I can love you like that 
I will make you my world 
Move heaven and earth 
If you were my *boy 
I will give you my heart 
Be all that you need 
Show you you're everything 
That's precious to me 
If you give me a chance 
I can love you like that

I always thought you were the best 
I guess I always will. 
I always thought that we were blessed 
And I feel that way still. 
Sometimes we took the hard road 
But we always saw it through. 

If I had only one friend left 
I'd want it to be you. 

Sometimes the world was on our side 
Sometimes it wasn't fair. 
Sometimes it gave a helping hand 
Sometimes we didn't care. 

'Cause when we were together 
It made the dream come true. 

If I had only one friend left 
I'd want it to be you. 

Someone who understands me 
And knows me inside out. 
Helps keep me together 
And believes without a doubt, 
That I could move a mountain 
Someone to tell it to. 

(i want to bold those that i want to tell it to LEO to.. but it seems like..
I WILL BOLD EVERYTHING! HAHAHAAHHAHA! LEO, the whole song is to you!)

Hi (:
My name is FANGLIN and I rawkz!
Twenty-one candles on the 26th June '11. I ♥ Singing, Laughing, and Stoning.

FRIENDS
is the bomb.
i love love love my friends TTM!
xoxo


withlotsof♥♥♥♥




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BORED at 12:23 AM

you know, i am bored.
So, i went to read my VERY OLD BLOG.

I LAUGHED LIKE MAD.
1) because of the way i type and words i used.. like.. "ish" OMG! wthhh.
2) i was really vulgar.
3) i did many stupid stuffs.
4) i liked so many guys like within a 3 months? lol.
5) i miss my times in SSC! HAHAHAHA! (: this means i miss john tham/ow/alvin neo/lsa LOL!
6) i bited MinHua before! HAHAAAHHA!
7) i was so active in NCC.
8) i was so childish. LOL (I MEAN I AM STILL NOW!)
9) cos i miss my english teacher MRS CHEONG! OMG!
look at the below..

17th Jan 2006 Tuesday School was super hilarious today. It was during english lesson.. HAHA.. ALl the Guys were ask to stand. THey have to answer qns in order to sit down. So 1 by 1 they put up their hands.. DEn one of the guys.. HAHA..dun want say hu la.. name him as X

Mrs Cheong: Yes X?
X: Pick.(the word was peck)
Mrs Cheong:Wat?!
X: Pick(again he said that)
Mrs Cheong: Is Peck! Come pronounce. P-E-C-K!
X: Pick(LOL! the whole class started LAUGHInG!!)
MRs Cheong: Are u trying to be funny? PECK. pronouce.
X:Pick.
Mrs Cheong:*writing on board* PEEK, PICK.
Mrs CHeong. This is PEEK u pull the EE. PICK is short. COME Class pronouce.
EVERYOnE: PEEK, PICK
Mrs Cheong:*ptin to Peck* This is Peck. pronouce it everyone
Everyone: PECK.
Mrs Cheong: X, pronouce.
X: pick, pick, pig, pig
MRs Cheong: And now it sounds like PIG!

Feb 19th 2006

den.. eric starts to sing.. den he say.. wah! like that ah beng singapore idol arh! can go join Singapore idol this yr arh! me: huh? wat ah beng? taufik? uncle: no lar!! that ah beng... me: huh? sly? he not ah beng lar!!! uncle: u all haven hear me sing! when i sing, all the girls will be naked crying... me/eric/minhua: HAHAHAHAHA *uncle starts to sing* me: uncle.. dun sing leh.. later i cry minhua: HAHAHA later she naked sia


lame! OMGGG!



baby, take care. at 12:16 PM

please take care of yourself.
I will miss you. ):


乐行者 at 7:27 PM

Some kind soul please help me find this album!
JJ's very first album! Yue Xing Zhe (乐行者)


This is how the cover looks like! I have look through Ebay still cannot find ah! ):
If anyone of you saw it in any shop please inform me okay?
OR BETTER if you got the album and you don't want! Be nice and sell to me! (:


Thank you! :D







The Day. at 1:50 PM

I'm blogging this like any typical teenager!!

You see, it's the first time i went for a concert therefore that explains my excitement. LOL!
What's more, my husband's concert! He is so typical Singapore Guy, cute, handsome, emotional, sweet.. awww! AND HE HAS DIMPLES. =)
yup, it was JJ's concert. his world tour concert 2009 and his first stop is in singapore! (:
And of course with special section(his birthday surprise.)
So, you see i feel so honoured to be one of the 10000+ people to see the concert first-hand and the first 10000 to view his concert! YES. I AM EXCITED STILL.
Sad thing, didn't get his handmade card! it's like one in one section. ):


What i felt throughout the concert:

1) Although we sat at the balcony, it's not that bad because we were at the front row of the balcony. (: We saw him in a perfect view! (((((: All thanks to my parents for giving me a perfect eyesight! The concert was a blast with all his melodious songs! His voice is just so WOAH~
you know, people always think that singer cannot actually reach the high note that they sing in the album because when they record the album, they can edit the voice?
but no! JJ CAN SING ALMOST EVERY NOTE PERFECTLY WELL. And he still claims that he's sick.

