June:
Celebrated with my family on the 25th June. (:
We went to get my birthday present. it's a damn gorgeous ring! I was thinking if I should get a ring or a necklace! and I decided to go with ring! :) Thank you mummy and daddy for the present! (: But honestly, what I wish the most is their health! (:
After that we went to eat at some ulu place, didnt choose fanciful restaurant cos my mum can only eat fish and veg for the time being. so yup! =)
Went to buy bakerzin's strawberry shortcake after that!
(I am sorry yvonne chua! you didn't get to eat the cake! we cut early early. you cant come down! SORRRRY! and sorry no more left!!! =X)
After getting the cake, went home and cut cake, take photos and then I left house to find Jasmine @ bedok inter. Planned to have supper with ZX and Jasmine, and Yvonne! (:
I know it's a weird combination! LOL!

I really really nvr plan to celebrate my birthday there! Because Jasmine said she need to leave @ 11pm-1130pm.
But then to my surprise, Yvonne and Henry rushed down just in time.. before 12 midnight, and got me a donut.. as a "birthday cake".
Little did I know, my dearest HPY also got a cake. I really didn't know sia! =X
Yes, Pandan cake @ 85? it came true. LOLLLLL! =)
At least my birthday did not have the.. take the candles out of those creamy cakes! it will be like so eeeeew~
so yes, they sang me a VERY loud birthday song! it was really SUPER loud! I PAISEH SIA!!!!
After that, HPY went to get me B&J's icecream with M&M on top of it!
It's already SWEET enough for him to surprise me, so honestly... the icecream is FREAKING sweet! =) Literally and metaphorically. =)
Afterwards, my very nice friend yvonne chua, sent Jasmine home and then we all went to Yvonne's house.
Oh yes, I didn't go home that night. It's the first time I didn't go home. Everyone said... 21st must do crazy things! SO yes, this is my crazy thing! =) I msged my mum and told her I want to watch sunrise. LOL! Stayed over at yvonne's house! =)
All I can say is.. I felt so loved the whole night. =)
Left Yvonne's house @ 6am and down to ECP to watch sunrise! But the sunrise wasn't what I expect! so kinda disappointed!
however, I have my 2 dearest friends with me, I am more than just happy! =)
Thank you both of you! =)
Went home to sleep after that!

I think I spend my whole afternoon on 26th June..sleeping!
Only left house again at ard 5:45pm! =)
Had Turkish Cuisine @ Shaw House! (:
The ambience was not bad, the food was not say very fantastic!
There is this WEIRD drink, wah, it's FREAKING SOUR, omg... when I drink finish, I really feel like vomitting! EEEEEW~~ =(
can it considered as my 2nd crazy thing on my 21st?
but something different for my birthday! (:
so yes, thank you for bringing me to such an unique cuisine.
and thank you for your present and wonderfully cute card!!!
After that slack a while @ starbucks and then head down to 313 somerset to meet the "emo" HW! (:
Surprise Surprise @ no. 5 emerald hill! (:
SURPRISE SPOILT BY WAITER!!! LOLLL!
so yes, peiyu and alex was there with a cake! =))) tyvm! =D
Cab home ard 12am, felt a bit blur! =X
I conclude I can't drink.

27th June:
Celebration at night with the sisters after a MJ session. :)
Kbox from 8pm-2am, but i left at 1230am!
supposingly it was from 8pm-11pm, but our system kept restarting.. we complaint.. and then they extend our timing to 2am and also gave us one jug of coke for free! (:
Wah, such gd service man!
I also dont know why after 1 song, I kinda emo-ed!

28th June:
Forlino @ one fullerton with ZR.
The experience is GREAT, honestly! =)
Though it's really a bit expensive, I think it's worth the whole experience and food!
Just that maybe it's a bit too high class for me, HENG i wear nice nice sia! if not cfm I paiseh max! =)
lucky i decided to wear my new dress!!! =)
you get to see the river, merlion, esplanade. The view is splendid! =)
The service and food is awesome! (:
After that, head down to teoheng to sing. Yes, 2 days of singing! :DDD I never get bored of singing! ((:
Met family at 7pm for dinner and collect my ring! :DDD

29th June:
Seoul Garden @ Taka. + Visit to PSCSC. :D
Heels Day! :DDD
Met Khai and Shireen @ Taka ard 2pm. Had Seoul Garden. (:
Thanks for the treat my lovely babes! Thank you for the present and awesome card too! :D
After seoul, walk walk ard cos they wanted to shop! I didn't really shop cos I did my shopping in taiwan already! :D
And heels make me really tired! =X I couldn't take it at ard 7pm.
After that went to CSC to say hi to people and take my schedule! :)
Stayed ard for abt 30mins, catch up a bit!
I know work will be so different, but oh well..... life still goes on! =X
Went home ard 9pm. (:

30th June:
Railway Station + Sushi Tei
Impromptu meeting with HPY and Yvonne!! :)
A trip down to railway station! (: Snap many photos! (:
I don't really feel upset about it, just that I have never go to the station before, so a lil fascinated! =)
Lunch @ Vivocity. (:
Back down to Bedok Point for Dinner with FangHan and Timothy! :)
Thank you for the treat at Sushi Tei! :)))
Thank you for the present!!
Thank you Timothy for the Helim Happy birthday Balloon!
It's my first Helim Balloon! I AM SO HAPPY! :DDDDD

Basically that's how I celebrated my 21st!
I guess it's better than holding a party!
If I hold a party, time spend with each grp of friends will be so lil!
Like this, I can maximise my time with each grp of friends! :D

To all my friends out there who spend their time to celebrate with me:

thank you for taking out the time to spend with me! I know some of you are working, you all still make the effort to date me out for lunch/dinner! (:
I feel really blessed to have all of you!
We maybe really close friends, or we maybe friends who catch up once in a while... I still thank all of you. I really really treasure each and everyone of you! (:
I am truly happy for the past whole week! (:
With lots of Love!! :DDDD

To the person who I met 3 days straight :
Though I see you for 3 days straight, I am not sick of meeting you. ((:
Thank you for being such a GREAT friend all these while! (:

my inner feeling.

2011-06-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

I always like to make things complicated, and end up getting hurt myself.
How dumb, how stupid, how silly.

Still in the midst of celebrating my 21st.
Shall blog about it after everything.

Work starts on monday.
Not excited at all. ):

2011-06-28T23:54:00.002+08:00

多想再一次　緊緊的擁抱　就算給我　一秒也好一秒可以給多少　我都想要 . . . .

I can't ask for more.
Greedy me, please stop.

2011-06-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

I've just officially finish celebrating my 21st.
It all started with pandan cake @ 85 to drinking @ no. 5 emerald hill bar.

I had a fun and surprising celebrations!
From real surprise to failed surprise because of the waiter. LOL!

it's time to grow up.

I will.

2011-06-24T14:06:00.002+08:00

After coming back from taiwan, my shopping spree continues!
*screamssss* I better stop! =X

2 more days to my 21st.
I was excited, but now I'm not at all.
I dislike this feeling, but life still must go on.

Okay tonight I shall blog abt the trip. (:

2011-06-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

if only all these tears can make me feel better.

back to reality.

2011-06-23T04:20:00.002+08:00

back to familiar place, familiar bed.
the bittersweet feeling.

the memories will stay. :)

the sky is dark.it's gonna pour.

good night all.

hello tw, bye sg! :D

2011-06-13T09:54:00.002+08:00

goodbye singapore!

hello taiwan! :D

and someone who i v v v v long nvr talk to said....
"all i want is for you to return safely"
how sweet! :))))

2011-06-11T15:26:00.001+08:00

life simply sucks big time.

I hope I can end my life.

short update

2011-06-10T01:33:00.003+08:00

short update!

1) done with shopping for taiwan. :) thank you sister for the polaroid.
2) 80% packed for taiwan! :)
3) yvonne flew to HK alone already. ):
4) im flying off in 3 days! :DD mixed feelings. hard to explain too.
5) went to sing k today. :))
6) went to pray today! :))
7) search maps and did some researching. :))
8) caught up with a friend who i lost in contact last yr! :)

gonna sleep now.
blog tomorrow.

2011-06-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

fl is starting to feel lonely with so many cousins getting attached and getting married.
):

oh well.

散場的擁抱

2011-06-08T01:53:00.001+08:00

從你的眼角慢慢地明瞭
我能做的很少
原來你藏著傷但不想和我聊

散場的擁抱我還在燃燒
但你心裡的浪潮拒絕讓我看到
你煎熬不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵還能道歉和好
我知道你留著和她所有合照
明明面前是答案卻撕掉不要

呵護地祈禱溫柔地討好
愛能讓人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑浪漫得不肯逃

散場的擁抱........

On the loop

2011-06-07T00:37:00.001+08:00

The song that reminds me of you.... On the loop. Hoping to dream of you again. Strangely sweet.

刚好我们拥有彼此寻找的好，可惜不太凑巧在错的时候，情路上遇到。。
It was.. 8 yrs ago. :X

Dreams n reality..

2011-06-06T12:53:00.001+08:00

Had 2 dreams last night...

One was... Weirdly sweet.
The other was upsetting.

Everyone knows that your first love will always b the one still on your mind. N occassionally, you'll think of the person.
But.. No one ever says that it happens to your first crush too. :/ strangely.. It does.

Seems like an emo day today.
Hopefully kungfu panda tonight will do some gd.

tiring happy day

2011-06-04T22:16:00.003+08:00

Just a short entry.

because....

despite my dying 3rd day of work.

