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hmm.. at 8:01 PM

unhappy day today.
shall not elaborate.
i dont want to ruin things or you know.....
so... well.. i shall keep everything to myself.



Why do i feel this way?
hais.


holding other things constant! at 12:59 AM

CETERIS PARIBUS, I AM GOING TO SLEEP!
4 more days! ): *bury my head!*
19 more days! :D *smile wide wide!*


abusing technology. at 11:15 AM

i'm officially turning crazy while studying. ):
Sigh.


I'm abusing technology.
Im gonna be late for tuition yet im blogging... how irony right?
lol, i really love irony and paradox now.
because i can answer the qns now. HAHAHA!


It's gonna be overrrr very soon. isnt it cool!
Just 20 more days and i have my super duper long holiday.
Well, this means that i have to get a job. SIGHHHH~
i wanted to be a pig and laze at home.
And i think that this christmas will be damn lonely also... ):
Bob will be away.. not sure if he will book out.
Yvonne, also dont know where she will be.
FangHan i think away with class to genting.
Leo will be back in indo!
ZR.. i think also in camp.
AIYOOOOO christmas lehh, why so boring! ):

Okay, im thinking damn far! LOL!

BTW!!! i can go Malaysia with my friends!
WOOOOOOOT~
I... cant wait. WAHAHAH! (:
Limited amount of cash will be given to me though!
but, that's not impt! impt is i can go!
HAHAHAAHAHA!


My time is running short now, i have got to go and bath and prep everything for tuition!
WAHHHH, everything is coming upon me! where got time to finish so many things??
At least im prepared for 2 h2 and 3/4 prep for chem! ):
Physics, may miracle happen. )))):


everybody's changing and i dont feel the same!


no title. at 11:03 PM

Life is such a bore.
in 3 weeks time, i can enjoy a lil already.
Time flies and really really fly.
I see my friends going SO crazy.
wah, crazy!



In a few days time, it's the day to decide my future.
It wasnt an easy path.
I walk through it so.. even if i know i can't make it.. i will not stop here.
i will... walk finish this journey.....
At least i know i learnt something in SRJC, ranging from the smallest thing to knowledge.
Education is not truly about knowledge.


Thought through alot these few days..
it's not about how others view you.
but about how you view yourself. Therefore, if you really did not make it... think of your alternative plan. don't moan or groan. Well, you caused it yourself didn't you? And look up and continue your life with pride. There are successful people who took a long time in their life to become successful right? So, don't let failure overcome you. As long as you dont give up on yourself.
Let those people laugh at you, mock at you, look down on you, get disappointed with you.... but you know that one day.. u will just prove all of them wrong!


Oh well, i can't believe that i just bullshit for that freaking 5 mins. ):
Seriously, at this point of time, all i needed is just a lil pat on my shoulder...
and some motivations. I'm near this point of depress. Near this point where i would just give up everything. I am....... near my own death. I......will soon witness my own death.






BYE.


(: at 1:04 PM

Oh yes! (:
im happy whereas not feeling good.


I will take my A level in peace! wheeeee~ :D


not possible. at 9:44 AM

THE PERSON GOING TO MYANMAR! PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! <3

you will be missed!



I caught a flu! ): Must be punggol park yest and the rain. =/
Ah! I better recover soon. so irritating. been sneezing the whole night.

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动
不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞
你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动
抚平我每一个伤口
忍不住 想要吻你的冲动
不确定我的执着 能让你感动
我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落
关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友
还没勇气想得太多
你的世界如此辽阔
我会在哪个角落


Woah. Finally a song that describe TOTALLY how i feel! OMGGG! (:
nice song. Elva-冲动



I have tuition tomorrow but i have not do my work.
So....):
i dont know whether i want to go or not.
it's at night somemore. should i or should i not?
Still deciding.

Shall blog again soon.
no mood to blog nowadays.