2)For a period of time, I was over JJ. But now, i guess i am back to him. Like some crazy school girl going gaga over their idol? YEA! HAHAHAHAHA! (:
He's the one of the local singer that can sing really well. (EVEN HERMAN SAID SO!)

3)It's kinda boring at the balcony or rather the person on my right was boring. She wasn't high at all. So, BORING. =/ but still me and Vonny was like screaming like hell! WOOOOT~ HAHAHAHA! Music was really loud. That i thought i went deaf after the concert! =P
The concert lasted for abt 3 hours+. It's worth the money.

4) I think that it's really cool when he play the piano and sing. And, it's even more touching and cool when the whole stadium was so quiet and with all of us singing the chorus of jian jian dan dan (Without him singing) and you could hear the whole stadium singing together. YEA, that's really freaking cool. LOL! =)

5) His smile is very typical boyish smile which can make any girls in the stadium melt. Well, i am assuming that the people who went are his fan. Oh, and when he kissed FANFAN, it's just so.. awwwwww~ hahahahaha! (:

6) I think we all should go with light-stick! hahahaha! so we can get high-er! =)

7) His family is so supportive. =) His father sings well. OH! even his ahma was at the stadium! I cant' help but wonder, how can she stand the LOUD music!

8) I am happy that i made it down to watch his concert! (: And i thought even if i have to pay $78 for a tix i think i wouldn't mind. it simply means that when JJ comes again for another concert probably another 3 years later... i will buy the tix and get a clearer view of him! (:


Got home by 0035! (:
And now i am going to put all the JJ songs into my ds! gonna delete some other random one! HEHE! :D WOOOOOOT~ JJ IS LOVED! (:
like i say, this is just another "crazy-school-girl-going-gaga-over-her-idol(husband)" post.

Pictures can be viewed in my FB. lazy want to post here k! OOOPS! :D


MY LOVE! at 1:31 AM

I'm not gonna blog about my very virgin trip for concert now!
but PREVIEW:







MY HUSBAND JJ LIN! (:
made-in-singapore!


k, tired. shall blog when i wake up! nights! :D



p/s: im glad that you got dimples too.


JJ LIN-my love at 10:27 AM


here i come! (:


i miss my best friend! ): at 10:08 AM

I miss my bestie out of my besties!
LOL.
It just simply means that i miss the most important person in my life. =X
I don't mean it that way, i meant it in a f/s way. Yup. (:
Although i have been chatting with him on msn almost everyday, I still miss him.

Miss going out with him.
Miss him calling me messyhair, aunty BLAHBLAHBLAH.
Miss him for his presence. ):

Sigh, I think he isn't gonna come back any soon.
M.i.s.e.r.a.b.l.e la! HAHAHAHA! (:
okay, maybe not that bad. =X

he said: Which aspects of you i don't know sia?
:'( true ah! he knows me so well, that's why now i feel so empty without him! URGHHHHH!

Okay, that's the feeling i have when i woke up today.


going JJ concert! at 12:15 PM

Okay, i am currently still sick but i am happy.
Cos i am going JJ concert! YAYYYY! =D
What the hell right, i need to pay to see my husband! WAHAHAHHA!
doesn't make sense. :P

Now i am excited! hohoho~ :D
YAYY! happy la. wooooot~


bob says: pig and piglet makes a good couple. :P
WAHAHAHAHA! how i hope huh! :D


Terribly sick! at 5:49 PM

First and foremost, I have applied for SIM UOL: Maths and Econs already.
In fear that even NIE will reject me. So no choice, decided to apply SIM.
It's kinda like a back up. So, yup.
Felt so unwell btw~ ):

Went to doctor afterwards.
Should not have go to poly clinic! ):
the last time i went to polyclinic is 28th Sept 2008.
Wah, $16 okay! Not much difference from Family doctor. URGH~

Okay, now i feel so drowsy.
Many medicine. ):
SIGH~
i hate having sore throat and cough. Later i can't sleep well at night again. ):


blog again later if i have got the strength. (:


AHHHHHHHHH! at 2:40 AM

Okay, please do not say that i am crazy.
I off-ed my com and headed to bed at abt 1015.
Sore throat/Flu was killing me.
Feeling all so terrible.
Couldn't get to sleep.
Feel so @$*)!*$!)
So, here i am.


THROAT IS STILL KILLING ME.
I SHALL GO DOCTOR EARLY IN THE MORNING LATER.
will still make my way down to SIM.
I pop-ed many strepsils already. no use.
Gargle salt water already. also no use.
Stick my tongue to touch my chin already. no use.
Guess, doctor... sure got use. =/
But there's gonna be a hole in my pocket. ):

I need to take good care of myself.
No idea why nowadays i keep falling sick. And, the feeling really really really suck.
I want to change a new throat. ))):


SIGH,
i hope you were next to me holding me.


