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Will you? at 9:35 PM

May your heart reside in mine.

New Year Eve-Last day of 2008.
I thought about you. I talked about you too.
2007 i hope that your heart would reside in mine.
2008 i do feel the same way too.
2009: I'm not sure if i would still hope for it.


New Year Eve. at 12:29 PM

I hope Yvonne is doing fine!


It's New Year Eve and I'm at home. I think i would be going down to library soon just to read or something. Anyway, don't feel like going to count down already. No idea why.
Early this morning, when i woke up, i saw a email. and then they say that they no longer require me to work from 5-9! okay, this is very irritating, i swear! The simple fact that i was quite eager to work. OH WELL. definitely spoiled my mood.
And then, later i know that Shirla also got the same email!EEEEEW~ it's quite saddening! ):


MONDAY(5th. I HAVE TRAINING at GIANT.)
Just finish reading a walk to remember too.
I was thinking of someone i would marry even if i know that he is gonna die.
And then, one guy came to my mind. And.. just one.
Although i have been struggling much on this issue, guess.... when that one person came to my mind. I know that it's him. But oh well, shall not mention.


Lazy to blog. blog again sooon~ (:


No more countdown. at 10:30 AM

I'm not sure whether i'm going countdown now.
Something happen and then yea, plan might be cancelled.
Messaged my new friend but she also never reply! BOOHOOO~ ):
NEVERMIND! NOW WAITING FOR HERMAN LOH(my boyfriend!) reply! (:
HERMAN, go find some people and let's go countdown! (:


I don't know why this year seems so...."i-care-about-celebrations"
Because apparently, last year for xmas and new yr, i was at home. If not, out with family.
This year, it seems like.. i need to celebrate with someone. If not, it seems like i'm-a-loner sort of feeling?


I'll be OUT OUT OUT TOMORROW! at 8:58 PM

Tomorrow i'm gonna meet new friend! LOL! Yvonne's bestie. (:
And i'm gonna count down tomorrow.
Last year, i was at home counting down.
today post MAYBE emotional. but still not in that kind of mood YET.


2008-a hectic year


A year of craziness.
A year full of emotions.


-ORIENTATION 2008.(OGL and Logistic Team)
-Conflicts in Council.
-Conflicts with Sec sch friends.
-Schoolwork was hectic.
-Falling in love unknowingly with guy X.
-EXAMS were killing me!
-Conflicts with Yvonne.
-Watch-ed LOTS OF movies!
-Sick and tired of schools!
-Results were very erratic!(there is fluctuation!)
-JXP(PRC scholar)
-not going school and getting MC from polyclinic(first time!)
-waking up at some WEIRD hours to study.. or sleeping at some WEIRD hours!
-MUGGING WAS MY HOBBY.
-had a wonderful birthday celebration!
-slept over at my house. my FLYB!
-genting trip with FLYB! (:


Year 2008 was a really bad year.
I had to study so much and mug till late at night.
So many things to do. coupled with council project.
everything seems to be crashing down!
not just that, conflict with friends. Oh well, YEA! many many stuff. ):
It's definitely a year which i drop lots of tears.


I'm not sure if i should put down whatever i did not accomplish in 2008 or should i carry it along to 2009?

Or should i carry my emotions to 2009 or leave it here?

i want my 2009 to be good!
Of course with every good comes bad times too. So, i hope that this year, my good times will be much more than the bad!



2009 resolution

1) To be hardworking no matter where i end up to be!

2) To find someone who can really love me as much as i love him(okay, kinda stupid resolution.)

3) To think before i speak so as to not make any mistake.

4) To volunteer at SPCA or some homes.

5) To be a responsible and sweet and nice friend! (:

6) To start exercising! Ever since after PE.... it's seldom that i run.





Leave 2008 at where it is, and move on!


because everyday at 9:40 PM

because everyday i hope to see that it's your name appearing on my phone when it rings.
because everyday i hope to see your name blinking on my com.
because everyday i hope to know that you are fine.

everyday, im hoping. ):


SHOP! at 9:03 PM

HELLO! (:

Today is a crazy day. AND a tiring day!
YAWN~

I SPENT LIKE ALOT TODAY!
okay, actually like the stuffs i buy.... i think it's consider quite okay..
Was shopping for CNY clothing with SHIRLA LEE! (:
Anyway, i bought..
2 kimono.
2 tights.
1 shirt.
1 dress.
1 slipper(those for formal?)
ALL FOR $128. (:

HOHOHO! not bad right? (: but oh well.. I AM TIRED! YAWN~

shall blog again tmr! nights! (:


Misunderstanding. at 12:04 PM

i think i caused another misunderstanding like AGAIN.
Aiyo, why is FangLin always so careless and always like to mess things up. ):

FANGLIN,
you better stop making things so complicated.
Before you start to hate yourself! ):


LIFE IS LIKE SO MESSY NOW.
DECEMBER SUCK LIKE HELL. ):
things are going wrong in family,my2ndfamily,sec sch friends,mylove-used-to-be,superman, SO SO SO MANY! ):


FLYB! happy forever! at 11:09 AM

i'm glad that everything is fine.
Rainbow after the rain. (:
BOB, sorry for taking your words seriously!
YVONNE, sorry for troubling you!
LEO, sorry for talking too much!