(: at 10:23 PM

There's 2 types of market failure.
Partial or Complete.

In the case of negative externality, we assume that MPB=MSB.
The MPC curve shows the MC incurred by the firm. Marginal Social Cost is the sum of Marginal Private cost and Marginal External cost. Marginal External Cost is the extra cost incurred by 3rd party, who is not directly involved in the production or consumption, for the additional unit produced and are not compensated.
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Okay, the above must have bore you! OF cos, it must have.


Friends don't fight, they only misunderstand you! (:


Anyway, i really really really want to go malaysia with Leo, Bob and Yvonne after A level. ): And now, my dad doesnt allow. I'm so sad! SIGH! i really really really really want to go. so sad la, but * managed to make me SMILE! (: Like he always do! He just possess this magic! (:
I really hope that i can go la. it's a goooooood chance! HAHAHA! BOB MAY KNOW WHAT IM THINKING ABOUT! (:
So boring la, don't allow me go malaysia i will just go to my friends house and stay over night! HMPF! if not i will just disappear!


12 days to A level.
12 days!
omg! freaking 12 days!
27 days to freedom! SO SCARY LA!
i look through the Entry Proof and i think that... actually it's okay... just that there's this day with Chem paper 2 and Econs P2. i think i will just die writing so much! OMG! ):


I've got GP consultation tomorrow which i really dread going. ):
not that i dont want... i mean, it's so weird.. in the middle of the day. SIGH! ):
And i want to go KBOX AFTER A LEVEL! LIKE REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO!
28 days till i get to go KBOX with Jiang! (:
I need to save already!
i want to GO BUY LOTS OF RANDOM STUFF AFTER A LEVEL! I WANT I WANT I WANT!



I think there's something which i always wanted, but then because it has been too long.. i dont want it anymore! Like what someone blog say... ppl change! People's wants change toooooo!


think im going off. byebye! (:


Fanglin feels that she no longer... at 12:01 PM

I had tuition and had fun yest.
Full stop! (:

Study! (:


yay! at 12:05 AM

Did SAJC chem prelim paper 08!
And now, i feel so tired! ):


Life isn't good.
Life isn't smooth.
LIFE IS ALL SO DRY AND BORING!



LIFE IS GOOD, with *'s msg and motivation!


WAHAHA! (:



I have tuition tomorrow!
this means that i can see KHAI!
and, i'm meeting someone after tuition too! wooooot~



now it's past 12! so i should say... 13 more days to A level and 28 more days to Freedom! (: OH YAY! I am a happy girl!




as unhappy as i maybe, i still love you.
i learnt to love and not getting anything in return. (:
Although you are deep deep in my heart, i still hope that one day... u will still feel the whole of my heart again.
I just need a lil more care, a lil more concern, a lil more love from you. I'll be satisfy.


i hate to compare. but i always do.
I feel so lousy comparing myself to her.


FANGLIN!!!
Believe in him, believe in yourself!
As cliche as it may seems, true love... will show its way! (:



STUDY HARD PEOPLE! (:
internet is kinda slow now, so i shall post grad day photos up tomorrow!(if the com is working! <3)


CANCER! at 10:56 PM

CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.


): at 10:17 PM

i'm totally upset to begin with.
Saying that i feel nothing would be a lie.
I'm still a girl afterall.
If a girl is entitled to be sad, to get jealous... i don't see why... i can't.




I teared all over again.


NEW SONGS! (: at 3:35 PM

JJ New song!



Just look at my husband!
He changed hairstyle again! AHHH! so cute and adorable!
Support local singer! (:
His album is officially out today!
i've all his album, so of cos i'm going to get this album too!