1) Andrea decided to change shift with me since it's all their last day today! :D
Hence I get to go home early. :)

2) Someone sweet came down with the sweetest watermelon juice today! :) I dont know if it's because of the person or the watermelon was just sweet! :P I honestly got a shocked.. I think I literally said.. "Ehhh. OMG" like almost 3 times! LOL! I am pleasantly surprised! :) Nothing beats having such a great friendship! :)))
Thank you! :)

3) Thank you to all my friends who signed up! :) I hope one of you will walk away with the ipad 2! :) xiaowei, khai, val, zx, yvonne chua! lucks to you all for the ipad 2! :D

4) I have nice bosses like Rahim, Evelyn, Yani, Lynn.... and of cos richard! LOL! :)
Rahim fulfilled his promise! he bought for us milo crunch(i think new product of nestle?) when we hit the 50 mark! :)))) and he bought for us 3 boxes! :))))) thank you v much Rahim! :)

5) Tomorrow is the last day of work, and my chinese birthday! :DDDD

and someone is on the way to my house later at 12am to wish me happy birthday! :)
I dont celebrate chinese birthday, just going out with family for dim sum breakfast! =)
YAY

okay, leg super sore feeling.
gotta rest and wait for someone to wish me happy chinese birthday. -.-

shaggeddddd

2011-06-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

back from work.
2nd day. done.
last 2 days! it's freaking freaking freaking shagged!
And I really mean it! ): my foot is SERIOUSLY aching! >.<

Thankfully, I am working with a bunch of fun people.
To start off, my boss is a super nice person. :) I mean I have been working for him since 2009.
Honestly, he's more like a friend than a boss! but of cos, I still respect him as my boss. :)
The temp staffs for MC online are AWESOMELY FUN! :D
Valentina, Andrea, Shireen and some other MC assessement books promoters! :)
Had so much fun and laughter with them. and also with the intern.. I do not know how to spell her name.
She's not local, and she was asking us a lot of.... urm........ vulgarities.
SHE ASKED ME... "i have a qns! my friend always tell me this.. but i do not know the meaning... what's c*b?" SHE DID NOT ASK SOFTLY. LIKE.. MMMM... LOL!
I WAS LIKE.. "OMG?!?!?!?!?!" how do i even explain to you?!!??! =X
I directed her to another friend of mine! HAHAHAHAH! =X

and a 8-year-old boy named Thaddeus made my day today! :)
HE IS SUPERRRR ADORABLE. he has the angmoh look, and his english is so perfect!
:) he lived in US for 2 yrs. HE HAS FACEBOOK ACCOUNT AND HE FIND HIMSELF FOR ME ON MY IPHONE! :DDDDD HAPPY HAPPY OKAY!!! =D
he has fb since he was 6! how adorable!
he has a iphone, his OWN iphone! not share with parents or sister! like OMMMGGGG right?! =)
thinking about him makes me smile! HAHHAHAHA! =)
he was like... "can you try to not tell me the answer?"
I said.. "SURE!!!" then after he answer every qns.. he look at me... den i said.."so....why you look at me? you ask me try not to give you the answer.. then you still want me to hint you?"
and he smiled. LOL! =)
I'm NOT a pedophile, I just adore kids! :D
hopefully my own kids next time will be as adorable and as obedient! :)

So anyway, it's not easy to hit the 50 mark everyday!
Today was not that bad, we hit 70. :)
for a moment, there wasn't anyone.. and then boooom they came altogether and then no one again!
so anyway, if you all want to know what it is.. please visit..
www.mcenrich.com
you can also sign up there. it's free for 2 months till end of july. :) and you can stand a chance to win an ipad2! :)
so if you have niece, nephews, cousins, siblings in primary school, why not just register for free?
you are entitled for 2 levels. say if you are primary 5 this yr, you will get primary 5 and primary 6 assessments! :) SO please help people!!! :DD
We need to hit our sales everyday! it would be good if you can get your relatives to sign up!
THANKS MANYYY if there is actually 1 who enter the website just to take a look! :)

Chatted with new people.
I did not get all their names. But one guy ask me why I didn't want to enter local uni.
HAHA! thanks for looking me so up! LOL! >.<
who say I DONT WANT. I WANT.. but am I given the chance?! OKAY shouldnt say till this way.. should say...... my results wasnt good enough. =(
so anyway, a lot of them are shocked at why i took MATHS and ECONS. =X
like ultimate drop-jaw reaction. LOL!
Maybe I am still thinking along the line that I like to work with kids, and I want to work with kids in the future! And everyone knows how much I love maths, and how I want to be a maths teacher! :) So yea! =) I decided to take a maths degree.... but.. no one knows it was going to be this tough. ): And it's seriously tough max! If a prospective student ask me if they should take Maths and Econs, I will definitely say.. NO..!
Well, unless you are V V V V smart..! and you simply love proving, go ahead! :)

And I realised too...
that qualifications are REALLY REALLY REALLY impt!
2 people doing the same job, one is a poly student, the other is a undergrad..
both have different pay! and it's a HUGE difference!
so i should really really really study hard huh! =X

I really hope everything will be fine.
So I can go Shanghai next yr for internship too! =)
then byebye I will be gone for 6 months - 1 yr! which, may do me some good I supposed.

Work starts again in <12 hours.
The feeling is SUPER sucky.. when you know you can't have A LOT of rest! ):

That said....
10 more days to taiwan!
Or should I say 10 days later at this timing, I should be reaching zuoying already! :)
excited obviously, but there's some mixed feelings, which is hard to brush off I guess.

I'm so missing chw!
he left for US already! ): BOOOHOOOOO~
I wouldnt get to see him till I come back from TW!
I wouldn't have someone telling me those sweetnothings! =X
hurhur!

it's hard to change the truth sometimes, no matter how hard you try. accept it.

I JUST WANT TO SAY...

2011-06-01T08:38:00.002+08:00

I just want to blog saying..

TODAY MARKS THE END OF MY LAST PAPER
&
HELLO MONTH OF JUNE, I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU EAGERLY! :D

soon it will be, HELLO TAIWAN in 12 more days! :DDDDD

and HELLO TO YOU, the person who made me smile in the middle of the night last night! :)))
I JUST WANT TO SAY HELLO and make your day by mentioning you in my blog! HAHAHAHAH! :D

and HELLO to everyone else! I can finally blog more after exams! OH YAY! :DDDD

sunday is my chinese birthday! yay! :)
going out with family in the morning for dimsummmmm before work! (:
Honestly, I didn't know it's my chinese birthday! If not, I would have want to stay at home and rest! LOL! =X
ANYWAY, I will be free from 6th-12th!
PLEASE ASK ME OUT PEOPLE, ESP YOU, like you know who you are! LOL! =DDD

I have a list of things I need to buy before I go taiwan! =X
gotta make the list up tonight! before I forget.

OKAY. FL SAYS bye for now!
last min chiong might do a lil good. =]

I am getting crazy..or am i always crazy?

2011-05-30T00:52:00.001+08:00

Okay, who will ever want to read stuffs like... PROVE THAT z+0=z ?!?!
And it's so chim! (a,b)R(c,d)
Save me!! I just drink a cup of coffee in 5 mins! Not becos I want to stay awake, I'm just getting crazy! I think one day I might see question like...
Prove that 1+2+3+4 = 10!

Guess what!!! My next qns I see now...
Prove that z*0=0.
Omgggggggg!

Okay, I just needed to rant.

good things always come to an end.

2011-05-28T11:08:00.005+08:00

I didn't sleep well last night! *sigh*
And a phone call woke me up early today. I wanted to sleep longer!
But light sleeper me can't sleep back. =(

Yesterday after exams, went out with ZR.
Because it's part of my plan to not study yest!
(oh yes, I will go back to study after this post. alright?)
These few days haven't been feeling happy at all. Maybe with a few surprises which made me smile.
But overall mood is REALLY bad.
So went to sing at teoheng after exams(thank you ZR for picking me up at bukit panjang where you got lost! hehe!)
I haven't been to k-session for.. damn damn damn long. =(
Afterall, singing has been, by far, the best way I can let out everything. =)
After that we went to arcade, and yay! new collection. New Stitch collection.
That's when I feel HAPPY, like REALLY happy for the first time in many days.

Studying makes people emotional and it's mentally straining. =(
But oh well, NEW STITCH. happy me! =]
Please don't get me soft toy for my 21st though! =D

Straighten my thoughts out, I have been making things up in my head.
It's all wrong.
Honestly, whatever happen or whatever didn't happen, made me upset.
If given a choice, I wish to turn back the time and return back to where it all begin.
It's not as easy as packing it all up and putting them in a box.. and next moment you just forget about everything.
做人要有始有终。
It just can't be force or control.

Oh well, hopefully next year I would do better in exams.
I've slack enough this year and I have experience the result.
Going all out for my 2nd upper class honours next year! =)
When you set your heart out for something, you know you would want to get it.
Yes, I am going to do so.

Things will all be different from now on, and maybe this is the best way.

Alright, going to study now. =)
LAST PAPER ALL THE WAY!

silly things make me happy, like a.. not-one-liner title. =D

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

butterflies in stomach!

2011-05-26T01:16:00.001+08:00

I am starting to dislike once a yr examinations.
O-M-G

FL, please.. study harder next yr okay! ):

I am freaking out for tomorrow's paper! WHAT IF I CANT EVEN CALCULATE A SINGLE THING.

thinking about it gives me stomach ache! ohno~

2011-05-25T16:30:00.001+08:00

upset.

POST EXAMS ACTIVITIES!

2011-05-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

Alright! Yet another post! 3rd post of the day! :)
Next post probably will be on 27th May! I need to start to focus from tomorrow onwards!
I believe I can conquer maths, because I am strong in maths!
(although I still regret taking maths and econs, no choice got to love what i chose!)

Things to do after exams:

1) book BTT date!
2) work for times bookstore roadshow.
3) prepare TW stuffs!
4) continue my 3 more story books!
5) Timbre
6) K BOX! OMG, I SUPER LONG NVR GO ALR!

Life's too short for me to hold back!

一百次的感动比不上一次的心动

2011-05-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

when you just can't figure out what's in your mind, you will choose to run away from it.
but this is only a short term solution and I hope you will realise it.

confusing.
disheartening.
upsetting.

are the emotions to describe this whole thing.