TO THE 4 of us,
YOU ALL BETTER FULFILL MY XMAS WISH! HMPF!
and i promised to be a good girl and not talk too much in the future!
(:





I AM UPSET. at 10:18 PM

I am upset because of my 2nd family. ):
My 2nd family=FLYB.

They are my closest friends ever.
Or rather, i should say that.. Leo is important to me more than anything else.
The friendship i have with him is extraordinary strong.
Today, something happen.. and now, we all seems so shaky.
It's one of the time which i feel so helpless.
But then, someone told me.. If your friendship is really important to one another and that you guys treasure one another, nothing will happen.
I keep to this faith.
Leo, i hope that we will be fine. ):
not just the both of us, but the 4 of us.
you told me we are like family isnt it? So, can we all forgive and forget?
Although i much like to tell you how i feel about everything. =/ Listen to me, will you?


I don't like people who lie! ):
SIGH! I don't want anything to happen.
but yet, i am feeling so negative.
I just want to be a normal girl with great friends, someone who i can love whole-heartedly.. start a family with cute kids. and live my life happily.
Is that too much to ask for?
Oh well, 2008 was a rough year for me! Especially the month from SEPT-DEC.
):
SIGH! FANGLIN NEEDS A BREAK.


the following are for a few *YOU again!

1st person:
I thought i had to be honest with you. So i told you the truth. I hope our friendship would still be strong. Afterall, i always love spending time with you. If my heart permits me, i will chase you back again soon. But for now, please... let me cool down. Cause i really hate myself for having 2 of you in my heart. I can't handle it. I know it's unfair to you too. And i finally know now, i mean quite alot to you too.

2nd person:
I don't know why you are saying that for. To spoil my strong friendship or what? I don't know how to tell you, i am disappointed in you. Just say what is in your mind will you? Things are getting so complicated. ): i hate to see anything happening to us. but you know what, i really feel so hurt. ): Now it seems like all my fault.

3rd person:
I didn't mean to say that to you. Sorry. I was pissed. But it seems like you took it as though i hate you or something. Let me tell you i am not. Because i am going through some tough times that i dont want you to get involve. I'm sorry. I've probably hurt you. Please forgive me.

4th person:
It did not start from me. I SWEAR. will it be useless to explain? ):
I hope you would believe me.

5th person:
I hope i can see you and be as close to you again. I really hope.

6th person:
I miss you badly.


SHALL BLOG AGAIN TMR!
i am not in my best mood.
but im glad that YVONNE is there to hear me!
HEY, have fun for your trip to BATAM! (:


and, Zhanrui.
Thank you. You know i needed you more than anything else when i was sad just now.
Although you were quite speechless, your presence was enough.
thanks.









we will be fine, right?


run away. at 11:34 AM

I have been at the bottom rock for yesterday and now.
I FEEL like.. i shouldn't exist anymore.
How great it will be if the 4 of us could start up a family and live on our own.
because this is where i felt that my existence really matter.
Because when i know how worried they were, i know they really care about me.
I'm not as bold enough to run away from home. But yes, i did tried yest.
I just needed to cool down.
Every baby is brought to this earth by GOD and they serve a purpose.
Then, i ask myself again. What is my purpose in this world?

AIYA, i'm dropping into a state of depression. ):


Where is superman? ):


thank you people. at 11:57 PM

I THANK
LEO
BOB
YVONNE
KHAI
ADELINE
FIONA
JAYSON
FOR your care and concern! (:

i am feeling better!


MERRY CHRISTMAS! at 7:55 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

SANTA CAME TO MY HOUSE! WOOOOOT~
But still, he said he can't give me what i want for christmas!
But he said that if i continue to be so guai, he will fulfill my christmas wishes! (:
hohoho! :D
Thank you SANTA! (:
Went to church today, and i saw SOCKHWEE like finally! (:
Thank you Nicolette for your gift!
AND!
Thank you FIONA for your very cute clip! :D
And, Wilfred for.. forgetting your card! )))):
Saw lots of SRJCian there too. Even teachers! LOL! (:


After Service went to meet my beloved ZR! (:
Had a lil chat with him, and we found lots of difference between 80's babies and 90s! (:
HE IS 80s(OLD SIA!). I AM 90s! (:
Pass him his Christmas gift! hope he likes it.
HE SAID HE WOULD BUY ME THE MUSICAL BOX YOU KNOW!
hahahaha!
Instead of always hoping something from him, i rather enjoy every moment spend!