Grad! (: at 6:39 PM

So, there i go....
Graduated from SRJC already! and i hope that i wouldn't go back!
I don't want to too! (:

Anyway, Got stuff from Ms Tan, Mr RA, Mr Tan Toh Hwee! (:
Chem dept got us testtube where they make themselves! (: soooooooo pretty! got our name somemore! (: It's handmade by our own respective chem teacher!! also Ms Tan got for us this clear folder thingy!
RA is forever writing for us touching Love Letter and now, i feel so motivated again! (:
As for Mr Tan TH! He got for us PILOT PEN! hahaha! i suspect that he work there before! jkjk! This adds on to my collection of pen from him! this is the 6th pen! (: Wahahah! Believe is the word printed on the pen! And i've got a beautiful pink one! it's those ink pen that cost like 2.70 per pen? Woahhhh~ =/


The buffet food not nice one sia! Still make us pay $5 for it! ahhh, but then being the kiasu us, we went to take twice! EH! $5 leh! With inflation and rising prices now,we should make good use of our money! hohoho!
AND WE DID NOT GET OUR YEAR BOOK! *URGHHH!* we can only get it when we're taking GP paper. Reason being there's some wrong info in the annual itself. So, they recalled everything back. URGHH~ well, it's okay!


I still remember last yr, i slot the j2 photo into that thing! this yr we also dont have anything from the school lo! So boring sia! have money to do so many renovation but nothing for the students! -.-


All of a sudden i feel this emptiness!
Shall not elaborate. ):


(: at 6:41 AM

Grad day is today! (:
Look, a few more mins and then the ceremony is going to start.
now, im still at home!!
mixed feeling, and it's really mixed! From now on, i'm on my own.
Which means that i have to work hard with no one pushing me but me pushing myself!
Ah, it was the day that i long waited for, but now.. i hope that it wouldn't come.
Well, at least not this fast.



Oh well, shall blog more later!



*i couldn't sleep last night because strawberry cupcake was in my mind! =/
i'm not being unfaithful. ahhh! what's happening? The look from him will kill me!
the smile from him will melt me! ):
At the same time i'm thinking about you....


didn't know at 9:04 PM

I didn't know that studying can be so fun! (:
There's a reason for me studying hard though.
Shall expose this after A level!
As for now, blog soon. need to get back to my studies!
btw, i've never seen myself so hardworking before! LOL!


All for the one you love? at 8:55 PM

No time for anything else.
That feeling... i kept it right in my heart!
37 days later! i will reveal it ALL OVER AGAIN!


Pre A level life. at 10:25 PM

my life now is so boring.
Today i did something... really crazy.

I went to sengkang... some void-deck to study myself!
hahaahha.. this was how crazy i got.
Windy mah! HAHAHA! and i like the place.. so quiet and everything can really concentrate. So i did like 2 maths paper in like 2 hrs? how is this possible? I have no idea too. the paper was just..... "i can do it!" just go and try.. MI or TPJC prelim 08 paper! i think it's really do-able! (:


So today.. i.... act sick ah.
dont want to go for tuition. Okay, i was really in a state of.... craziness.
Anyway, so i went to meet ZR in the afternoon. from 12-1+.
i just needed to see him. No other reasons for meeting. Met for.. breakfast/lunch. however wasn't in the mood for food. Must be because of that day the sushi.. make me so full sia! anyway, hmm.. had a STRAWBERRY TART! yayyy! so so nice! (:
i always LOVE fruit tart! (:
After that went to walk around.... time with him is always like super short! it's like.. someone keep taking away the time! =/ So sad sia! SIGHHH~
now, i dont know when's the next time i'll see him. so ya. 37 days to freedom. 22 days to A level! I so need to study! it's just 3 more weeks. not 3 more months. Is it because i know i can't make it already? Tat's why i....seems so cant be bothered? ):
But... education isn't about the result is it? It's so confusing.


Anyway, After i left him.. went to yvonne's house there to study.. and then... left there at ard 5+ 6.. den went to compass point cos i was urgent! LOL! anyway, THANK YOU YVONNE FOR THE LIANGTEH! (: LOVE you to the max!