But I did realise too, someone said something today which got me thinking...
It's actually all in the head. When no one says anything why assume? Why think that it's this way when it isn't?
Don't even think about it if no one wants to talk about it. If not, you will only get yourself upset.
So that's it. No one said anything. No one confirmed anything. So just look at it on it's surface and don't even read into them.
Whenever in doubt, ASK.

you'll never be THAT important as compared, so move on in life.

as usual another random thought.

2011-05-18T11:22:00.002+08:00

I was thinking what I want to be in the future.
The answer I will always give is.. I want to be a teacher.
I really do and I really want to! But maybe not the first job!
So I was thinking and thinking and thinking....

Actually... I feel like becoming a DJ. :)

no longer the same, never will be.

2011-05-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

officially moved my blog from my previous email account to my gmail account. :)

Anyway, today started off well, on a high note. But it didn't end on a high note.

It was already part of the plan not to study today.
I basically did nothing.

Breakfast with PY/Alex/Zx/Esther/Kwang/Vicki
Met NNSS.
Had a gd talk with Nik.
Met Yvonne and Bob.

seeing something and knowing something and feeling something which is ALL THE SAME THING.. brings my mood freaking down.
no one will understand this feeling.

I can't blog anymore. I'm tearing just from the thought of it.

第二顺位。

2011-05-16T23:02:00.001+08:00

Micro was not that bad, at least I got more things to write for micro as compared to macro.
The weird thing is, I spend more time on macro yet I got that result.
I spend lesser time on micro, much lesser. the ratio is about.. 1: 5
Nonetheless, *cross fingers* for micro!
I need to pass micro, cause it's one of my prerequiste for next semester module.
And I am high and happy it's because it's over and not because I know I did well. =X
Seriously, after the first paper, which is macro.. I really want all my papers to end fast. =(
Too depressing.

You just can't force some things in life.

说不出的话。。

my inner voice.

2011-05-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

i know im supposed to be doing the best i could.
but come on, can't i get a breather?
when i study so hard into late night, you also never give any words of encouragement.
when i start to youtube and listening to songs like NOW, you SUAN me till no tomorrow.
我不爽...
Damn hurting honestly.

and did you even say, good luck or ... all the best?
you didn't.

and do i care?
I actually care.

2011 羅志祥舞法舞天之一萬零一夜新加坡站好看惨了

2011-05-15T01:22:00.001+08:00

2011 罗志祥舞法舞天之一万零一夜新加坡站好看惨了

Yes, I am back from 羅志祥's concert! I have to say, he really impressed me ALOT. :)
I was skeptical of his singing before the concert and now I have to say, he REALLY can sing and DANCE! :)
not just that, he's SUPER comical! :)))))))
His voice is in good condition. GREAT.
His concert has VERY awesome visual effects!
He was able to make the whole crowd HIGH.
I'm having post-concert effect!

*touch my heart, touch my heart* doing the hand sign...
*twinkle twinkle...* doing the dance...
*我不会唱歌* singing altogether! :D
*singing 撑腰* PartyBoys之道兄弟为你撑腰 BOOM YEAH BOOM Let's get this party crazy

WOOOT!

I envy those lucky girls who he took their camera and 自拍！OMG! TO ME, that's much better than having the towel with his sweat! I mean, I don't even know what to do with it if I got it! BUT THE CAMERA ONE.. TOTALLY.. WOOOT~ confirm will melt my heart if I see his picture taken by HIMSELF in my camera! :D

more photos on FB soon! just a small PREVIEW! :D

he looks like JJ in the below 2 photos!!!

Will do all the uploading in FB after my next paper. So on 17th which is my self declared RESTDAY, many things need to be completed! :)

one more important photo..with my awesome hpy:

I'm super glad he sang THE song! :D
it's great to hear it together LIVE from the original singer, isn't it? :)

OKAY. BLOG TILL HERE FOR NOW.

my first doom paper in my life.

2011-05-10T23:30:00.001+08:00

I don't really want to blog because I said I wouldn't till after 16th.
But tonight, I really don't feel like studying. ):
I just don't have the mood to touch any books now. Seriously, the first paper.. hit me SUPER hard.
That I fell on the ground... even when the paper is still commencing.
At least, there are still something that I can answer, if not...... I.. really don't know what I will do.
I'm not suicidal, so don't worry. I just feel very upset.
Not that I didn't prepare for the paper, but seriously, no one else to blame other than myself for not studying HARD enough that i can answer any crazy type of qns.
If I am lucky enough, I can scrap pass. BUT..... I really don't want to scrap pass only. ): I mean, before the paper.. what's in my mind was.. Okay, I am gonna get my 2nd upper class result!
I swear when I was flipping the paper....... whatever left in my mind was... "I am doom. I really need to get as much marks as I can."

I flipped and flipped... trying to find the familiar questions....
and my heart literally sank. ):
I feel very demoralised after my very first paper. ):
I really dont remember myself crying for an exam paper before.
Even when I failed my DnT during O level, i didn't even cry. (okay, because I really couldn't bothered abt DnT, and I wasn't allowed to drop!)
Maybe just this time round, it's not like every other exams.. it's costly and it's not worth to retake. ):
Moreover it's university, every results determine my future.
I can't afford to NOT do well, and.... I don't want to let my parents down.
I know education is all for myself and not for anyone else.... I just don't want to burden my parents.

Guess it really hit me damn hard today. ):
I cried when I was on my way home, I cried when I bath, even after bath.. while on the phone with my mummy, I cried again. ):
crybaby.

I just hope my next few papers will be nicer. Although I reckon they will, because no matter how many past yrs paper I do.... the questions just seem so different. Nevertheless, FL never gives up! :) So even at this point of time, I will move on and continue to FIGHT this thing.
It's mentally straining. =( I hope the next 22 days will past by V V V V quickly.
Tomorrow the routine will start all over again.. I hope, I have the strength to last throughout.

The only thing that made me smile tonight....
was what's in talkbox. (:

today i met my primary school special friend, he was one of the invigilators. the hall is so big.. i was seated at row 56 and there's like almost 30 people in a row. I was seated near the invigilators table, then i saw him.
he looks just like how he was 10 yrs ago, when we were both 11. (: Sweet memories came into my mind before the exam commences. I remembered, we joined the robotics club together, and then we had this workshop that taught us how to create website, and then we were in the same team for some competition, and we won.. a motor video game. (: I remember vividly, how we went around school together. It was that innocent... sweet love? Too young to say it's love. But whatever happened then was sweet.. :)
it's great to see him after 9 years, since we graduated. :) He looks the same, like the innocent young boy I used to know, but only difference is.. we are no longer the same.

I'm still waiting...

2011-05-08T11:30:00.000+08:00

kinda depressed now.

not because of elections. ):

can i make a birthday wish now?
I just want people around me.. to be healthy.
And I really need this birthday wish. )':

2011-05-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

instead of just invisible.

):

2011-04-30T00:50:00.001+08:00

i know i said i wouldn't blog.
I'mjustupset,maybetooupset.
IknowImnevergoodenough,neverwillbe.
ithurtsmebad.
fml.

happinessistheonlythingthatyoucan'tbuy,sobehappy.
imTRYING.

my last post till 17th may. :D

2011-04-25T00:17:00.001+08:00

Will be taking a break from blogging. :)
So this is gonna be my last post, my next post maybe on the 17th May.(because i have 10 days break till next paper!)

Haven't been doing much other than, books, eat, books, 15mins power nap,books, eat, 9pm show, books, SLEEP.
Yea, it just keep repeating. really interesting life I have got, but really no choice.
Just 37 more days and it will be over. :) Then it will be June. I really can't wait for June.
Yvonne's quiting work in June! :) Then I can spend more time with her. (:
Swim, sing, camp, whatever! Because I will have nothing to worry about. Books? no way!
Work! No work till July! :DDD So this means, June is a total ENJOYMENT month! :D
TAIWAN TAIWAN TAIWAN! :]
and when I come back, 21st in 4 days! (:
No party but I am still excited! :D

What if I am already doing my best with the remaining time I have and I still do not get the result that I want?
I actually fear.
What will become of me? ): I really do not want to think about it now.
Because it scares me a lot. ):
Learnt my lesson, Slack too much this year. Year 2 of my study year is not at all good. ):
Minor regrets here and there, but I will make sure I get back on my feet in Year 3 and HOPEFULLY my final year. (:

Actually if given a chance, I would want to change MANY things.
2010-2011, I have chose to work more. Which I thought was a more practical idea. I still don't know if it's practical now.
If I have choose to quit in September in 2010, I would be more active in Esprimere. I would still be as close to them. To be honest, I miss quite a few of them. Especially those east-siders.
My across-road neighbour, my one bus ride(60) away brother, my oh so close Gd friend who stay in pasir ris who has also become prettier. Yea, especially these 3. ):
I mean, I brought this upon myself, I can't blame anyone else. I tried to blend in now. It's tough.
It's like.. I'm an outsider now.
I would definitely be prepared for exams now, because other than play, we would be studying seriously since nov or even dec. ):
I would have these bunch of friends who I can study together. It's just not the same anymore.
Again, I can't blame anyone for that.

But I chose to stay @ work and forgo the CCA which I always enjoy being in it. ):
I chose to earn money and not take allowance from my parents.
I chose to enter this working life, it make it sounds like actually I am studying part time and working full time.
Because honestly, I have been working too much, as a part-timer.
Which then make me realised how much I miss out being a student.
I should be making a lot of friends, instead of working and getting into office conflicts and all the nonsense.
I should be enjoying my uni life with wonderful events and activities.
I thought that choosing work was better because I would be able to see how working adults handle work blahblahblah and stuffs and maybe I can learn from them.
It's tough. NEVER, really.. NEVER study and work at the same time. If really have to, do not put too much effort into work.
But that doesn't mean, don't work seriously. You have to be serious at work, just that you got to put your mind more on the books. Because ultimately, they will bring you the degree that you need to enter the working society in the year to come.
Yes, that's my advice if anyone ever need to work and study at the same time.