): at 10:13 PM

great.
i woke up with a sore throat and a flu.
i end of my day with a sore throat a flu and fever!

im falling sick every 2-3 days! OMG!
why suddenly so weak sia!


but im happy now.
cos one of my best friend and i are fine now. (:


k, im gonna rest.
need to go SIM tomorrow.


shoo. at 9:34 PM

arrogant!
shoo~~!


moral of the tree,leaf and wind. at 12:50 AM

someone claims that he wrote this. =P

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.


Friends/Lovers at 10:34 PM

Quote 1:
Meeting you was fate,
becoming your friend was a choice,
falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Quote 2 (i like this!):
A guy and a girl can be just friends
but at one point or another
one of them will fall for the other,
maybe temporarily,
maybe at the wrong time,
maybe too late or maybe,
just maybe ...forever.

Quote 3:
True love is when
you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge
that you might never see him again.
But you know
he'll be in your mind and heart forever...

Quote 4:
That's the wonderful thing about friendship
you always feel loved and cared about.

Quote 5:
A friend is someone who will walk
the long way when you don't want to hop the fence.

I am so bored.


Distance. at 7:54 PM






Long Distance Love Quotes



Boring Friday. at 5:51 PM

Such a boring friday. I stayed at home and did nothing.
Okay, msn with leo almost the whole morning/afternoon.
had a little with yvonne too.
Other than that, really did NOTHING.
Supposingly meeting someone to get pants.
(yea, im buying alot of things now, is it because i am sad?)

Yesterday went to PS with FangHan.
Watched Hotel For Dogs. Oh my god, the dogs are so cute!
Especially FRIDAY! woooot~
After that there was this commotion at PS the first level.
Got this crazy man, topless, making a scene.
I pity the wife and the kid. ):
They helpless watched him.
No idea why the security guard didn't do anything.
HE.... NEARLY TOOK DOWN HIS PANTS.
Omg, so close. =/
THE WHOLE MALL SHOUTED when he nearly take down.
EEEEEW~ yes, 2nd level, 3rd level, 4th level,5th... ALL LOOKING DOWN AT HIM.
it is really......e.w.w.w.w~

Going hort park tomorrow i supposed.
Sunday going Swimming with the sisters! :D
Been long sine i met them. YAYYYY! :D

Okay, nothing to blog sia. WTH
just felt like typing. So..
byeeeee.....(:


Morning all. (: at 9:26 AM

This is taken from part of 叶子(ying yue ri ji)

不爱我，为什么要对我那么好?
他对我的好，已经不是普通朋友可以做到。
喜欢一个人好难过哦。
我可以清楚地知道他的喜好，他的习惯。
唯独他对我的感觉，我猜不透。
难道要我这个女孩子去开口吗?

尽管如此，我还是想在他的身边，关心他，陪他，爱他。
也许算是一种等待的行为，等待他回来爱我。
就像每天晚上等他的电话，等他的简讯。
我知道就算他再忙，也会拨出一些时间给我。

i listened to it and type it out okay!
Think it just apply to me, well, somehow. =/
no price to guess who is the 他.
OKAY maybe not everyone know.
Everyday, i will listen to it once, it's just so... ME. somehow.

I'm gonna go out already! :D
I have recovered, somehow. (:
Gonna watch Hotel For Dogs with FANGHAN! :D
Long time since i go town~

Alright, I shall blog later at night!
btw, there was a bigggggger lizard last night. URGHHHHH! so scary la~
I think I should listen to Leo!
Put a sign on my door and say...
BBBZZ zard...bbbbzz...(it means.. lizards not allowed!)
It's the lizard language! LOL! BLAME LEO, he is just so lame! HAHAHAHAHA


i can't bear. at 10:14 PM

I can't bear to see you leave my side.
I'm saying this as a friend of course, as your good friend.
As the friend who reads you pretty well.
Never had a guy friend so close to me. ):
So close till you would know what to say when im worried/upset/disappointed/angry.

You would bitch with me, curse with me, laugh with me, emo with me.
You practically do whatever i want to do.
You would always make sure that i am fine.
You came into my life and then you spray the different colours.

Sometimes, even when i feel really bitchy, you never once get mad with me.
You will always tell me all those dao li when i needed them.
You will always crack your brains for joke whenever i feel down.

But I never once can get to cheer you up.
All I can do is to give you my listening ears, because i fear that i say the wrong thing.
Because I always feel so sad seeing you sad and that will always make me speechless.


Now, i sense that you are gonna leave.
You are gonna go to somewhere even further. ):
how am i suppose to get used to the life without you near?


Time for me to grow. (:
Someday somehow, i know you will return..