Met Leo at Serangoon Mrt station. Went down to Kallang Leisure Park(for the 2nd time). ZX was also there! (: as in.. he was waiting for us there! So ya, played arcade. Time spent there was short too. Played like crazy! BBALL like crazy.... the machines there a lil cocked-up one lo. )): But well, we had fun! (: 10 bucks worth of fun and stress relieving! (:


A brand new week gonna start again. Oh man. one more week left in school. ):
and that's it.. im all on my own!


CHIONG AH! FANGLIN!!! believe in yourself! :D


LOVE is when i found ZR! HAHAHAHAH! :D


can't overcome.. at 10:21 AM

i cant seems to overcome my temptation. ):

I can't seems to hold on to myself.

I don't understand why.



Evil thoughts in my mind.
I feel so lazy now to even go for tuition. Ohman! ):
Yes, i think i'm the ultimate slacker in the whole wide world.
I think.. i'll let many people down this time round.
Especially myself.



Blog again soon. Still deciding whether i want to go for tuition or not. BORING! -.-


Happy birthday! at 11:14 AM

Happy Birthday to Bob and Claudia! (:
I hope the cake and the jelly are nice. LOL!

Shall post up some pictures.. waiting for the rest from Leo though. (:


US! like always will be. (:



BOB'S RIGHT AND LEFT HAND WOMAN! :p


THE GUYS!


LOL! JUST SO INTO MYSELF! LOL!



AH! SO NICE! HAHAAHHA! (:

Tat was the only fun evening of the week. =/


One week more left in school. ):
with wednesday free from exam-but i've got Mrs pah consultation.
Monday-Maths and Chem P2
Tuesday-Physics P1/2
Thurs-Chem Post Mortem.
Fri-Grad Day!


So proud of myself. I finished one maths paper in like 1.5 hrs. Can u believe it. OMG LA! =/ that prelim paper was.....simple la. omg! It's a.... CONFIRM A paper.


Anyway, here to introduce one song!



无形的翅膀-MLB!

okay, it's a not bad song! At least i think it's the best song from their 2nd album!
it's a song best listen at night or listen when ya emo. Ya, listen to it! (:

shall blog again later! :D


(: at 8:25 AM

I feel so drama! ):
I meant... i couldn't sleep last night.
=/


Oh Well...
PERSON!!! GET WELL SOON K! (:


I do feel useless though. Don't know how to explain this feeling.
Lots more feeling that shouldn't be typed here.


I think i'll blog more later.
Going for Mrs Pah consultation and Mr RA consultation.
Think i'll be home by 2. FH is coming over!


):
Wo dui wo zi ji er gan dao hen nan guo.


))): at 11:00 PM

担心死了！！）：


Feel so worried but at the same time......
I felt useless.


so bored! at 9:13 AM

alright! now i'm like roaming around singapore! lol! so my lover fell sick! just not my day! sigh! when can i see him again? =[so sad lo! well, but nonetheless, hope that he get well soon! i'm like hungry and like super cold on the bus la. omg! yvonne chua! where are you! =[


ENDING! at 10:40 PM

8 more days in school.
Oh well, ): Feel so sad leh! actually it's........
7 more days in sch! Wednesday, Thurs, Fri(for consultation only!), Mon, Tue, Thurs and fri is grad day! ):


Oh well, i'm quite glad, no.. not quite.. is very glad that when the school terms end, i'm proud to announce.... i have 5 best friends in SRJC! (:
(i know i shouldn't be blogging here, should be studying econs. But oh well, later later.. now quite lethargic.)