I am not saying I regret putting my heart into my job the other time. I am also not saying that I regret working instead of being a full time student-student. There are pros and cons in EVERYTHING.
Maybe it's just this time round, I weigh my pros and cons differently?
You see, because that I work, I get to travel to Taiwan in June, not just that, I got to buy my own iphone, Laptop, Coach wristlet, got my dad a watch, got my mum cooking utensils..
I am not a materialistic person. It's just... I got to finally understand about how we need to work hard to get the things we want.
I am not those girls who will exploit their boyfriend to get stuffs for them. In fact, my love language is quality time and words of affirmation(or was it affection?). (: I demand quality time! LOL!!!
Anyway, If I want something, I will get it using my own means. I will definitely work hard for it.

Of course, I lose some things, I must have gain some things also.
Needless for me to say, other than the good pay @ work.
I have gain friendships. Ultimately, having to know this very one nice guy is enough.
But it's more than just that. :)
I guess I have left a good impression to my managers. That they ask me to go back to work soon.
At least, I know I don't have to go through all the waiting time to find a job after exams. (:
Frictionaly Unemployment: caused by time taken to search for the right job.
There is imperfect knowledge... (OKAY, got to stop now. before i continue on writing an essay abt unemployment.)
Also make me realised that I am capable of "leading" a team. I may not be the best out there, at least I was given the chance to "manage" the team of just a few people. But yea, it just somehow test my leadership skills which I kinda DID NOT use them at work. HEY, at least I think I am being mature enough @ work.
There's a difference between the working me and the Off-work me. =X
Afterall I am only 20-turning-21, how mature and adult-ish can I be? I am already learn and on the way to become one independent woman.
How long will it takes, no one knows.

I've learnt my mistake and I definitely will not make the same mistake in 2011-2012.
If I really got to work .. I will leave in.. Nov latest. :)
I will give myself ample time to study for exams. Not like this year. ):

Okay, my last post shall end here. :)
Good luck to all and myself for Year 2 exams. :)
I want more than just a pass for my year 2 exams, because it kinda determine my honours.
and it's scary to think that next year will be my last year as a student, and then I really have got to enter the working society already. ):

While watching channel 8 show, Pierre Png told Rui'en..
"I hope our friendship will be like the scar, which will forever be there. If you just let me be good to you, I'll be contented."

2011-04-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

I've probably become VERY dependent.
I'm sorry.

That's all I want to say.
and you know this is to you.

G.O.O.D F.R.I.DA.Y

2011-04-22T10:22:00.001+08:00

I am not a mountain tortoise, you owl!

It's good friday today!
Not like it makes any difference to me or something!
But hopefully it will be good.
And I am sure, whatever I say will not happen, so to the person who think that my curse will happen... IT WOULDN'T. (hopefully it wouldn't come true. if not im sure he wouldn't want to talk to me ever again.)

STUDY.

I miss all these doodles. ):

GLEE

2011-04-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

Okay, turns out.. today is quite a good day. :)

I studied quite a lot today.
if only everyday can start like today. LOL!
ya, continue to dream fl. tsktsk.

I am DONE. cleared all topics for macro. :)
HURRAY.
OKAY exam papers exam papers. i need to ace my macro and absm! :D

Okay, got an awesome song to intro.

Dixie Chicks - Landslide
first heard it in glee and then went to youtube it. It's really an awesome song. Both the tune and the lyrics. :)

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing
Cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too

Well, I've been afraid of changing
Cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older, too
Well, I'm getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Yeah, and if you climb a mountain and you turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down

What's a great song to me?
A great song is when listener can easily relate to the song, and it's soothing to the ear, and meaningful lyrics.

Talking about GLEE.
There's this contest by StarHub!
http://www.starworldasia.tv/glee2
There's a chance to win a pair of tix to LONDON to watch GLEE LIVE! :D OH YES! I AM EXCITED JUST BY TALKING TO ALEX ABOUT IT! =D
LIKE OMGGGGG! and it's happening on the 25th June. Many great things got to happen in June huh? :)
SO, please, whatever that I plan in June, please have a happy ending too! =X
OKAY, I really want to win this competition.
THE TIX TO LONDON IS ALSO INCLUDED, PLUS THE LODGING! OMGNESS.
I WANT TO GO LONDON. TRUST ME, it's gonna be my best 21st birthday present if I get to go London and see those GLEE cast! :DDDD
I mean, they are definitely not coming singapore isn't it? :)
AND good thing is...... all I have to do, is to submit the form about the glee character I like! :D
SO, Im gonna do it V soon(like NOW!), cos I don't want it to affect my exams! :)
AND THEN PRAY THAT I GET TO GO LONDON!!!!!!! :D
IF NOT, I HOPE ALEX WILL GET IT, THEN I ALSO CAN GO LONDON! LOL!
AND BELOVED FRIENDS, YOU CAN ALSO TAKE PART IN THE CONTEST AND IF YOU WIN, PLEASE BRING ME ALONG W YOU! It will really be my most awesome 21st if that happens! :D

Okay, I'm tired.
GOOD NIGHT, gonna mug more tomorrow! :)
EXAMS, here I come. (:

Teardrops on my Guitar

2011-04-21T09:08:00.000+08:00

Didn't sleep well the whole night.
Was awake at 7am. Just lying on the bed, not doing anything.
Plug in my earpiece, listen to songs, hopefully to fall back to sleep. but FAILED.
I really dislike the feeling when I have the luxury to sleep yet I always can't sleep. ):
Just don't feel right at all.

So heard this song.... it has been super long since i listen to this song.

Taylor Swift -Teardrops on my Guitar

If I could sing half as nice as her, I will be SO glad. ):

I fake a smile so he wouldn't see. :)

head to the shower now.

2011-04-21T02:42:00.001+08:00

And I realized.. I ain't that impt anymore.

to risk or not to risk?

2011-04-21T01:40:00.002+08:00

Met up with Yvonne and Bob for dinner. :)
SUPER late dinner and I swear I was starving! ):
Anyway, I feel happy because I finally get to meet up with Bob. I have been seeing Yvonne often nowadays!
and last saw leo on oovoo. and it has been super long since I last saw Bob.
So yea! :D

And then Bob told us his Master plan! LOL!
He said by end of this year, he needs to find a bf.
I GUESS finally all of us... are feeling the.. " it's time to find that special someone "
For the past few days or maybe weeks.. I have been thinking abt it too. LOL.

It's not being desperate.. Who doesnt want to belong to someone.. to have someone to dote on..
To feel loved and to love. I have always been a person who rather love someone more than being loved.
I think for my past few r/s it had always been.. i love him more than he actually loved me back.
And I don't think this is gonna change. Just that hopefully, I will find someone who will love me as much as I love him. :)
Easy to be said obviously. But I think I will spend another (Idontknowhowlong) to find this special someone.
I do feel lonely sometimes and that.. how I wish I have THAT someone that I can disturb w/o fearing that he'll get mad or irritated.
I mean, yea, I do have friends that i can do the same too, but it's just a DIFFERENT thing.
I don't know if anyone get what I mean.

Leo said in his 22 yrs of his life, I am the best girl anyone can ever have... so I asked him... So why isn't he in love with me? Then he said, he fear of losing the Friendship and doesnt want to risk it.
To risk or not to risk?
If we did cross the line 2 yrs ago, what will both of us be now? Happily in love or not even best friend anymore? I much hope 2 yrs ago, we did cross the line. Because no matter what the r/s turn out to be, I am sure to still treat him as my bestfriend.
But both of us chose to keep it to ourselves.

The funny thing is.. a r/s always start out from a friendship. Does this means, those who are in love now actually risk the FS to be together? I guess so. But why are they not afraid of losing a friend then? Or were they very confident about how they feel about each other?

When we were in sec sch, everyone start to say.. how they hope to get married by age of BLAHBLAH..
I remember saying.. I hope to get married by 24.. first kid by 26 then follow by another one when I'm 28.
But at this point of time, I am very sure that.... my plan will definitely be push back.

and to Yvonne Chua,
Babe, I just want to say. It's time to move on. Trust me, there are better one out there for you.
Don't look back and just move forward. :) We all don't want to live in the past isn't it? :)
But whatever it is, I will always be there for you. I have to agree, it's hard to forget first love. :)

to risk or not to risk?
what will you do?

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

2011-04-20T12:57:00.001+08:00

I hate the week of the month....

):

2011-04-20T10:55:00.000+08:00

Only saw this when I on my laptop today morning! :D
TEBAN, you totally make my day! :D
STUDY HARD!

I'm gonna study too! :D

2011-04-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

Many thoughts in my mind after a day of serious studying and htht with leo.

I'm all out to Ace my first paper and last paper. :)
It's gonna be tough, but I believe I can do it.
Everything else can wait till after all my papers.
That includes something which I haven't settled for V V V long.
So JUNE is the month with great changes. :)
I can't wait. Be it good or bad, I'm turning 21 anyway. Things have got to be on the right track.
Hence, I will change some things... so that they will be on the right track.

I owe YOU an apology. I'm sorry.
will look for you in June too.

Today just ain't right.
I didn't start my day like usual. Sure will take a while to get used to it.

To risk or not to risk...

2011-04-19T09:23:00.001+08:00

okay, it's just WEIRD.

awesome friends. :)

2011-04-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

I feel happy skyping my best friend and YVONNE CHUA in the middle of the night now.
use oovoo, cos can video call 6 ppl at one time! and now, we all see each other.
I know I look unglam but who cares with good friends right? :)

Leo Nardo, please come back Singapore soon. So that I can whine to you. ):
I miss how you look at me and know what's up in my mind. ):
Like how we used to say, we read each other like tissue paper.

happy birthday!