Went home at ard 2+ felt so tired! so nearly sleep on the bus!
Reached home and SLEEP!
SUPERMAN SUPERMAN, where are you last night, tonight, tomorrow night?
Come and rescue me! ):


I AM VERY BORED NOW!
like very very very! it's not good to be bored on christmas day! LOL!
shall blog later! :D


i feel so relieved. at 1:03 AM

it's christmas!
and i feel upset.
I should feel relieved, yet i'm not.


Please know that i'm doing this cause i love you too much.


why am i sad at your reply? =(


SPLENDID CHRISTMAS EVE! at 11:18 PM

Today was dinner with FLYB minus LEO! ):

Okay, I'm gonna say something that is so mushy and everything! HAHAHA!
First time the 3 of us went out with Leo and, indeed the 3 of us felt really weird.
And, we started missing Leo BADLY.
We actually set one set for Leo at the empty seats, with every nicely done.
And yea, people around us thought that we are weird or rather crazy.
But, we seriously miss him too much. ):
so suddenly i thought that, we will not be complete with one being missing. ):
OH SIGH, and we moan and whine that Leo would return for christmas!
But yea, we knew that it's impossible.
Even though he is away, heart still close to each other! (:


LEO, This is specially for you!(below)
Your fav breast meat, and some sides! (: of cos not forgetting a bread that Yvonne made.
(seriously, it's weird when we do things and you aren't with us. Just like how when i made the clay, i also made yours automatically!)

Our dinner was LARGE!
THE SIDES WERE HUGE!
i da-bao the potato salad home! LOL!



Look at bob's hair! BOTAK ALREADY! :D
And i thought that he look nicer!


MY BELOVED YVONNE! :D
Although sometimes we may fight, we still love each other!



After Dinner, i wanted to go and see xmas tree.
Haven't find my WHITE christmas tree yet! Couldn't find it, so took one outside suntec! (:









And then we went to write on the white ball to make MANY MANY MANY WISHES! (:
I hope my wishes will come true.
AND, we wrote nonsense on the ball too.... LIKE:
And of cos, i wish that the 4 of us will always stay happy! :D


Of cos, i wrote somemore on the ball but... not to be seen. (:

And then.. i saw this.. which i really don't know whether to feel sad or happy..
I really really really don't know.

Are you still my sunshine? A really big question.

And then we went to search for Yvonne's Bikini. left each other before 10! (:
got home by 1030. and my phone already went crazy. because i have no idea why i can't send sms! ):

HERE IS THE GIFT I HAVE GOTTEN:
the very first gift i got was a ginger breadman from ZR and of cos a very nice xmas card(:
Once again, thank you!

Next, i met Fanghan today afternoon at Pasir Ris.
There are like 3 lollipops and choc inside! (: THANK YOU my DARLING! :D

YVONNE baked some bread with our names! :D
Of cos and a postcard(that was how our friendship somehow started! i gave her a postcard last yr too!) She used TTH's pen to write! HAHAHA! :D

AND LASTLY,
thank you BOB AND LEO for getting me a......

Yup! One of my wishlist down! (:
I AM HAPPY! THANK YOU!
just like how you guys surprised me with DS for my birthday, you all surprised me with a crumpler bag for christmas! (:
Bob, although you didn't get what i want(you know you know!), this would be fine! :D
Leo, although you are far far far away, thank you for surprising me! :D
I know i'm LOVED by the both of you! :D

So i had a wonderful time with my Y and B! (: Even though we hope that L was with us! =/
Half the time, we were missing him, the other half, we were happily enjoying each of our companion! Cheers to our friendship! (:
AND Like i say, may we stay happy forever! :D

OH! AND I SENT CARD TO INDONESIA ALREADY! WOOOOOOOOOOT~
i hope it wouldn't get REBOUND BACK!

Of course, now is shout out to some other friends(those that i havent seen!) as well!

FIRSTLY, my new BOYFRIEND as of 24th december 2008 1245AM!

HERMAN LOH WENG JUN!
Although we haven't been meeting up, i miss you! (: Miss all your cold jokes and all your nonsense! Miss disturbing you and miss your presence! :D
I hope that you would stay happy this season! and, may our love blossom! HAHHAHAHAHA!
Forget about what happen in 2008 and live a happy 2009! (:
CHEERS! (:

SECONDLY, my one and only JAYSON
HELLO! see, i'm so nice to shout out to you! Merry Christmas to you! i know i'm suppose to call you, but it seems like my call can't get through! ): Even though i may not know you well enough, i hope you would throw away your past and not stay emo! SMILE SMILE SMILE! (:
you know that i will not abandon you right? I'm just a sms away! (:
Remember our hotel and all huh? ((:

THIRDLY, my sunshine-JOANNE
HEY! Romantic girl! I told Santa i wish for your happiness! Remember to SMILE always! :D
hohoho! It has been long since i last saw you! I hope we can go out sooooon~ woot!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Okay, currently, it's only these few people i have in mind! (:
HOHOHO, merry christmas!
MAY SANTA BLESS ALL OF YOU! :D

I need to sleep now, going church tomorrow to watch PLAY! :D





Let's be true to each other, shall we?