)): at 8:15 PM

there is a freaking small lizard in my room. I'm not sure how i am going to sleep at night.
Such a small baby lizard, yet so life-threatening to me! ):
Lizard, please just get out of my room! )))):
there is 3 windows there for you to exit! JUST GOOOOOO~ ):


you shou bian(right-hand side) at 4:16 PM

Best friend, this is for you! :D
Not like some fantastic singing okay. Just.. trying for the fun of it.
And somehow felt something towards the song. So... yea. (:


you shou bian.mp3 - unknown


Getting well. at 2:37 PM

Okay, i am feeling better now.
So much better to be exact, not really sneezing anymore. However, my nose sore.
It's so pain now. Cos of all the sneezing yest! ):

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. (:


Anyway, it's funny how i have like thousands of emotion within a minute.

Blog later! :D



im happy that we're still strong. (:
i love you.


YAY YAY! at 12:05 AM

Just after i posted the previous entry, BFF texted me! (:
YAYY!
I know he will not leave me alone! HAAHHAHAHAHA! :D


Anyway, changed blogskin, cause the previous one suddenly like crazy. =/
Gonna change again soon. This one like not really nice.


I have made my uni application already.

NUS 1)FASS 2)SCI 3)NURSING

Veron! I never put sci first leh! I want econs! LOL! do you think i still stand a chance for interview for sci!?!? ))):

NTU 1)B/Sc(Education)-NIE 2)ECONS 3)MATHS&ECONS 4)CHEM&BIOCHEM 5)PSYCHOLOGY

I ain't gonna apply for SMU.
Therefore, not gonna take SAT.
Taking EPT instead! (:
Should be taking on 13th April. Therefore, i need to brush up my english. AH! Need to study! LOL!


I have got a future.
I think about it clearly. I know what i want to be in the future.
And not take a random course and decide career path next time. (:
I am happy. (though i am sick!)


And yes,
I still have got the 5 year plan in my head. (:
KY in 5 years! :D
Even if it's a visit, i am happy too.

I can love you like that 
I will make you my world 
Move heaven and earth 
If you were my *boy 
I will give you my heart 
Be all that you need 
Show you you're everything 
That's precious to me 
If you give me a chance 
I can love you like that

**YVONNE CHUA! PLEASE RECOVER SOON SO THAT WE CAN GO OUT! (:


p/s: i'm glad that everything is more or less settled. but why do i feel like we are still not talking? ): Sigh, what had happened to us? ):



SICK! at 11:12 PM

I think there is something between me and YVONNE CHUA.
OMG~
I am SICK(literally, not mind!) so is she! =S
I am sneezing like crazy, didn't even go cycling with Khai and Adeline today.
Sorry babes! =X

And also,
I miss Best Friend so much. It's just a day of him back to his house. =/
Kinda sadden me that BFF didn't even text me when he reached back. =X
Oh well, shall not think about it.


zhuan shu tian shi. at 12:23 PM

你總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想
透過你的眼光
我才看見
它原來在前方

沒有誰能把你搶離我身旁
你是我的專屬天使
唯我能獨占
沒有誰能取代你在我心上
我有一個專屬天使
我哪裏還需要別的願望


Felt it again. at 9:28 AM

MY BELOVED BEST FRIEND WENT BACK TO INDO. ):
Im trying so hard to be happy seriously. =/
i seen him for probably 2 weeks? And then, there he goes, going back to indo.
I hope that nus/ntu/smu will accept him. ))):
So that he can stay in singapore for at least a good 4 years.
And then maybe 4 years later then i feel this feeling again.
I didn't send him off, because i know, he WILL be back. Somehow.

Although there is some things that sadden me, I guess... I shall not think about it. ):
Oh well, too shy? I dont know.
SIGH~


chill.stay calm. at 9:48 PM

I promised not to talk about it.
I shall not.

Take it, accept it.. move on.
One life, every minute is precious. =]
If i have the means, i would have go oversea myself.
It doesnt have to be anywhere far.
Because i am tired.
Tired of everything.

At this moment, when i am blogging.
I fucking can't believe that tears just rolled down my cheeks.
I AM JUST A GIRL AFTERALL.
I CANT TAKE SO MUCH STRESS. I AM NOT YET AN ADULT.
NOT YET ON MY OWN.
I CANT MAKE PERFECT DECISIONS.
uni,life,friends.. so many many many things for me to do.

I am tired.
Really am.


decided? at 6:07 PM

i feel really sad now.
but i shall not talk about it.
I don't really know how to describe this.


Oh, i think i have decided.
NTU-NIE,PHYSICAL MATHEMATICS,CHEM
NUS-FASS,CHEM.
SMU(not gonna choose.)
SIM-UoL.(STILL PENDING!)

not yet send my application.
Still thinking but more or less is like that. (:


blog again soon.
I AM hungry! OMG~ and sad.


more and more, less and less at 11:34 PM

I think i am falling more and more deep into you.
And i meant for real.
Because everytime you say something, i will just smile to myself.
Even if it's the most silly msg you ever send.
And when you "lecture" me, i listen.
I do.. almost everything or anything for you. And everytime i just smile to myself while doing it.
MORE AND MORE.