2011-04-18T09:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO NARDO! :DDDDDD

withmanymanymanylove,

happy day. :D

2011-04-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

Gonna turn in early tonight, gotta accompany my sister to NTU tomorrow. ):
And it's super early in the morning, therefore... Yup. =)

Super adorable Stitch! :DDDD
New collection added on the 17th April 2011.
THANKYOU HPY! :DDDD

Happy 19th birthday Jasmine! :DDDD
We celebrated quite late ah! but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

Gotta cherish whatever I have now.
Gotta treasure everything now, Before it's too late.
Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with me physically or mentally.
Just feel as though life is super unpredictable.
And I don't like unhappiness and everything. :)
For now, I hope my exams to finish fast so that I can enjoy myself in Taiwan! :)
I am looking forward to the Taiwan Trip V V V much, although I know I just might feel "not right" there.
the not right feeling = 1 word that starts with J (hpy, you should know what's the word.)

Study hard from now on, FL! :D
you can do it. you can do it. you really can do it.
believe in yourself. :)

when we both start to get busy in life in the future, I'll still make time for you. :)
Because you always make my day! Thankyou! :)
and, dont feel guilty for today already. :) you're forgiven. Hope to see you soon. :D

2011-04-17T11:07:00.000+08:00

PMS day. ):
I feel grumpy.

and I am getting irritated V easily.
damn it.

胡夏 DAY!

2011-04-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

I did another crazy request! omgness. LOL.

changed my phone AGAIN today.
the previous one couldn't sync with Itunes. ):
Started off my day feeling damn sian, but then after seeing someone bright bright smile, my day was better.
Met sis @ somerset after that to go for the 胡夏's fan gathering! :)
and woooot, DJ Jia Fa is Handsomeeeeeee! :D

Took a photo with him after the event! :D

and of course, the 主角 is still fellow 90's baby - 胡夏!

Trust me man, if this is JJ's event! I would have gone crazy! and mad crazy! IT'S LIKE.. SUPER CLOSE INTERACTION WITH HX! SUPER NEAR REALLY SUPER! I WAS SITTING IN THE FIRST ROW SOMEMORE! OMGNESS! HIGHHHHHHHH! xD! SOFA SEAT SOMEMORE LEH! NOT SIT ON THE FLOOR. like WOOOOOOT! :D
Really didn't expect to see him in SG lor! It was all LUCK! :DDD who knows I dialed 933 and it just went through. :DDDDD
OH MAN.

Had Steamboat @ home in the night. :)
DELICIOUS MAN! :DDD
After that.. Family norm activities on saturday night.
MAHJONG. I WON I WON I WON. HEHEHEHE! :DDDDDD
LUCKY DAY TODAY! SERIOUSLY!
=DDDD
So many 自摸！

If everyday is as happy, it would be GOOD. =)

2011-04-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

TREATS!

short covers.

我很想爱他 - cover by me!

Yes I love you - cover by me!

okay okay, next cover song on my stressFUL day, will be english song! :D
i'll stand by you, smile? can't decide!

i hate those tiny words, make my eyes super tired.

2011-04-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

you will not understand.
you definitely will not understand. ):

lots of determination is needed.
the tiny words. million of them!
and then you realised you dont know how to answer them. OMG. ):
how depressing.
and then, you realised your phone is in a v ROAR situation.
how nice right! ):

depressed max day. ):

2011-04-15T17:26:00.002+08:00

While studying, I miss.............

those times. ):

blog tonight.

2011-04-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

it's friday tomorrow! ):
means... one less week till exams!
I'm scared seriously. =(

put your head in the game, FL!

I dislike it.

2011-04-14T11:06:00.001+08:00

why of all days man! ):
unpredictable though, so i can't get mad.
just unhappy/upset I guess.
you know when you set your mood for something, yet on that day it just got crash for unforeseen circumstances.
it's like, everyone is damn happy and high abt going to sentosa to play.
but then on that day itself, it's having thunderstorm, that kind of feeling..
the down and upset feeling.
ROAR.

Seriously, it brought my mood all the way down.
and crying for such a matter just ain't worth my tears. damn it.

2011-04-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

Maybe I just hope to feel a little more appreciated.

need you now

2011-04-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

2011-04-11T10:47:00.001+08:00

It's a new week and it's officially a month before exams..
Revision classes started, waking up at 6am is super torturing.
On saturday, I was so scared that I couldn't wake up, I didn't even sleep well!
I woke up practically at every hr. 3am, 4am, 5am.... Was suppppperrrrr tired after lect on saturday.
As for sunday, same thing, I had morning lect! ):
And what's the bad thing abt Iphone, the batt die SUPER fast.
I totally dread coming wednesday! ): 830-1500 and then 1500-2200. HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE MAN! )))):
Nevermind, I know I eventually will pull through the whole day! Better bring extra phone just in case! =)

Finally get to see CHW on sunday!!! :DDD
Thanks for the lovely bracelet, hongwei and peiyu! :D
it's so pretty that I really really love it! :)
I love personalised stuff! :) especially bracelet or necklace! ((:

I don't know if I am on the way of falling sick or what.
Please man, this isn't the period for me to fall sick.
I feel as though I'm having a temperature.. and I can't stop sneezing.
OH MAN, i realised yest I was kinda caught in the rain before i board the bus to SK.
and then I was sitting directly under the aircon. I can't be THAT weak right? Ohhhnooooo!!

Anyway, it's going to be a mundane week for sure.
At least 4 things for me to look forward to this week.
Changing my iphone on tues, meeting Jas on thurs after my lect, meeting 胡夏!! and Rina's 21st bdae on saturday.
So both my saturday and sunday were spent in school, but lucky me. I've got to meet my HPY. :D
I know when I see him, my day will brighten up. :)
Thanks HPY, for many things actually.
No matter how busy we will get in the future, like when you start school or whatsoever, remember if you need someone to talk to, I'll always be there for you. :D
因为我们是永远的好朋友!

Someone told me, he thinks I haven't been fully concentrating on my studies. I can't help but agree with so many distractions going on. =(
Maybe after this, I shall just not bother abt other things anymore and study really hard.
So I'm sorry guys, 16th April has got to be my last 21st bdae party that i'll attend.. until my exams are over. ):
I can't jeopardize my studies for anything else.
And also, I've decided to let some feelings go. At least I hope I wouldn't feel them during this time round.
Don't want to get emotional over it, always. =(
And to this someone, thanks for enlightening me. (:

I'm turning 21 in less than 3 months time.
It's not abt the celebration or anything like that which bothers me now.
But more of... I think it's time that I should learn to be independent.
I used to be independent, but I'm not sure when it stopped. ):
Not just that, it's time that I should be mature and stop being childish.
But of cos, all these doesnt happen with just a snap of fingers. Neither does it happen just because I am turning 21. It wouldn't even happen on the day when I turn 21. it's not like on 26th of June, I will wake up feeling like I'm an adult.
I seem to have split personality I think! It's like.. when I am at work, I am really not how I am when I am outside. I think working makes me feel like I have a responsibility kinda thing? But now that I am not working... mmm.. yea! =X
The child in me has got to sleep soon.

"the meal was good although we didn't talk much.."
this is what I have got to say....
True friends are two people who are comfortable sharing silence together—Ralph Waldo Emerson
or..
Sitting Together in Silence with Your Best Friend(though I'm not your bestfriend) and Feeling like It's the Best Conversation You've Ever Had. ((((:

If i'm unhappy, I know I have horlick icecream at home.
but if you are unhappy, you know the 8 digits to dial on your phone. :)

all or nothing.

2011-04-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

I am excited for my 21st! :DDD
I hope it's like tomorrow cos someone is gonna sing for me~~~~ :)
Totally made my pissed-off day!! :)

Thank you!! :DDDD

2011-04-08T22:25:00.000+08:00

omgness.
I was shaking terribly for the first time.....
cos I just sang on air!
OMGNESS.
scaryyy, exciting though! =X

because in the first place, I didn't know I will call through!
woooot! shiok! :D

3 more topics left! :)

2011-04-08T01:57:00.000+08:00

Finally I am done studying! :)
Topic 10 down!!!!
3 more topics left for Macroecons!
OH YES OH YES! :)))))
Economic growth, fiscal policy and monetary policy!

Today seems like a good day.
I should be as focus as today, although I started studying at quite a late timing! :)

and YOU, i miss you! :DDD
i really do. though you have been making me feel jealous! lol.

I am unemployed.

2011-04-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

I'm not done with unemployment and I feel as though I'm getting sick soon.
Got this irritating throat! ):
Anyway, listening to Glee the entire day on my Itunes! :)
If only I can sing as nice as anyone of them, seriously! Feel so depressing listening to their songs! HAHAHA!
but somehow it just keeps me going.
And recently, I'm listening more english songs than chinese songs!
Change in Taste and Preference!(too much econs! LOL!)

Feeling quite..... Sian today.
Seems like... not much people have their trust in me. ):
I remember asking my Best Friend if he trust me the other time, cos I wanted to blindfold him.
He happily told me NO. TBH, I felt quite upset.
And now, It just seem like another close friend of mine doesnt trust me as much either.
There must be smth in me that doesnt make them trust me. Which I really don't know what it is.
Or maybe, I just don't seem serious to them at all.
Need to do some soul searching real soon man!

Okay, just wanted to blog a lil.
heading back to my unemployment now.

happy day.

2011-04-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO! :D

I am super happy as of now... because of the growth dividend thingy! :)
It's just super surprising because I thought I wouldn't be eligible since my bday haven't pass yet!
So yea, I am happpppppy! :)

The whole day today was already quite happy because I got to see HPY! :)
And got to spend time with Kwang, Sister and HPY. :DDDD
LIKE "family" bonding before going to TW! (: I know we will have LOTS of fun in TW! :D
and I know the 2 guys will take care of both my sister and I! :D
But I will try to take care of myself as much as possible too! hahaha! :))))

AND I SAW THIS......