<3 at 12:59 AM

you successfully make me smile every single night! (:
thank you!
and thank you for being there when i was in trouble today! (:



looking forward to tomorrow night! :P
<3


): at 1:07 PM

i am officially FREAKED OUT.
SOMEONE PLEASE HELP! ):



sad sad sad. at 9:24 AM

因为我们俩都不够成熟。。不能做出决定，我们不应该再连累彼此!
朋友也不错吗!我应该要懂得提的起放的下。。
但我一直都做不到，所以这次要坚强一点!

对不起，没问过你的意见。
因为每一次，你都避开我的话题。
我也渐渐地习惯了。

看你走上了天桥，我走下了地下道。。
你和我的爱情 就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛 我转进单行道
一路把过去甩掉 忘了曾经说过要一起到老

爱你不是一两天的事情。
也因为如此，我累了。
不是你想得多，而是我真的在渐渐的把我对你的爱，慢慢的收回。

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

对感情这种事，不能拖拖拉拉的。
要干脆俐落， 所以我做"坏"人吧。
让我慢慢的忘了这感情， 让我慢慢的不想你。。
再让我永远都当你的好朋友。

在现在的心情，我很想跟你掏一个拥抱。


相信你只是怕伤害我不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了
快乐是选择

when there is still love, there is still hope.
i know there is still hope since there is still love.
Let's just hope.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D at 11:59 PM

DARIAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
Finally you are 18!


Thank you for inviting us over and hope you like the present! :D


I am confused. at 11:20 PM

The title for this post is... Frustration.

Sometimes i wonder, why am i a girl?
Or rather, why am i a weak girl, someone who just want to make people happy.
Everytime i say anything, i actually do have an opinion, it's just that i don't want to voice it out.
I AM AFRAID.
Afraid that the other party might not be happy, afraid that it's some stupid comment that i make.
So sometimes, i really just like to keep my mouth shut.
but this doesn't means that i can get taken advantage of!
I mean, don't take me for granted!

I may keep quiet and do things for people. All i want to hear is... "thank you!"
And a smile would satisfy everything.
but, i dont want to do things for others yet not even hearing thank you.
It's like... i freaking ought to do it for you. BUT NO, i am not your freaking maid!
And don't come and irritate me when i say leave me alone, because i seriously need some space.

不要等到失去了，才懂得珍惜。。


thank you. at 10:03 AM

Many things to say to many people.
But, i dont know if i want to expose who are they.


1st person:
Thank you for always making me SMILE. (:
Far apart but hearts still close, right?

2nd person:
Nowadays, i have been asking myself why have i distant so much from you.
Sometimes even getting irritated with you, or even pissed. These feelings, i have never felt with you before. Or rather, maybe i have but not as long as 5 mins. but that one particular day, i was pissed for almost an hr. I'm sorry. ): Actually i do have lots of things to tell you, yet i don't know how to.

3rd person:
please give some space to my beloved friend! she needs freedom! )))):

4th person:
You are a super wth person. Stop making use of people. Get your own things done YOURSELF. Damn you. I don't like to see my friend ALWAYS sad because of you. And because of you, he had changed so much, so much so that.... sometimes i wish i knew the old him back. ): URGHHH, i want to take a knife and KILL you la~

5th person:
I dont like to get ordered by you. ): Sometimes you maybe sweet, sometimes very nice.
Other times you are simply making me so sad. and super headache. Times and times i always try to talk serious stuff with you, you would just..... get away from that topic. You know, now.. i dont even want to talk or think about it anymore? I just feel like SHOO-ing AWAY. totally.
HAIS. please treat me nicer. I'm a girl afterall.


6th person:
im ALWAYS thinking about you. (:




Friendster is super wth la.
I don't know why, now i can't send Comment to others.
And it seems like i'm sending some WEIRD comments to others on it's own.
))):
So sad la. URGH~ must be some wth virus thing la. ):
So irritated!


at 1:06 AM

我想了很久。。
我想也该是时候了吧?
虽然以前我也说过同样的话，但这一次应该是来真的了。
对不起， 这次我也不敢跟你说。
是爱得不够深吗， 还是心已累了?
起码我真真窃窃爱过你一次， 而那一次是非常爱你的。

我不知道为什么我会渐渐的把这单恋放下了。
我从不放弃，这次也让我自己惊讶了。
对不起， 是我没有勇气了。
现在的我，对待你就像是兄妹一般的感情。

泪也流够了，想你的日子也从此减少了。
爱情总让人折磨 所以我才选择 做比情人更好的朋友


I could be in self denial again, but this time round i don't want to get hurt by myself anymore.
认清了真心话我就放得下
i really don't know if i will turn back again, but it seems like.. there's no more motivation for me to turn back. Or, i totally lose all my courage.
Maybe i should say, this was a great experience. At least i know i did not lie about my feelings. And that i have learnt many things. Have you? (:

Knowing you is my greatest blessing. You're not just someone i like, but from you, i have got the strength to do many things. You gave me the motivation to study for A level. Although sometimes you push my mental strength all the way to zero, from your words i still manage to get up. Because i always want to do as good as you.[which is quite impossible.] If it's not for you, i wasn't sure if i would grab hold of that one last glimpse of hope. What do you think? (:
Therefore, you have a great impact in my life.