When i first enter SRJC.. was so clique-y with my secondary school friends. they are not just my friend. but classmates since sec 3. As for Shirla, since primary school. Nadia since sec 1. Jungyi since sec 3. Yup, and then we chose the same subject combi for JC. (: and then.... So happen that Jung and Shirla same class whereas Nadia and Me same class. 1S25'07. Everyone love each other, although there maybe disagreement sometimes. We may not be the best class but everyone indeed put in their best! (:
My first eye candy was in my class! and the first guy i like in SR also from my class. LOL! Different person! But well, surprising? HAHAHA! So much memory sia! ):
Still remember how the class guys will just stroll into the classroom. And take like ten thousand yrs. Yea, now im starting to miss those times. And times like we go play bowling? We go Kbox and sing. Oh well, so cool.
There were 2 distinct clique in class.. the eng clique and the chi. HAHAH! well, the eng one all from girls' sch+Emma! now you understand why! but we are still close though! (:


Promo, not everyone get to promote. Some got advanced but chose to retain, some transfer to poly, some just couldnt make the mark. And many, MANY.. really MANYYY scrape through. Class got disband and splitted into 2 classes. tat's when everyone starts to miss everyone! hahaha! (:

2S21, not a bad class! Enjoyed my stay there! So now i still have SHIRLA LEE! HAHAHAH! (: the girl who has been my friend since primary school! i seen her grow okay! hahaha! anyway, it's really fun being in s21! with the wongs, mella and mona, kelly, vonny and rania, of cos with wanyin, rebecca, val and my DARLING FANGHAN! (:
there's guys like guanjie, richard, kaifeng, darian, dev, daniel, imbrahim, nelson, juijen, alan, timothy, pohkiat, and my Very good friend, LIPSENG! (: Although we always get to the top for smth bad and get to the bottom for smth good, we nvr give up! We made improvements! YAY! (: Simply love s21 as much as s25.


My 5 best friends. Although some i did really have a HUGE quarrel before.. i still treasure them like crazy! Yup, no secret... Like huge quarrel with CHUA! and BOB!
I'm really grateful that i have them! They are always there when i needed them! Although i may not show it out, i do really care for them. Like how they feel and everything. Sometimes i may just say some hurtful stuff, i hope they.. don't take it to heart! ): I simply love all of them!
KUDOS to you people!
the cute and efficent forever!- my BFF: LEO! :D
the supercrazywoman!- my SWEETY: YVONNE CHUA! :D
the oh-so-forever-nice! -my "boyfriend": BOB! :D
the forever making me smile! -my DARLING: FANGHAN! :D
the always make me feel so special girl! -my SUPER GOOD FRIEND: CLAUDIA! :D


Also, im glad that i'm in SRJC! With many caring teachers! (:
I have firstly, JIANG LAO SHI!!!! She is the best!! <3333 her! :D
She never fails to encourage us! even till now! Even though we may not be her students already, she still give us stuff to encourage us! and bdae present! Love her! (:

Next i've Miss Tan Ling Min! ALthough she maybe strict, i really enjoyed her lessons! She and her lame-ness. and also, her very good teaching!!

MRS LUCY TAN! Her forever motherly love and her "this is very easy one. can score!" Yes, she say it to every single topic! HAHAHA! (: I missed her last maths tutorial and i feel so bad! ): Sighhh~ But oh well, i miss her! LOTS! :D Thank you for never giving up hope on me!

there's Miss Tan Ee Yong too! She always want us to understand and sacrifice many hours for extra lessons to make us understand! really appreciate her alot!

MR R. Andrew! He is GREAT! Gorgeous and Sexy! HAHAH! :p I love his GP lessons and i'm determined to do well for GP. well, my well is like D okay! If he isn't giving up on me, i'm not giving up on myself! I wouldnt! :D He knows tat i can do well!
thank you! :D

Ms Eng! Although we may have angered her, she is always still so sweet to us! Her jokes may be the COLDEST ever i heard but i know she is trying her best to make lessons interesting! thank you! Physics is fun becos of you! :D