"我们的歌在这里" — 海蝶25周年纪念演唱会"

it's on 25th of June 2011. Like 1 day before my 21st birthday!
So this is going to be in my Wishlist and this is the 1st thing in my 21st-wishlist. :)
hello, ANY kind soul, would you surprise me n bring me to the concert?
LOL! okay, maybe I am thinking too much!! HAHAHAHA! :)
JJ will be performingggggg! :DDD

and WELCOME BACK TO SG Chw and Peiyu! :DDDD
I can't wait to see what you guys bought for Alex and I! :D
And BF i miss you terribly for 2 days!!!!!
but thanks to Alex, he kept me accompany via SMS/MSN/Twitter!

1 month and 3 days more to exams.
I need to be more serious.
And soon it will be over.
加油FL! :D

When you said Cya tomorrow, how I wish I can see you tomorrow. :)

Happy night!

2011-04-06T03:42:00.000+08:00

It's 3:40am now!
And I just want to say, I miss the person I am texting now.
:D
I was aslp n a msg woke me up. :)

In the middle of the night, my heart smiles! :))

no title no title.

2011-04-06T01:03:00.001+08:00

Okay, seriously, I feel super uncomfortable with my dad in my room for more than an hour already.
Seriously, just shift the desktop out of my room, Im not even using it! ):
Plus, him sitting inside = I cannot do things freely. -.-
yes, I want to sing on top of my lungs also cannot! I can't even sing softly. I feel SUPER uncomfortable.
The thing is, I don't even know what he's doing in front of the desktop man! Staring at the screen for the longest period of time... analysing soccer.
So sorry, I am not a guy, I don't discuss about soccer. I only support Man City because of Tevez, Roque Santa Cruz and not forgetting David Silva. They look ((((((((:

Anyway,
Strawberry totally made my day! :D
Although I know it's not fantastic, thank you for saying you like my voice! :)
It made me SMILE! :DDDD
Alex said : GOOD NIGHT! next time we sing candles tgt! Thou I don't Have the singing voice. Ill hum along!

And made my day X 2 : CHW
Thank you for your SUDDEN "hello" at night! :)

okay, happy...
because tomorrow gonna see HPY. :DDDDD

nights.

candles - hey monday

2011-04-05T20:54:00.001+08:00

Did a short cover for candles - hey monday.
And this is dedicated to AY. :)

Listen Here

Okay, Alex! I said the next song should be Kelly Clarkson's Cry.
But it's TOO big a song for me! =X
And for this cover of candles.. It ain't nice either! Seriously, I think this has got to be a..quite bad cover.
However, because I said I will do a cover for you!
SO HERE IT IS, your current favourite song. :)
And, it's only half a song.

Topic 10 of macro.
Just 3 more to go!!! :)))

a relatively happy day! :D

2011-04-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

Went to NUS today with CHW to look for Alex! :)
Sort of didn't want CHW to be alone on his bdae and that I want to drink the watermelon juice again! that's why! :P
if anyone actually believe that it's because of the watermelon juice that is! :P
However, today I did not have Watermelon Juice. As usual, I drank smth WEIRD! :)

Strawberry + Banana Juice! :DDDD HAHAAH! it's damnnn awesome! :)

After that, we went to arts. (okay seriously, there's much more stuffs to look at in Faculty of Arts! LOL!)
Like short short short shorts! :P
Well anyway, they have much nicer fruitjuice!!!! So I had something else....

The colour is so awesome right? RED APPLE + Yakult! :DDDDD
Someone's favourite yakult flavour! hence took a photo and mms him! LOL! =)

And Alex is seriously damn comical! HAHAHAH!
ALEX, I CANNOT FORGET THE WINK YOU GAVE WHILE WE SAID GOODBYE!
SERIOUSLY, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!? LOL!!!!! :P
nevertheless, I was happy to see you!!!!

and to CHW,
happy birthday once again. I hope you like the smurf t-shirt I bought for you.
I didn't know you like smurf! super coincidental huh? :)
Just like how I didn't know you like black forest. :))
so anyway, please stay happy and get well soon k? We'll go eat icecream soon when you recover.
and study hard! :) dont tabao any foundation units yea? :)

After which felt v tired, when home, bath and studied...
The highlight came here.....
Was V V V V V tired studying! Nothing much was going in, till my day got brighten! :DDDD
A very simple "Good Afternoon" brighten up my day. :)
thank you "evil" you! :D
And please take care and sleep early okay?

addicted to new song:
Candles by Hey Monday.

it's gonna be a good day.

2011-04-04T09:50:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING WORLD! :D

It's gonna be a good day, gonna meet CHW and AY! :D
for the damn awesome watermelon juice @ NUS! :)

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHW! :D

may you stay happy, handsome and sexy! <3

withlove,
yourGF

Chill out Sunday.

2011-04-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

Preparing for a new short cover. :)
Someone's favourite Kelly Clarkson's song!
It's a tough song to learn, but now it's on the loop!

Sense of relief?
I don't know how I am feeling exactly.
But today I didn't feel all that heavy, not much things coming my way. :)

Met Yvonne cause got her to help me get smth, which I feel so happy about it! :D
Got some stuffs that I needed too! (:
It was relatively a gd day today. Plus I got to see Nickneo. How coincidental is that? :)
Didn't really have the intention to visit csc today.
because..... oh well, i dont know how to continue from here.
but in the end, still decided to pop by, since Soon tat already knew I was at dhoby.
Got the senior BE ppl Eskimo, since ST always say i go back empty handed! roar
And plus, needed them to help me post some waiver. :) Thank you ST! :D

Random:
Totally, dislike the sight of STAIRCASE today. omgness. ):
Really hope the muscle ache will go off tomorrow! )))):

Just 2 more hours till scandal BF turns 23! :)
CYA tomorrow!!!!!

And like usual, I'm happy to see you today. (:
But is it me, or is it that.. you really dont want me to talk to you for 2 months?
I know you are just being plain "evil" and that what makes you, YOU! :)

A joke which I thought was sweet. :)

2011-04-02T12:38:00.000+08:00

This is supposed to be joke of the day.. but then I thought was sweet.

Here it goes:

An old man lived alone in Idaho. He wanted to spade his potato garden, but it was very hard work. His only son, Bubba, who used to help him, was in prison. The old man wrote a letter to his son and described his predicament.

Dear Bubba:
I am feeling pretty bad because it looks like I won't be able to plant my potato garden this year. I'm just getting too old to be digging up a garden plot. If you were here, all my troubles would be over. I know you would dig the plot for me.

Love, Dad

A few days later, he received a letter from his son.

Dear Dad:
For heaven's sake, Dad, don't dig up that garden. That's where I buried the BODIES.Love, Bubba

At 4 a.m. the next morning, FBI agents and local Police showed up and dug up the entire area without finding any bodies. They apologized to the old man and left.

That same day, the old man received another letter from his son.

Dear Dad:
Go ahead and plant the potatoes now. It's the best I could do under the circumstances.Love, Bubba

2011-04-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

i started off my day, not like usual.
Instead, I went for a run. (like unbelievable?!)
I think the last time I went to run........ is prob more than a yr ago.

April is going to be good. :)

I had a weird dream.
It's really weird.
I visited many places in my dream.
Some of which, I really want to go. =)

what's in my head.

2011-04-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

I truly have lots of emotions today.
Took another long ride from Serangoon to Pasir ris.
Earpiece plugged into my ear, with beloved's songs playing.
you know how emo can JJ song get right? Was trying hard not to think, just somehow it's not possible.
My eyes got wet, and I rub it off. Bus was too crowded, didn't want to be like a freak.
Reached Pasir ris, was an hr early. Roam alone the shopping mall myself.
Didn't really eat dinner also. ): Was just, not in the mood for anything.

The first thing my mum said to me when she saw me...
"EH, 你的眼睛为什么红红的？你哭啊？"
I just brushed it off saying.. no la.. nvr.. maybe study till too tired already.
Seriously, maybe it's because I haven't been sleeping well. ):
so many things carrying on my shoulder, so many things in my head, so many things left unsettled.
how do i sleep in peace?
我要能睡的安稳。。):

Sometimes I blame myself, for not being a good advicer.
All I can do is listen. ):
Really feel quite useless being just a good listener. ):
oh well, I seriously hope H will feel at least a bit better after I went down to HTHT with him. ):
Seeing H this way, I really feel awful deep inside. ):
All I can do, was to lend him a listening ear and my shoulder.
H, please feel better okay?

Who's there to listen to me then?
I don't feel right too.
Therefore, I am going to thank the one who I always turn to.
I really don't want to disturb you while you are at work, but I really.. need someone to listen to me.
Your message always make me smile no matter what your reply is. :)
and I am really happy for you that you passed your PPT. (: my cheerleader served her purpose eh?
Hopefully you will get what's bothering you solve soon too!
I know I'm not of a great help to you as well, all I can say is.. when you need me, i'll be there.

While on the bus, I was thinking.... why do human have so much problems?
Do birds/cats/dogs have their own problems too?
While I was sitting in the bus, while looking out of the window, I see birds flying around.. in grps or alone.
They look so carefree. Do they have their problems?
If they are always flying around, do they have their own friends too? Or do they always meet different birds?
So if they meet different birds, and if they do have their own problems? Who do they turn to?
Who do they consult in? Do they get to find their parents?
And do they sleep at night?
I know I have damn random thoughts tonight. ):
Oh well, I just hope that I can have less things in my head.

On another note,
succesfully April Fool-ed AY! :P
ALEX(you confirm will see this!), you are just too nice that we know you wouldn't be mad at us cos we prank on you! :P
WE MADE YOUR DAY, WE KNOW! :P
study hard hor! CYA ON MONDAY with CHW! :D

and,

I miss having something scribbled on my arm too. ): I think those days, we are not as stress as now, don't you think so?

fake happy me.