Love, of course i still do but i know it clearly that it is getting lesser, or maybe the fact that i am very very confused nowadays. Miss, I obviously still miss. It's just a very weird feeling i feel every time we part from each other. It's not wrong to miss a really good friend. So i guess all these feelings shall stay here, Where they belong to. (:

Because when we step into each other's life. You gradually controlled my emotions. Now, i just wish to control my own emotions. I like you not because of how famous you maybe, or how nice you could sing, or how smart you are, I like you for your everything, that includes everytime you whine(as in, those small kids whining.)

Love is not about being together, love is about seeing the other half happy.

So, i've let go of the option of being together, not saying i have any choice.
I just want to see you happy.


Girls are meant to be woo-ed. I finally agreed with the sentence. =)
Wooing someone maybe simple but constantly touching his/her heart is difficult.
I know i may not have been the best girl around in your world, but i'm happy that once you gave me the chance to enter your heart and leave a mark. (:
Because, i want myself to be part of your memories.



For the last time, I love you.

Labels: My love and always will be.

New Year is approaching. at 12:00 AM

These few months before results are out.. i think i really need to find jobs to satisfy my wants.
Yea, my wants and not my needs.

I am someone who don't really shop nor buy lots of stuff.
If not, i would buy those really lame stuff. but now, i want to use my money to buy some "necessities".


Model: NWZ-E436F/P
Price: $169



Model: DSC-T700/P
Price: $599


This is quite an old bag. but i want. (:
Really nice.
Price: $105-140(not sure!)
MAY NOT WANT IT TOO. not sure.


Shall continue tomorrow!




A day at church. at 6:17 PM

Woke up super early just now but still i was LATE! (okay, 5 mins only k! LOL)
Abigail(did i spell it correctly?) and Audrey were also there. [they are from Jerome's class. S09]
And then i saw Angeline, Liyun, Nicolette, Sharon, the OGL performance "director" Ji Cai i think, and FIONA! (: Oh, of cos Wilfred, the person who ask me there! (:
Candle-light Service was great. Cos it was so pretty.
Message:
1) Vision.
2) Values.
3) Compassion.
Going back on Thursday for their X'mas PLAY!

OH btw, i saw Nandini and Surina(i think.)

Anyway, so i went off after the service.
AND I SLEPT..was super tired. -.-

Gonna wait for Leo to come online to tell me more abt mp3.
AND very nice friend is coming to my house to learn piano.
I think, he is obsessed with piano. For the time being. :P


Superman, please appear today and make me happy!



(: at 8:25 AM

I was too tired.
I fell aslp when my very nice friend left.
AND NOW, i'm preparing to go CHC for their Candle-light service.
It has been long since i went there.
Oh well. (:

Shall blog more when i return!
but i guess, when i return, i would finish watching my show! :D

BLOG AGAIN! SOON! :D


FRIENDS! at 1:32 AM

YVONNE:
you congrats me! i congrat to you!
TO OUR 1 yr friendship! :D

LEO:
I HOPE MY SUPERMAN CAPTURE YOUR BATMAN! (:
so we can all go to space! :D

BOB:
Welcome back to sg! Tekong must be fun!
and you didn die! :P

FANGHAN:
sorry about tt day!
not in my control! ))):

CLAUDIA:
Welcome back to singapore! I hope genting was fun! :D

ZHANRUI:
you make me sad sia! i dont think you got me what i want for christmas from you!!!!!
I THINK you totally forget! )))):




Superman said that he will fly me to space! =DD

Labels: friends.

BEST FRIEND. at 8:54 PM

I MISS BEST FRIEND! ):

btw, Dennis called me today! =DD

Labels: bestfriend

THURSDAY. at 12:13 AM

It's friday officially because it's past twelve!
BOB is gonna come back soon! (:

Anyway, thursday seems to past SO fast!
I woke up, watch 1 disc of you're my destiny, went to meet FH-she wants to buy stuff, went to shirla hse for party, came home watch 1 more episode of you're my destiny, here i am blogging. (:
There was a S25 chalet thing but i didn't go. Partly because i don't know why i should go.. as in.. i heard they going escape, but i also dont go escape. Oh well. And those i am closer to in class arent going too, so... Well, dont see the point. (: Therefore in the end i went to the s24's!

It has been long since i went to Shirla's hse. i think the last time was with secondary school friends. (: And to my surprise, his brother still recognise me! hahaha! (:
DARIAN'S OREO CHEESECAKE IS BESTTTTTTTTTT~!
now i know, my class has 2 future "cooks".
Richard the satay man. & Darian the oreo cheesecake man! (:
KaiFeng is really really really funny. He brought.... Watermelon, oranges, apples.

heard about their genting trip experience.
About how they got scared by Vonny's long hair while she was wearing White.... HAHAHAH!
Super funny.. if it was me, i think... i fainted. LOL! (:


Okay, nothing to blog about seriously. -.-
Done.