LASTLY, There's my fav. teacher Mr Tan Toh Hwee! (: Simply love him to the max! He makes lesson so interesting and makes me want to study for econs! He is a teacher that always trying to motivate us! and there was once that i was so touched by him. The one time that i cried in his lessons when he said smth really motivating and touching. Smth like he never give up on us why are we giving up on ourselves? I have a feeling that he will not become a teacher or smth? he kept saying this will be his first and last batch... don't understand sia! ): From 2007, someone who has been always failing econs but because of his encouragement... i pass econs during promo.. and then CT and then failed mid yr though! ): But pass prelim. (: And i've got several pens from him this yr. Last yr, everytime i want to take his pen also no chance.. this yr.. got 4 pens for achievements(first was top some essay in class, den was most improved[came in a pair], then last one was for topping prelim.) and 1 for youth day! he's so sweet to buy it for all his students! Well, im quite determine to do well for econs in A level! (: Oh well, i really want to thank TTH for all his words! now you see why his is the longest! HAHAHA! :p
*i think i will miss him sia! ):


Oh well, studies may not be good but not giving up yet! And i show improvements! and i'm gonna continue! (: Yes, i will and i definitely will. (:


Prelim Results:
GP: U
Maths: D
Econs: D
Chem: E
Physics: E tat .6 to D URGHHH! ):

A level Aim:
GP: D
Maths: A/B
Econs: A
Chem: B/C
Physics: C

i hope this results would be good enough to get me into Uni. (:
And if you are someone who is looking down on me, i will prove you wrong!
Trust me man, if i want smth badly i will get it!


SRJC- a great place with lots of memories.

lastly,
it's a place that i've found someone really special. No, not my bf. (:
My really impt friend, no doubt i love him like mad.. but no, we aren't together.
Even if things were to stay this way, i guess i'm fine with it. =] it's just this sweet feeling. I still remember..... when i first saw him.... something just attracts me. and i have no idea WHAT! so i tried so hard to locate him on friendster. Added him and hoping that he would accept or smth. So ya, we started off with a simple comment and then a simple message. and then msn. and then phone. And then i started to want to see him in sch everyday, even if it's just tt one look. Every morning... He would be at the council table. We would smile. and pretend tat we don't know each other. ha, tat feeling is so like yesterday!
Next was meeting him before his prelim to study.. well, STUDY... hahaha. i think i wasn't even concentrating. all i could remember was.... he was doing organic chem.
Then we went out to AMK kbox. the place was so ulu! still remember the staircase! LOL! Talk like almost everyday after school? and then, don't know when...... TADAH it just happen... i fell in love.
Told him indirectly. he took it cooly without any reply. oh well.. so waited for him after his A level. count down with him till his day of enlistment. After his A level, 70% of the times are with him. And when he got enlisted, i was so sad, so lonely. Absence makes the heart fonder! Andindeed now, im loving him more and more each day.
Many things may have happen, friends may have discourage me to continue waiting for him, but i'm quite determined. After A level, i will try to touch his heart again. Oh well, i've did many crazy things with him. talk when he's in the toilet bathing, talk till slp. talk while doing homework. It's this sincere heart that is out there shouting to him.
Although he had made me feel sad, angry before... but because of the 4 letter word, everything seems gone! (:
You know i'm talking about you! i love<3 you regardless of whether you do or not! (: Always know that i hope everything is fine on your side. And don't be troubled! always SMILE! :D



I have lots of memories in SRJC!
And i want to end it off nicely! therefore, on March next yr.... i want to smile when i get my results! (:
i shall study hard! (: no more playing, FL! :D

LAST LAP! YOU CAN DO IT!
JIAYOU EVERYONE! :D


GP is boring. at 8:22 PM

Omg, i am bored with GP! ):


near perfect. at 12:17 PM

I don't know how to express my discontentment. ):

In life we have many different choices..... The reason for falling in love is not for the fun of it isnt it? Or, is it me that's thinking this way? I've absolutely no idea. ): Sigh.