2011-04-01T12:06:00.002+08:00

that's enough.
it's too much for me to take.

i am fine.

Happy April Fool.

If no one will listen - Kelly Clarkson

2011-03-31T22:49:00.000+08:00

A song to myself:

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough that you would drown?

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
Screaming every step, "Just stay here"

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still
I will be here still

Dont make someone your priority when you're only an option.

To my HPY

2011-03-30T10:14:00.000+08:00

BLG - GO

"Little change of the heart, little light in the dark,
Little hope that you just might find your way out of here.
Cause you've been hiding for days, wasted and wasting away,
But I got a little hope today you'll face your fears.

Yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
Follow the lights to this city.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend,
Yeah I know you could make it through cause I believe in you.
So lets go put up a fight, lets go make everything alright,
Go on and take a shot go give it all you got.

Oh yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
No, it's not always pretty.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring,
Are you sitting down? I need to tell you something,
Enough is enough you can stop waiting to breath,
And don't wait up for me.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.
Don't look back just go,
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah. "

This is to you, the you who seem a lil upset abt work.

The you who seem to be upset about we both know what.

加油, my forever and always HPY！

Take a chance and be strong. :)

I know you can make it through, cos i believe in you! (as stated in the lyrics!)

2011-03-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

although this is really an emo song......

it's a great song.

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying
And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me crying

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

2011-03-30T00:21:00.001+08:00

why is it so hurting?

LOSER LIKE ME. DAMN IT.

not that i have nothing to talk to you. (makes me damn upset.)
was damn happy that i get to hear you.
oh well........

another random cover

2011-03-29T17:33:00.000+08:00

here's another one :)

cover of 6,8,12 by ME! :D

did another cover when I got bored studying! :)
inspired by CHW. :)))

Do you ever think about me
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep
In the middle of the night when you awake
Are you calling out for me
Do you ever reminisce
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

Chorus:
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away
I miss you so much
And I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better
But it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away

2011-03-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

I don't know.

I'm supposed to be the happy go lucky girl.

But even the most happy person on earth has got their down time.

Once again, I am feeling down again.

This time round, it's not just down.

I feel as though I'm losing myself.

As the days pass by so quickly, I fear.

I feel so freaking scared.

With so many people telling me.."you can do it one lar..."

Truth is, I don't think I can.

When I complaint saying.. "damn it, I really do not understand..... why I act smart take maths and econs?"

The answer I dislike hearing is.. "aiya, you so smart one.. sure can one la! you pro leh."

even if it's a damn sincere reply along that line, i still DISLIKE it.

SERIOUSLY, it's not helping. I actually need help instead.

You know sometimes I do feel happy that people think that I'm smart, but..... there are times, IM REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOST and HELPLESS. ):

All I can really do now........ Is to focus on my studies and try to save myself.

I swear it's stressing me out, I feel so no appetite today. ):

Yes, I wasn't even happy today.

I was DAMN moody. trying my very best to smile.

Hence, I went down to PS for lunch. because I know his smile will brighten my day.

Though I didn't get to see his really BRIGHT smile today. ):

Neither did he disturb me to make me smile. still, I feel slightly better having lunch w him and friends :D

I didn't have lunch with the other 2 before. :)

their topic about work, wasn't really what I wanted to talk about. so most of the time, I kept quiet.

Plus they were discussing about a guy who pissed me off yest night. )))):

I need to do some soul-searching I guess.

Feel so lousy about myself.

So lousy that, I feel that I have nothing my sister can look up to. ):

you know how classic younger siblings supposed to look up to the elder one?

She's like better than me in EVERYTHING.

okay, maybe I'm better than her in useless things.

I probably possesses better EQ, more musically inclined.. yea that's all.

USELESS things. seriously.

There are times, I hope, I have got her looks, her brains... her attractions.

IM JUST NICE. but who cares if you are nice. Afterall, most of the people.. always judge the books by their cover first!

I KNOW, I SOUND LIKE A JEALOUS SISTER NOW. that's not my point...

it's just.. I feel like a nothing compared to her.

I'm tired of myself.

sometimes I feel so lonely, that i wish there was a shoulder for me to lean on when I'm so tired.

a decision to make.

2011-03-28T13:51:00.001+08:00

i feel dumb for doing smth over and over again.
maybe it's time to not bother about it anymore. but once I've decided and put it to action.
there's really no turning back.

Which I probably think, it's best for everyone.

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

2011-03-27T23:31:00.001+08:00

I was damn happy today, because of horlick icecream.
and of cos, thanks to CHW! :)
really really really a great friend!

but, something have got to spoil my mood.
not just 1 thing! ):
1) I'm not even 21! ROAR!
2) I think someone just misunderstand me totally. I THINK. =X

Get it Right - Glee

2011-03-26T12:53:00.000+08:00

Was watching glee a few days ago.
Original song for GLEE. I really love this song. :)
"what can you do when your good isn't good enough."

What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Happy weekend!

full of thoughts.

2011-03-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

TODAY SUN IS REALLY KILLING ME.
it was so hot that i tied my hair.

Finally went down to post office to send lecture notes to Leo! :)
Speedpost is SOOOO expensive! wanted to do via express, the person advice that... just do by the normal one will do. 2 days difference. the prices is like almost double! =X
OMG! so anyway, $72 to China, Shanghai! I hope best friend will receive it soon! :D

So, was supposed to meet HPY for hotcakes today!
but didn't want him to rush here and there, so asked him not to. :)
he had physical proficiency test @ nie! :)
I really hope he pass it! :)

It's damn long since I had Just Acia, so decided to have that for dinner!
The dinner is not the important thing, but the person I was having dinner with! :P
I WAS SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR IN MY HEART OKAY! HAHAHA!
After that, went down to COMPASS POINT! :DDD
brings back lots of SR memories!
still remember going to compass point early sat morning to have GP consultation with Mr Andrew @ starbucks.
still remember going to compass point after school for lunch/dinner.
still remember chilling out at CP.
the arcade @ CP has got to be a weekly trip with Leo, we were aiming to become VIP.
totally miss compass that much.

so bought this chicken biscuit which I REALLY DO NOT REMEMBER EATING WHEN I WAS YOUNG! (mummy, why you nvr give me childhood! so sad!)
then we went to Community Centre to chill out.
it really doesn't matter what I do with the person, but it's just the companion that matters. really.
we did stupid things, like talkbox though we were in front of each other.
im probably tired. hence, i didn't really talk much at first. but it's only near the.. "im supposed to go home.."
then we started talking! ROAR! =X
So yes, after talking so long... this person... i was out with.. is not any random guy.
I was out with my HPY. :)
Zhao Xiang, thanks for always bring joy to my life. (: Even if it's "bullying" me.
永远的好朋友!

while on the way home,
I was thinking about a lot of things. okay, maybe not a lot. since the journey was only around 35 mins.
However, still must thank HPY for accompanying me home.. via fast sms replies. :)
Felt quite sad on my way home, a lot of things.. from school work, to work(yea Starhub. though i quit alr.), to friendship, to relationship.
in that short 35 mins, so many things flash in my head.

Have I lost faith in love?
Thinking back, it just sucks to know that... when you put your whole heart into something, and it just isn't right. you end up getting yourself hurt.
I'm just afraid I guess. So maybe I have been telling myself. enough of it, I'll just focus on my studies for now.

But afterall, who doesn't want someone.. who will dote and care for you?
Who doesn't want someone who will listen to you when you're upset, troubled?
Who doesn't want someone who will love you the way you love them?
I've always been finding for this special one. But now....... it's just NOT the time I guess.

For now, I have lovely friends around me who care for me, they probably love me the way i love them too. :)
so i shall not be bothered abt RS for now?
Thank you all of you, who never leave me even though for sometime i have been cold to you people.
especially

to Leo Nardo. I know I haven't been talking much to you. but no one will ever replace you as my BFF okay? :)
you know how special you are to me, don't you? :)

to Yvonne Chua. Hey babe, we have been through MANY ups and downs. we quarreled, we ignored each other for many mths before. but now here we are, still as close as sisters. I really cherish and treasure you. i love you babe. :)

to Bob Thanks for making the effort to always asking to meet up! :) I really miss those SR days when we will hang out after school or even study outside. at Srg garden mac. and everywhere else. Thanks for not forgetting about us. :)

to the 3 of you, we'll forever be a clique! :)

to my 8 sisters in BV(manhong, sock, clariss, kai'en, nadia, chai min, xiaowei, shirla) :
We may be all busy with our different lives now. But then, we still bother to meet every CNY, birthdays, or occassionally dinner. :) I know when I'm troubled who I can go and look for. and I know that WE will not be apart. no matter what! :) thanks sisters! :DDDD

to Khairunnisa:
Babe, you are DAMN impt to me. although we really rarely talk nowadays. we did so many things together.
we went through crazy times in NCC together. and me choosing you to work w me. having you as my APC was great. I miss all those times! studying at mac for Os.
let's forget abt the work thing k! :) I STILL HEART YOU MANY! :)))

to HPY:
you're not just a normal guy. :) I know you know how much you mean to me!
you brighten up my day, always.

I wish the best for all of my friends! :)
please stay happy all of you! cos FL doesnt like it when anyone of you are upset!

Tomorrow will be a better day!
breakfast with my FAMOUS friend, Min Hua!!! :D

tonight is a damn hot day.
i dislike it. ):

YOU

2011-03-25T12:23:00.001+08:00

YOU, 加油 and ALL THE BEST! :DDDD

morning!