SUPERMAN. at 10:32 PM

Today woke up quite early and went to TPS and BVSS to fill up forms for relief teaching.
And then, we called like around 10 other schools. (: ALSO I MET DENNIS! :P
my 23-yr-old-crush! hahaha! ((:
When he look at me and said bye, i said bye and turn away ASAP. was too shy. HAHAHA!
Okay, such a joke! OH well. :P
I found out that i could jus tell him the no, dont have to go down and look for him. but oh well! :P
Saw Syazwan (Ngiam's EC) today too. (: he is a S/CLT already la! omgg~


Wasn't really in my best mood these few days.
Maybe cos i'm lonely. Okay not really, but oh well. I dont know. I just don't feel like myself. ):

I think life is such a unique thing.
In life you will experience all the weird things, like when you want something to come to you but it doesnt? Or when you try very hard to stop yourself from doing something, but you can't help but do it? Or when something suddenly control your emotions?


Just like the show, "you're my destiny", i'm just like the girl. Someone who will not get notice by others, someone who will do everything for others in fear of rejecting others. Someone who will wish the happiness of others even if it is at a disadvantage of herself. Weird huh?

And just like the story, my "Prince" actually appeared. Let's call him SUPERMAN.
He took notice of me and treats me really well.
Superman is always there to protect me when i'm in trouble, always there to make me smile when i'm sad, always there for me when i need him.
He is the first person i would want to share my good news with, and the first person i would want to cry to. Superman, never once push me away.
Even when he has someone next to him, he never fails to turn back and make sure that i'm around him. He never fails to make me feel that my existence is important.
Everytime he turn back just to smile, something just keep developing.
Everytime he shows his concern, the same thing is developing..
Superman could read my mind, he could understand me.
I tried to refrain from whatever is happening, but it seems that... i can't. because the next moment, i'm just like any other ordinary girl.
He was the first guy who ever took notice of me.
But unlike any other fairytale.. Superman will leave one day and find his Superwoman. =(
All i could do now is to find and build more memories together with Superman. (:
I'm grateful that Superman came into my life and add colours. Especially during the days when i see nothing but black and white. (:
Superman, thank you.

Labels: my superman.

LAZY. at 9:35 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA NGIAM WAN QI! (:


It has been long since i last blog. Okay, not really long.. but oh well... been really lazy to blog.
):
Many things happened for the past few days. Not just about friendship and all..
BLAH BLAH BLAH... there's lots of thing in life! ):

Bob enlisted to tekong already. He only needs to go for 5 days. So, it's okay for him la! (:
And ZR went back tekong too.. for refresher course i suppose. Poor him! Hope he is doing fine.

Tomorrow going to look for schools with shirla(yea, i drag very long already!) Hopefully can find some relief somewhere la. (: I need to go meet dennis also. Need to pass him my bankbook.
HEHE! this means that i can see him tomorrow! YAY! ((: So happy sia! :D actually is shirla wants to find job! (: actually is i want to see him..actually i don't know. LOL!


I am hooked to 命中注定我爱你. Wahhh.. damn nice okay! and guess what! leo is also watching the same show back in indo! hahahaha! (: so coincidence sia! hahaha! oh well, i miss leo! =/


Anyway, was really happy yesterday too. Because the letter i want finally arrived! ((:
WOOT~ Good Progress Award! I thought i would get it, but then when my sister received her bursary letter, and mine didnt came.. i was SO SAD. but yea, i jumped yest! (: HAHAHA! :D


Getting quite lifeless nowadays. ):
nothing to blog about anymore.

BYE.


(: at 6:04 PM

Uh-oh. i don't know what i have got myself into. Good friend isn't talking to me! ):
SIGH! now i'm really sighing.

Today stayed at home again.
Yes, it is really boring. ):
Went "shopping" myself just now, hahaha, kinda loner right? But i thought, sometimes being alone is good. (:
Went to get a cake for my sister too~ wooot~ Coco Exotic from Four Leaves. The choc i fell in love with!!
And then since i have my own room, i stock my room with all the food that i want~ at least for the week la. :)
Got myself lockers biscuit, pocky and this choco mint! FOR THE WEEK~


anyway, going Kbox with my BITCH tomorrow! (:
And hopefully i get to see Zr for like.. 10 mins also enough la. *pray hard!*

I'm getting childish all over again.
Suddenly, i'm hooked to neopets all over again. =X there's a challenge between me and leo. WAHAHAH! (:
By the way, i asked him a very very very stupid qns yest....
"is the moon in indo the same as sg?"
He replied... "no, the moon here is blue." Bastard sia~ LOL!


是习惯
还是爱
不放心
还是不甘心
One of my favourite songs now: 没那么爱他-Fan Wei Qi.