BUT.

The more and the less.
I will tend to draw myself further from you. Maybe because i know it's not possible and blah blah blah.
I can't get something out of my mind. ): REALLY CAN'T.
because you just meant too much to me. ):


================================================================

Went to SIM open house today. Saw quite a no. of SRJC-ian.
Saw Kai Feng, Darian, Carmella, Shimona.
I went with Bob and FangHan.
Anyway, now im interested in SIM Maths and Econs.
University of London? =/
how should i tell my mum about this man? Private uni, should i?
Or still apply for the local uni. If really no choice... then..... SIM?!
I think I can get into NUS FASS. or obviously NIE.
I don't know. now i am very very blurrrrr...
My interest is Maths And Economics. But, NTU and NUS, need a really really good results to get into there. That's why.... ):
So now, i'm not quite sure what i am going to do. Still...thinking.
Thinking really hard.

Back to Secondary school today to see my girls.
yet i didn see them because i got the time mixed up. So i only saw a FEW.
And yes, a few.
Got to know that Adalia is the USM and Fatini is the ASM. (:
Can't believe it's my kids being in-charge now! woooot~
Yea, Saw my fav teacher too. but she seems occupied, couldn't say hi and couldn't tell her my A level results. =/
Talk to Ms Chia for a moment, and i got some advice from her.
Need to talk to more people actually. REALLY. i am at a lost. =/


Got home feeling so confused. Not just about University matters that bothers me! There are other stuffs as well. ): Yea, it has been like.. in my mind, heart for...... the past day. ): And i am still upset about it. Oh well, what has happened? i don't know. I just feel this way. I think I am just tired of myself or something? ): SIGH~


I am proud to be Leo's nicest person. :P

FANGLIN(: ;; increasing heartbeat. says:
*OH yes, it's the correct song
*(:
*im officially the nicest person to you on the earth(minus your family.. and i self-proclaim it. )
leo says:
*okay
*thanks a lot
*u are really the nicest 1
*haha

I am happy. (((((:

Okay, i got to wake up early for tomorrow, going NTU talk. OMGOSH~ i can't be late. dont want people to say i am always late! SOMEMORE i'm from council leh, i should be punctual! :P

kk, blog again soon~ CIAO! :D


p/s(to no.1): i hope that you are feeling alright. Because i care about you.
p/s(to no.2): this is life. you need to accept it. Cheer up! i love you.
p/s(to no.3): i want to see you!


at 9:52 AM

too overwhelm-ed.
i can't think straight now
what can i do?
SIGH. =.=


HELP! HELP! HELP! =/
i am so broke too. omgggggg~
sighhhhhhhhhh!


WHAT CAN I DO?!
SERIOUSLY. JUST WHAT CAN I DO?!
omg, what can i do what? i am so confused.
okay, i think i am turning crazy.


Im at least happy that chris is fine and back.
im sorry to hear the news though. =(


at 11:30 PM




New Entry! (: at 11:09 AM

Once again, updating! :D
Just because i love to type with LAPTOP! hahahahahaha!
okay, my sister gonna screw me alive.SOON.

I am going to watch He's Just not that into you AGAIN!
YAYYY! i can see all my angmoh guys there! WAHAHAHAH! :D
Although, chris dont look like that.. but... :P STILL ANGMOH! wooooooooooooooooot~


Okay, i figured out that i need to change now and leave.
BEFORE it's too late.


In love with updating my blog. at 12:30 AM

Okay, there is only one reason why i love to update my blog now.
LOL. cos i like to type with my sister laptop. =/
It's like so cool and fun to type with a laptop. I think, I should buy one soon too. SERIOUSLY.
Anyway, it's thursday already. This means that a week ago, LEO came back! WOOOT~
and it has been a week since i stopped working. Ah, feel so sorry towards Adrian and Richard still.
Really sorry, i dont want to work with such a troubled head. And i dont think i would be able to get any sales for you too. =/


Gonna settled all my University matters by this weekend. After i go NTU and NUS open house.
Although i am more or less decided to go to NIE, i will still keep my options open. NOT like i have lots of choice la. ): Talking about this will drive me nuts and upset. Shall not mention about it.
NIE isnt a bad choice, i think about it and i thought... yes, i should follow my passion. My passion is to be a teacher. (: Ever since primary school. YES. me and my apples example. (:


This is to someone in particular(yes, i got no balls to tell you personally, i dont have balls in the first place.) :
Anyway, if you think i am this type of person then so be it. Only true friends understand me and know me. don't judge me like you want to. And actually, i don't bother about it anymore. =/
Used to affect me alot, now the more i think, the more i decided to let it leave my brain. I have such a short life. Why should i be bothered with you!! Maybe, it was a blessing to know you. You let me realised that there are lots more better things around me! OH, THANK YOU.