2011-03-25T10:07:00.000+08:00

no more hotcakes. ):

the friendships just get stronger! :D

2011-03-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

newly form group. :)
alex.hongwei.peiyu.me! :D

Alex is REALLY a super funny guy!
Totally can click w him. both our laughing point SUPER low! :P
Out with him is like laughing NON-STOP! :))))
Thanks Alex! :D

looking forward for more outings with them! :DDDD
probably a trip to NUS for FRUIT JUICE! :P

i cant wait for breakfast tomorrow! :DDDD

2011-03-24T13:22:00.001+08:00

what can you do if your good isn't good enough?

2011-03-24T09:43:00.002+08:00

oh man, i dislike going to toilet so many times just in the morning! ):

2011-03-24T02:41:00.000+08:00

I can't seem to fall aslp.. Mayb I'm troubled?
Someone.. sweet..
Sang for me in the middle of the night.. so that i might just sleep easier.
I'm more than just touched, brought me to tears.

Then I realized,
How fortunate I am.
To have known many great friends.

Thank you, CHW! :)

today is a happy day.

2011-03-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

Woke up, did some ABSM questions.
Trying to get the hang of equivalence relations. :)
Finally I understand how things go! *thumbs up*
totally love listening to 93.3FM while studying and doing questions!
Especially when JJ song start playing on the radio~ and it's like WOAHHH, then i'll take a break. hahahah! :)

But today, decided to drop a visit to NUS! :)
I feel smart entering the school. LOL!!!!! =X but the school is so messy! Their signboard is NOT V HELPFUL! :)
ANDDDD I SAW ALEX YOW TODAY! :D My Mr Teban! :P
Thank you for the AWESOME watermelon juice treat today! :DDD

But the main motive was to accompany my HPY to NUS. :) He needs to apply for uni but then lost his pin! The trip was kinda wasted? He didn't get a new pin, instead he has got to use type 2 form.
At least got to see AY in school! :D hopefully HPY get into NUS too! Then next time if i visit anyone of them, I can get to see both of them! :D
After that went down to PS, needed to buy something from daiso and craving for Swensen's Icecream! :D
HPY has got some things to settled also. So yup. :)
Had dinner and then ICECREAMMMMMMMMM! :D
how happy can I get man? Spending my day with someone who literally makes me smile every moment even though he's teasing me everytime! :)
but I've allowed him to do so, :) His unique way of caring probably? :P

while on the way home, felt a lil weird.
I think cos I ate at a v late timing today! =(

okay, gonna sleep!
Gooooood night! :D

oh, CYA ON FRIDAY! :DDDD

morning! :)

2011-03-22T10:30:00.001+08:00

GOOD MORNING! :D
just woke up not long ago, the weather is TOO nice, so I slept a bit more today.
As usual, woke up at 8 plus, seriously it's in me already. everyday i almost wake up around the same timing.
my body clock is super strong and good. I don't need an alarm clock! :P

Really tired recently. ):
Still can't get over the fact of my 2 pimples! =X
oh man, I am craving for hotcakes! not now I guess, tomorrow I'll get them probably. :)

Yesterday I got home and GUESS WHAT, there's a hugeeeee cockroach in the kitchen!
OMGGGGGG! I immediately run back to my room! =X
EEEEEEW~ i think im more afraid of cockroach then lizard.
cockroach WILL just FLY to your face man!

ANYWAY...
click here
you wouldn't regret!!!! :)))
okay la, actually just another random singing of mine. but I thought LIKE NOT BAD! HAHAHAHAHA!
普通朋友! (:
listen already tell me how is it okay?!?!

ohohoh!!
hpy, then you are booked on 2606! :)

blogging @ KBOX bedok POINT! :D

2011-03-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

HELLO ALL,

I am at kbox bedok point with Kwang. :)
Met Kwang for dinner @ Bedok point and we didnt know what to do after that, so we decided to go and sing!
Since monday night kbox only $8. So why not!
and I am under stress man, I have 2 pimple popping on my face. 1 on each cheek!
how nice seriously!
please please please, i hope before i go tw i will recover from this ugliness seriously! OMGNESS! =X
totally dislike it, it has been SOOOOO long since i last saw a HUGE pimple on my face.
oh man! =X I feel so sad! =(
Especially after my mum said... "omg, why so ugly?!!?"
hello mummy, i am damn stress okay! ): I NEED DARK CHOC! booooooo~ so upset! ):

(okay, at this point of time, kwang is singing! so I am taking this time to blog. seriously, damn convenient that there is a computer here! I can keep myself accompany while he's singing! lol!)

Anyway, I think my voice like machiam spoilt already! ):
damn upset about it also! wah, today seriously like a DOWN day.
talking about DOWN, i think ABSM seriously do not like me! ))))):
Maths, you know that i love you right? since primary school, you have been my fav subject, why are you going so hard on me now?! ))))):
dont abandon me please! ))))):

was talking to yvonne about REGRETS yesterday.
I decided.. to do things that I have been wanting to do! (:
After exams, after coming back from TW.
I would start working. and at the same time I would pick up guitar class! :)
and also, the next singing competition, I will go and take part in it! (:
Always do not have the gut, but since so many natural disasters happening, I think i should not waste my life!
THEREFORE I HAVE DECIDED... :)

(okay, my turn to sing! BLOG LATER!)

byeeee! :D

the 2 hot guys - AY & CHW

2011-03-21T11:54:00.000+08:00

before i start studying....
I had a damn dramatic dream! OMGNESS.
YEA, I DREAMT OF 2 HOT GUYS (IN AY's words!)
I dreamt of hongwei and alex! OMGNESS! like what a dream right! =X

I dreamt that I got ditched by CHW was damnnnn upset that i ran out of house...
when the lift door open at the first level.... i saw Alex.
So he was there cheering me up!
HOW DRAMATIC CAN MY DREAM GET!
just like VV drama, typical hongkong drama! HAHAHAHAH! =/

TSKTSK.
i must have disturb AY too much! =X
okay Alex, i shall not call you TEBAN anymore!
and if you are reading this, PLEASE STUDY HARD FOR YOUR TEST! :D
cyaaaaaaa like V V V SOON!

and chiahongwei, i will be nicer to you k! =]]
though i don't want to go USS with you. OOOOPS! :P

2 hot guys to start off my week.
my week should be GOOD.

and, you.. EVERYONE out there,
加油!

2011-03-20T23:39:00.000+08:00

unglam photo:

back on retainer...

21st and some misses.

2011-03-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

Just woke up from a very bad headache, must be the super hot sun and the not enough sleep that cause my headache! ): Didn't bring out my shades! it was such a good time to look COOL! :P

Consecutively had 2 21st Birthday party to attend for this weekend.
Good thing that one is on the Saturday and one is on the Sunday. :)
Happy birthday Herman Loh and my 傻大姐 XiaoWei!! :)

19thMarch2011: Herman's 21st birthday party! :D

20th March 2011: Xiaowei's 21st birthday Party:

Seriously, XW's house is SUPER BIG!
there's like a indoor SPORTS HALL?! you can play badminton, you can play pool, you can play table tennis.
there's a treadmill too?!

and this is one of the balcony. it's so long till.............

a model( i have no idea why i type LAWYER) can practically walk to and fro to practise her walking! can build a swimming pool man!
seriously, the house is lack of a swimming pool and a lift.
ALL 8 siblings with their own room, how awesome? almost all have got their own toilet.

Everyone is asking around now if we are going to have a party... and I was thinking about it.
And I think I came to a conclusion. Instead of having a party, I guess I'll just spend the day with close friends. [OR MAYBE A HTHT SESSION AT NEX TEADOT W THE PERSON WHO SPEND 21st doing the same thing would be good(: ]
And in the first place, I am not sure who will be free that day. =/
a surprise would be good too! :P

BUT FIRST OF ALL, I WOULD WANT TO THANK MY BELOVED SISTER!! FOR AGREEING TO BUY FOR ME A POLAROID FOR MY 21ST! :DDD THANK YOU SISTER!

MUCH LOVE! :DDDD

(OKAY, I BLOG SUPER LONG ALR, INTERNET CONNECTION WENT DOWN, RESTARTED THE COM... and the whole post was gone. spoil my blogging mood!)

it's almost a month since i left work. and i still miss those people very much. ):
the feeling is really sucky when you wake up knowing that you don't get to see them! all you see now is BOOKS. and LECTURE NOTES! like how nice?! =(

but good thing is, I have already fallen in love with macro.
SO, micro and ABSM it's time that you guys fall in love with me, so that i can understand you REALLY well. alright? :)
I'll be nice to you, so please be nice to me as well! Just till 1st of JUNE! :D
I promise I will spend much more time with you people okay?
NO MACRO tmr! just ABSM and MICRO! :D

before someone say i horse behind cannon... :P

I guess you'll not know how's the feeling of knowing I don't get to see you today, tomorrow, the following day, and so on..
don't know when i'll get to see you next, don't know when i'll get to poke your face.
but trust me, i'll find my next silly reason to go down to look for you. :)
it might just be the MOST SILLY reason. but I guess, it wouldn't be so soon okay? (:
I know you wouldn want to see me every week too!! before you say I never study!! :P
我还不了解你吗？
oh, and I was really happy that I got to see you on sat. (: REALLY NOT HORSE BEHIND CANNON. but you do look tired eh! but anyway, still bring smile to my face!

Tomorrow,
it's the day when I'll get things settled.
but I am actually afraid and scared. ):
Really hope that things will be fine.. or things will get better.
I hope I can do it... right.

I need to be more courageous.

加油！

2011-03-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

如果有一天，我回到从前。 回到最原始的我，你是否会觉得我不错？

心里有好多感触，很复杂。
可是，我下定决心了。
不能在回头！！

加油！

2011-03-18T15:54:00.000+08:00

我的JJ好可爱啊！！！！！
只要看他一眼就充满了活力！
哈哈！　
休息够了，　读书去了！

用中文感觉好亲切！
也比较。。。close. LOL!

2011-03-18T11:50:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING!

craving for egg tarts today! OMG!
I have weird and random cravings! =X