SIGH. at 9:57 PM

and then, someone is pissed with me. ):


GOOD and BAD news. at 10:27 AM

I have good and bad news! - to myself of course.

Bad news:
1) Zr can't book out tonight! ): He can only book out on SUN MORNING!! And that is sad~ ))):
2) start work on the 12JAN. =[
3) Might not be a relief teacher anymore, since it is quite unstable.


Good news:
1) I found a job.12jan-25jan only. Mum is not happy about it. But at least i have gotten myself a job. Cashier, Bedok Market place.

2) The guy at Recruit Express Is FREAKING nice. Bob is gonna say that i'm crazy for saying the next sentence. Although he may not be really good looking, he can be a really sweet guy. (:
My mum called him and i think they nearly quarrelled (i'm not sure!) And then, he said he wants me to call him to tell him whether i want to work or not. Well, apparently, my mum thinks that i shouldnt take up the job bcos i will have a month totally free. but... i took the job because i will always fulfill promises. And i promise Dennis(the sweet guy) that i will turn up for the job. (:
Mum is weird, she ask me to make decision yet...... SIGH.
But anyway, Dennis is really really nice. He did not scold me or anything and still said that any problem, call him. He's gonna look for another job for me after my first job! :D oh well, and yes, he is a gentleman like what he said himself! :P Even though i don't know him, still very thankful that his words make me feel a lil better.

3) I SAW THE GUY WHO SERVED ME ON THE COACH TO GENTING TODAY!!!!!
He is so cute as usual, we were like 10cm close.. but then.. i didn say hi. He probably didn't recognise me because it was 1 week ago! BOOOHOOO~ but then again, i thought i would never get to see him again! :P

4) I found $10 on the floor today.



WEIRD:
I dreamt of something WEIRD. I mean it's not weird, it's a rather sweet dream.
me and 2 other people were standing on the field looking at something.
The 2 other people were a guy and a girl.
The guy was on my left whereas the girl was on my right... we were standing in a straight-line facing a direction.
And then, i think I maybe in love with the guy? not sure myself.
but ya, the guy asked whether he can hold my hand.. and then he jus did.. and i lied on his shoulder... It seems like the dream was very long.
He is a tall guy, his skin is not tan, he has a nice voice and smooth hands. ( i did not see his face!)
WEIRD huh?



I was feeling happy today morning, yet after that.... now i feel so down.
The person i want to hear me out.... is telling me his problems.
The person i want to cheer me up.... is not giving me the chance to speak.
The person i want to cry out to.........doesnt seem to be available for me.
As much as i dont want to be sad, i am sad.

Today is just not my day. REALLY.



And then i thought i could be there with you on xmas eve, guess not this yr...
next? will there be?


COLOURS at 2:34 PM


Seriously, everyone can see this thing?
LOL! please tag my board and tell me the no. okay!
even though i know what no. it is after asking my friend, but omg! i don't believe everyone can see it! LOL! I can't even see that there is 2 different colours. As in, i can see tt there is green somehow.. but when i try to look again........... it all turns out to be the same colour.
My colour blind is getting bad! OMG!


I thought about the question again.
I know what is stopping me, I know what is the right thing to do.
But apparently, i am left with no choice but this path...(apparently, not what i should do)
No, it was a path that i took a year ago...
I thought, maybe i'm tired, maybe i have no more strength.
Cause, i can't find the answer deep within.
With no courage, i don't know how to continue walking..
Should i just choose a path that is straight and smooth? At least i know, i still can close my eyes and walk.


Been really bored at home nowadays.
Send in lots of application for job.
Oh well, but none get back. Uh, and i don't dare to call somemore la.
So, hmmm.... =/

Xmas is coming...
Bob asked me what i want for xmas...
All i want for christmas is......... (:
Something close to heart.


Tomorrow army guy gonna book out, this week seems SUPER LONG. ):
he's gonna be all alone at home!
BOOOHOOOO~
if only i can get permission from my parents to stay over! HAHAHAHA!
okay, thinking too much.


Love make everything possible if you believe it. (:


FANGLIN IS HAPPY! :D at 2:21 AM

i am happy happy happy happy! :D
(((((((((((((((((((((:
SUPER HAPPY.




HAHAHA! Yellow duck. (:

Yellow chicks! :D


KFC chicky! HAHAHAH! :D

oh well, i miss my best friend. =/


JOKE. at 11:32 PM

HERE IS A JOKE.
i had a convo with my sister's friend-jie choong.
and then we talk about my sister.

« jc » says:
she wears more than a big specs
« jc » says:
she wears a pair of magnifying glasses
FANGLIN): ;; says:
A THICK ONE SOmemore
FANGLIN): ;; says:
HAHAHAHAHAH!
« jc » says:
tat's wat most people in our level see her as
« jc » says:
haha... bet everyone in the level will remember her as that
« jc » says:
is like when i asked my friends whether they know who's fangying? they will tell me, OH the one with the magnifying glasses is it?