I am damn sarcastic sia. LOL! =/


Yest(wed) is the 3rd time i watched Marley and Me. (:
First was with bob and Fanghan before result release. 2nd was on tuesday at home. 3rd was with Leo! (: LOL. even when i watched the 3rd time, tears still flow out of my eyes. The dog is just so adorable la. OMG. and i can't believe that fh/bob/leo didn't cry!
Such a fun yet not really fun day with Leo. Later join by Claudia and Aqidah.
AFter movie, my watch SPOIL FOR A MOMENT. OMG LA.
my heart was thumping damnnnn fast! I dont want my watch to spoil okay.
At least not this Pink pretty puma watch that Leo give it to me! OMG!
SIGHHHHHHH~ it restarted itself and everything. I think im gonna take it for a health check soon! WAHAHAH! :D
Played one game of bball all by myself because LEO said he wasnt ready. WTH WTH WTH! LOL.
after that was fairprice with claudia leo and nicole.(claud's friend)
Picked Fruits. (Okay, i seriously suck at it! )
Left them after they are done with Flowers too. And then went to look for KHAI!
I swear i always enjoy my time with her.. even if it's just a simple dinner!
(:

WE GOT OURSELVES RINGS! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
i shall say it again. RINGS! :D
it's those 20cents you put in then you turn turn turn! then a ball drop out!
you know what i am talking about dont you! HAHAHAH! :D
yea, we are that lame la! :P


SO here i am blogging.
still feeling very worried for chris. )))))))):
hope he is doing fine.



Gonna sleep now!
Good night and Ciao~


worried, weird, still worried. at 12:22 PM

I am worried.
Worried because someone disappeared for today.
Worried because i am at a lost and i don't know what to do.
No one can understand how i feel... Simply, no one.


Oh well, now i understand why. =/


Gonna go out now, need to get some stuff.

Ciao~


meant or not meant to be. at 1:02 AM

1)
you came into my life unknowingly.
you added colours to my life.
you walk down together with me(i meant it as a friend.)
you stayed with me whenever i needed you.
you made me smile whenever i am sad.
you see me through all the tough times.
you understand me well, you know what i am thinking.
you care for me, you look out for me.
You guide me, you listen to me.
You never disappoint me ever.

I'm so glad to have you in my life.
I'm so glad you came into my life.
I'm so glad that you exist.
I love you.


2)
You are such a great person.
You are so sweet. You too, looked out for me.
You worry for me.
You assure me everytime i have doubts.
You believe in me even if others do not.
You put in your best effort to make me smile when i am unhappy.
You tolerated all my nonsense.
You practically make me smile everyday.
You did all that in less than a month.
I love you.

3)
We know each other more through msn.
We got close to each other, now we are like twins.
We are always together most of the time.
We listen to each other.
You are just like the angel, the person sent from above.
You never give up on me and always believe me.
You too, guide me along my way.
You always have crazy times with me.
You always do not have a plan.
We fought, quarrelled, patched back, quarrelled and patched back again..
We no longer do that now.
We treasure and cherish each other.

I love you.



.
.

Now i don't know what to do.
What am i suppose to do? ):
I am a 18-yr-old girl. I'm supposed to be able to handle my own stuff.
Why am i seeking for help? Why am i so confused?
I'm supposed to be a grown up! =/
The word here is....supposed. ):


I don't know what you do, how you do.
I'm so in love with you, and it's just keeps getting better.
I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you by my side.
Forever and ever.
Every little thing you do, baby, i'm amazed by you.


Slack and continue slacking. at 11:57 PM

No more work for me. So i went out with Yvonne today.
Went to top one and then after that steamboat at yvonne's house. (:
This time with Leo around, this means it's like a reunion for the 4 of us.
Plus, Yvonne's mum and brother! (:


This was our late cny's reunion dinner because Leo wasn't with us. Now that he is bad, we just had one dinner~ HEEE! :D and then as usual, i think i went mad with white wine. =/
Throat hurts now though! And my head hurts too.

Anyway, I've more or less decided what i want to do.
Not gonna follow the flow or anything, i am following my passion and my interest. So, NIE. here i come for you. Please prepare for my arrival! :D
Yes, i have decided, i really want to be a teacher. Since young, it has always been my ambition. To educate the next generation! (:


Of course i am still gonna try Applying for SMU/NUS too la. So, yup. See where i am accepted then i scratch my head to think again. (:


Everyday, i just hope to see you.
If not i will always look at my phone, waiting for it to ring.. and hoping that it's you!
Oh well, i have no idea since when i started to be so crazy over you! OMG~
Now, my heart is confused again.
I think my heart needs sometime to think and cool down!