Then again, i also don't know what has happen to me and another friend. SIGH! SO SAD...you know ah, JC life has made me experience many feelings. Ranging from Happiness to sadness to anger to jealousy. EVERYTHING. i felt depressed once, twice? not sure though. Many incidents happened, ranging from bad results to quarrels with friends, to finding the guy, to skipping lessons, to being a student councilor..WOAH, seriously, many things! Well, it's really really amazing to lead a JC life and now that it is ending, i'm not quite sure where my journey will head me to. ): Sigh.


Like what Fukie told me..
First i will count down to freedom.
And then, count down to end of freedom.
count down to Doom day.
Count down to the day i apply for uni(well, will this come?)
Seriously, what if i don't make it? ):


stress! ): at 9:03 PM

Anyway, i just want to say...
Today was probably one of the best day for the year.
To start it off, it was the last official lesson day! AND!!!
I got a msg which i initially was so afraid to open.
But then... i'm really really really happy and joyous the whole day. (:


The feeling of losing something important and then getting it back?
Ya, that feeling. It's not like you lose your most impt phone and get back. it's like... something really really precious.
I ought to give myself a really huge scolding for being so childish and all.
Yvonne, regardless whether you get to read this or not, Thank you. And it's from the bottom of my heart.


31 days left to A level. Exactly one more month to be precise.
Well, apparently, i think i should stop blogging and everything. Yes, i should. ):
But then again, this is probably the only way i de-stress or smth?
Life is a lil saddening now. Hmmm, i don't know how to put it to words.
Everywhere, everyone is studying and when i see my friends not studying, i feel so weird. And when you start studying, you will feel weird again. Because apparently, you don't want to leave your friends behind so you'll try so hard to pick them up with you... but then.. if they wouldn't move?! how? Should i really be selfish and just keep moving forward?


Anyway, although today was a very happy day for me, of cos something bad happened.
I.... got a mini-lecture by Miss Tan. It left me speechless and... i really don't know what to say.. you see.. when you are already at the top of your stress level and with all those "compulsory" consultation, it just makes you go bonkers. not that i dont do my work... but hey... i mean, if i want to ask you.. den i ask la. Why force me to ask you stuff? It's like.... compressing a certain pressure. Sometimes you just need to let go a lil for a better result.


This is weird coming from me... but...
i need to go and run really soon. LITERALLY.


NEW SONGS! :D at 10:48 PM

Okay, i'm here to introduce new songs! (:
Jay chou's new album.

Song no. 2 is nice.
女儿红

Song no. 6 is not bad either!
失落非主流

Well, this new album is not really a disappointment!
It's not a bad album, although when you listen to it the first time you would think that there isn't much nice songs. but when you listen to it again, you will think that actually most of the songs are not that bad! (: And then you will get hooked to it.
for example like...
失恋的青蛙, 大灌蓝, 童年的时光机
yup. And of cos, not forgetting the zhu ta ge: 稻香.
So i think that this album is worth buying. (:



Today marks the last day of all my tutorial lessons. Oh and of cos my fav teacher... TTH.. made a very nice speech. Of cos, he's like one of the teachers who never fail to motivate us. So did Mr RA! He said one whole chunk today.. And then i suddenly realised that i need to work really hard to get that pass in GP. I learnt too... to be selfish, self-centered and to break away from bad influence. Oh, but then again, i do think that i'm the bad influence in my grp cos i always dont go school. but always ah, it's like really sick in the end la. Although i always wanted to chao keng though! HAHAHA :p


Therefore, from today onwards i will be selfish, self-centered. Everything will be me, me, me and solely me! (: And i will only help the friends that i want to help. RA is quite true, you know like he was saying about how you didn study but you just score a lil better than the rest and then u feel bad about it?
yes, i actually did felt the same thing.. and worst of all is that ur friends would not believe that you didn't study. But, sorry, from now on.. i will study like never before and i am going to spoil the market. (: i believe that i can. Judging at prelim results, i... definitely can excel.


So, sorry in advance if i ever say smth that i might just offend you. oops! and, im definitely changing for this last lap. If you don't like it, then i'm sorry. Like What RA said, i study for my own future... =]



So today was quite happy with myself! Even though i did not really study much but i did content research for GP and did 2 econs essays and also chem p3. Well, maths, i'm tired to touch it already. Tomorrow or something.


Bob's and Claud's bdae are coming and i have absolutely no idea how their presents will turn out to be! I'm hoping for the best! HAHAHAHA! as for bob, you know, i can't cook and then..... Oh well, i really want to see my end producT! HAHAHAHA! :p


And yay! i got to hear army guy voice! HAHAHAHA! cos he book out already! YAY YAY YAY! :D yup, i'm forever full of energy hearing his voice! (: yippie! :D Wonder when then i can see him again... 47 days later? or can i like actually see him a lil while.. like 5 mins? LOL! it's enough actually. Oh well, sometimes when something is out of your reach, you'll just miss it like never before. LOL! Same applies! oh man, can i overcome my temptation for meeting him? CAN I? WILL I BE ABLE TO TAKE IT?! ahhhhhhhhhh~~ maybe breakfast date would be good. HAHAHAHAHA! :p


Today is quite a joke. GP lesson was like totally laughable! my really good friend actually said... "then why not we aroused the whale to get its sperm..." and she said it in the most innocent way. OMG! yes, we just burst out laughing! HAHAHAHAHA! OMG! it was that funny. (:


After school headed to HG. wanted to get the tys worked solution but it wasnt available. in the end got lips and jj to get it for me since they are going to kovan and we called to reserve the book alr. YAY! :D And thank you to my generous fanghan for lending me $10 for the book! (: many thanks! :D anyway, randomly the guys just run to us and ask us want to go with them or not. HAHAAH! they are just damn adorable. Of cos i know what was going on la. hohoho! :D


Tomorrow gonna be a short day.
Of cos, i do hope to meet Zr early early in the morning for breakfast, but it seems quite impossible since he's out like now? ):
so, i think it will just be lessons and then consultation.. and then... go out with Shirla.. and then... meet fanghan to get stuff. and then go home.


SAT! I've got GP consultation. After that FH coming over to my house to **********************************************************(secret not to be exposed!)



Alright! study hard people! :D it's the last lap.



AND FOR YOU,
I MISS YOU TERRIBLY! :D
<33


<33 at 8:56 PM




People are just getting weird-er everyday. Oh man, A level, please don't change my friends! Sigh! ):


Anyway, YAY! tomorrow the person i refer ABOVE is booking out! (:
Sometimes i think even if it's one sided or what-so-ever, i dont care already. HAHA!
Look, as long as he knows that i care, i'm glad enough. I mean, at least when he has no one to turn to, i will always be there! (:
Just like how some of my friends are always there for me. (:
So, i'm not being desperate! i just feel that... we should let our feelings be known... if not, later something happen to me.... i will just regret. *touchwood*


Today tuition was not that bad, did H1 chem paper. and die lo, i only got 20/30 when............... one of the guys got 29! OMG! my jaw DROPPED! okay, the wonder he is in VJ. He's not bad looking too. LOL! (: Not sure his name though. Only know one of them is called kenneth. Oh, and the teacher is so cool! HAHAHA! she's damn young lo. Omg! OHHHHH BTW!!! The view of the sea is REALLY REALLY NICE! OMGGGG!


have not been studying hard. I'm tired physically, mentally... and everywhere else! ):


I'm starting to hate lots of things around me. Even things that i once loved before... I'm beginning to hate it. ): Okay la, maybe, dilute down a lil... dislike. ):

i think i am going deaf. )): What if one day i dont get to hear all those beautiful sounds anymore. sighhhhh~


TOMORROW GONNA BE A LONG LONG DAY! SIAN-ed!