Guess im gonna sleep now.
Good night.


p/s: the more i think about it, the more i think you are really nonsense. In a bad way. =/


Sucky Sunday. at 12:16 AM

Today was another #$(#&%@#%&@ day. ):
Oh well, i thought waiting for result is the worst feeling, but no! the worst feeling is when you dont know what to do and you are lost.
Well, there are like 2 types of parent in this world.
One type is.. they give you the freedom to choose, while the other is choosing and planning for you. Both way, their children will get hurt if they did not realise. ):
Well, that is what is happening.
Happening to me and another friend of mine.

Feeling mood-less. Don't feel like talking, don't feel like doing anything. Just feel like sleeping, slacking.. and spending my time away. Or rather, why not.. just let me marry a rich guy, and that's it, my life is done. I will fulfill my role as a responsible wife. =/

Who says that only people who go University will be successful? What about those who don't?!
Going university doesn't gurantee that you will be successful, even if you are hardworking. It is because, this society emphasize too much on the piece of freaking paper. ): Does Bill gates possess that piece of paper? NO. He doesn't. ALL this life skills, you don't have to learn through lessons. It's through your daily life. And.... you do WHAT YOU LIKE TO. and not because majority is doing it and you are following the flow. Like, I have a passion to teach(Since young, like since in primary sch, i always inspire to be a teacher.), so... the most logic thing is... to go NIE. YES, it's gonna be one of my choice. ((:

Anyway, i need to thank my tutors.

Firstly, the most important..
Mr Raymond Andrew and Mrs Pah.
The Countless hours of GP consultation. Even though i have to admit, sometimes i take MC just to skip GP consultation with Mr. RA. If not, i will just not go.. or delay consultation. But all these many hours pay off! (: Especially with Mrs Pah correcting my grammar mistakes. All the many different introductions i wrote... The E that i got... isnt that great.. yet, i feel really happy. Because during Prelim, i was still getting U. (:
Thank you Mr RA and Mrs Pah for your time! :D

2nd: my CT. Ms Tan Ee Yong.
Ah, she keep asking me to go for Chem consultation. Yet i always don't go. But then i had chem tuition you see. So in the end, i still go for chem consultation for like the last few weeks before A level. (: clearing all my doubts.(well, most!) yes, and with her around, i really understand concepts better. (: SO, thank you Ms Tan. ((: My chem improved from a U to a C. (((((:
then again, i was expecting a b! OH WELL.

3rd: Mr Tan Toh Hwee.
My Econs Teacher. My Idol. LOL! (:
The teacher who never give up on us. And yes, he and his pens kept me going. Quite sad though. I didn get at least a B for econs. ): Oh well.... I thank him personally on result day. and i talk to him for a bit. He encouraged me to go for NIE toooooo! OH yay! then i will be a teacher.. then... LOL! okay, just joking. Yea, he gave me lots of encouragement! :D will keep him updated about my life. (: Thank you Mr Tan. Will always remember your Sizzling hot.

4th: Mrs Lucy Tan.
The teacher who always say that Maths very easy to get A one la. And always say this topic very simple. She practically say that to like the whole syllabus! :P Yea, oh well.... THANK YOU MRS TAN! :D Maths, my best subject. (: Like since secondary school till now! hahahaha! (:

5th: Ms Eng.
Oh god, Physics. Still remember how i get 0 for one of my test. Didn even have 1 consultation at all. ): Sigh, lucky still about to pass my Physics. =/ Thanks to MCQ i suppose. (((:
Then again, thank you to Ms Eng for her "getting-your-concept-clear" yup.

6th: Jiang Lao shi.
Although in J2 she did not teach me, she always ask me how's my studies and all. Really thankful that i have a such a great teacher like her. (: All the best to her and baby! :D


Anyway, just now went to meet Bob and Yvonne. And then went to play the basketball thing at arcade. WOOOOT~ first time i enter STAGE 3! OMG! HAHAHAHA! when i don't feel good, that's when i play the best i suppose. (: so, i got like 209 in the end! I AM REALLY PROUD OKAY! because it's the first time. I feel like a pig today. Yvonne will know why. (:
Anyway, i had my icecream at Swensens! YAYYY! :D


Blog again tomorrow!


Uni aside. at 1:48 PM

Putting Uni application aside, I am in a mess.
It's the feeling i felt... 3 months ago, it's the feeling i felt.... a yr ago too. ):
What is happening? ):


just not the time yet. at 9:53 PM

Got back my A level results.
Well, it is NOT my expectation...
But thank you G.Y.M, i passed my GP! LIKE O-M-G! (:
So yea, got the EXACT same results as SHIRLA LEE. (can't believe this... we're going to the same uni i supposed!)
Not great results, but.. should be able to make it for Local uni.


At this period of time... i think, i should be only concern about where i am going next and not about something else.
I grab hold of all the time i can with you though.
Everytime i stare into your eyes..... I feel so happy yet at the same time, i feel so sad.


to the next person,
your message upset me a lot.
i can't believe you said that, seriously.


Arts and Social Science?
NIE?
SCI(not possible already)
engineering? i cant.


It's D-DAY at 11:19 PM

First I'm gonna say, I AM SO HAPPYYYYYY~
because LEO IS BACK~

and yes, WE MET LEO~
that's the first thing we did today... to meet leo! HOHOHO
it has been like 3 months since we last saw him... so, that explain the excitement!
Somemore he is like the important person in my life okay, so...... now that he is back~ WOOOOOT!


today damn tiring...
It's called, a walk around CBD
we walked from Chinatown to Clarke quay to tanjong pagar... OMG~
it was sooooo tiring. =/
Slack at ice cube for the longest time!
Suddenly i think yvonne and i have changed so much! OMG!
we become so..........indecent~ HAHAHAHA! all the dirty jokes.


im worried because i'm not worried for my results .
not sure if it's because i know i wouldn't do well already.... ):
oh well, SIGH~
I hope everything turn out well tomorrow, no need fantastic one.. i just need a decent one! (:
Hope it will be fine for FLYB.
not sure if i will be in the mood to work on saturday. OMG~


It's D-day tomorrow~~~~~~~~~~


alright, shall blog AGAIN SOOOOOON~
i hope i will bring good news here. I HOPE


YAYYYY! at 11:43 AM

it's the result day tomorrow! OMG!
my mother keep telling me not to commit suicide. omg la, i mean i will not even if i fail everything!
already got over that fact. the most retake a year lo. Or.... SIM.
SIGH!
not at all nervous actually. MAYBE tomorrow then the mood will kick in la! hahhahaha! (:

FOR NOW IM GONNA LIKE SCREAM!!!!!

LEO NARDO IS BACK IN SINGAPORE AT 11:01AM! HOHOHO! (:
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
just look at my smile! :D

kk, im at yvonne's hse waiting for leo!
blog again soooooon~


and the dog is at my feet... sniffing and sniffing! omg~


2,1,0 at 10:11 PM

People always go...
3...2...1...

now i go...

2 DAYS TILL RESULT.
1 DAY TILL LEO RETURN.
0 SALES TODAY! HAAHAHHAAHAHHA! :p


Don't know what is wrong lately actually.
This... unnecessary feeling.
Fear/unhappiness/anger/disappointment

I'm always someone being left behind. I'm always the person who don't know anything and then getting all the emotions. I'm always the last person to know. I just feel so lousy. It's a very sucky feeling. ): I mean, how i hope things are like before. But, i just don't know why it just seems like it can't.

I feel so terrible.




you bring so much joy, so lil sadness... yet now.. everything seems to be so sad.


2 more days! 3 more days! :D at 10:46 PM

1 SALES today!
2 more days till Leo return! =DDDDDDD
3 more days till results!


ANYWAY, i officially want to say.. i have a 3rd lesbian partner.
1st:KHAI.
2nd: JUNGYI.
3rd: YVONNE CHUA YI WEN.
no, 1st and 2nd arent my ex! THEY ARE STILL MY PARTNER! WAHAHAHAH! :D

YVONNE DEDICATED THIS SONG TO ME TODAY.
i decided to pass it down.
I DEDICATED IT TO LEO NARDO! :D

Dan Seals-One friend.

I always thought you were the best 
I guess I always will. 
I always thought that we were blessed 
And I feel that way still. 
Sometimes we took the hard road 
But we always saw it through. 

If I had only one friend left 
I'd want it to be you. 

Sometimes the world was on our side 
Sometimes it wasn't fair. 
Sometimes it gave a helping hand 
Sometimes we didn't care. 

'Cause when we were together 
It made the dream come true. 

If I had only one friend left 
I'd want it to be you. 

Someone who understands me 
And knows me inside out. 
Helps keep me together 
And believes without a doubt, 
That I could move a mountain 
Someone to tell it to. 

(i want to bold those that i want to tell it to LEO to.. but it seems like..
I WILL BOLD EVERYTHING! HAHAHAAHHAHA! LEO, the whole song is to you!)

dinner with FLYB on thurs! FINALLY!
IT HAS BEEN LONG SINCE THE 4 of us go out k! (((((((:



1) say what you mean and mean what you say!
2) do it yourself!
YAY!

Seriously, i have learnt quite abit from being a salesperson! HAHAHA! :D
DO IT YOURSELF.
no one is there to help you.



baby, i hope everything is fine there. please cheer up!


4 more days! at 10:22 PM

Richard is a nice guy! Can talk alot of crap with him! :D
AH! but he doesnt want to let me and yvonne off! SIGHHH~

Results are gonna be out in 4 days! SCARY~
LEO IS coming back in 3 days! (:
2 more days of work and i got 2 days off. (:


Sorry Yvonne, can't go out with you tomorrow! Mummy needs to go Recruit Express! :D

I want a crew family! (((((:
Double J! xD