FUNNY SIA! WAHAHAHA! (:


GENTING. at 3:20 PM

The night before Genting trip, my bitch came over to stay so that Bob's mum could fetch us to lavender. (:
She came at like 11Plus, when i was already SO SO SO tired. i could practically sleep while standing.

but then, when she came, i did not slp. Best huh? We talk and laughed the whole night. And we woke up at 4. She went to bath while i came online for a while. and then we prepared. Bob's mum came over at ard 545? we reached lavender at around 6.
NO ONE WAS THERE YET! -.-

We had our mac breakfast. and then, we board the bus at 7 i think. (:
Soon, we were on our way there. (:
The journey there wasn't too long. it was not that bad. but maybe because the coach WAS TOOOOOOOOOOOOO COMFY! :D
Yea, the unlucky thing is..... the RED came halfway through the journey! -.-
Oh ya, and.. i fell down at the custom there.
WOOOOOOOOOOT~ not yet reach and then i have injuries la.!







We reached there at exactly 1PM. (: And then we went to our hotel.
Couldn't check in till 3PM and since yvonne chua was hungry, we went to eat.
i think it was marrybrown or smth? yea.







The hotel room was ALRIGHT la. the TV is SO SMALL LA! -.-
anyway, so yea, me and yvonne took one room and bob and leo took the other. (:
room no. 10819 i think. theirs is 818.
So after that we wanted to catch a movie "bolt" but then their movie only have one timing.. SO OH WELL, we did not.
BTW, we spent like an hour trying to find the cinema.
We wanted to sing too, but it was TOOOOOOOOO expensive. -.-
so that night, we went to play the shooting range.
THEIR RIFLE ARE NOT ZERO IN la! wthhhhh~
i have to aim outside the circle to hit the center. WTH WTH WTH!
but oh well, it has been long since i touch a rifle! :D
after that we went for dinner at sushi king.
IT WAS SO.... embarrassing. There was a really really really cute chinese waiter.
So i keep staring at him. Yea, i think he knows it too. So ya, he is SUPER CUTE. as in... those lil boy face. yea. (: LEO actually asked him whether can take photo with me.. and he kindly agreed. but then i was like.. OMG WTH! =/ and i went all red! HAHAHA! joke la. but then again, i kinda miss him now! :D




LOOK AT THE WAITER BEHIND! WOOOOOOT~ my beloved cute waiter! :D





More pictures after dinner. (:








Oh did i mention, we went to take neoprints too.


It was kinda expensive. but then, oh well, for the memories! :D

OH YA! their kbox is really a BOX and it's really really cute!




Then we went to shop around. It was yvonne who was buying so many things la. HAHA!
After that we head back to hotel room to slack. it was 10plus only i think.
all of them gathered in 819. (:
Then we didnt want to slp.. so ya... but soon. Yvonne dozed off. and then so did bob.
And Leo was starting to get headache and i was still quite awake.
since the 2 of them was already sleeping, no choice ah, we went to the other room. I was still playing my DS when leo told me to go and slp. =/
and then yea, i dozed off eventually at ard 1 plus.


Woke up at 6 the next morning. went back to my own room and then went to bath.
Bob was already awake too. =D
It was a scary thing to wake Leo up. I scared that he would scold. so i set the alarm clock and when back to my room.

Joke:
yvonne woke up in the middle of the night. She stared at bob and didnt know it was bob cos he looks diff without specs. and she was thinking where am i and where's Leo. And she totally forget about bob. den she went to look nearer.. HAHAHA! she tot she was slping with some unknown guy in the hotel. HAHAHAHA! and then she realised tat it was bob. HAHAHA! JOKE!









After that we went for breakfast! :D
It was a buffet thing.. but ya, wasn't feeling hungry. so had egg and honeystars and cornflakes and orange juice! :D while the rest were having some really.... heavy breakfast. (:

LOOK, my hair look damn nice, although still messy a lil, but nice. LOL!

We went to play arcade for a lil while. (:






After that was MOVIE-BOLT.
It was not a bad show. But because my body clock is such tt i get tired in the morning. i fell aslp during the show but was awake at the exciting part. (:
kinda touching. (:
After movie wAS SHOPPING!! ((:
bought my bag that i LOVE!(love at first sight.) actually not really alot.
like i say, it was yvonne tt was buying lots of things.



It says FLYB on one side and the other side was our name. (:


Yvonne and bob got red. I got pink and Leo's transparent.
mine and leo is the silver necklace, the other necklace is bitch's and then the hp strip is bob's! he has to enter army soon. so... =]


THAT IS MINE! dont take my stuff you PIG! :P


After that we slack in hotel room for abt 1.5hrs.
YVONNE GOT SERIOUSLY SUPER HORNY.
no idea what was wrong with her!



She said that she is earning 5cents. LOL! 1 customer for 1 cent! so CHEAP LA! YVONNE!
Just look at her.



After that we left at 6. to go to haunted hse and the ripley's gallery. SO COOL okay! :D
Haunted hse, i think the 3 of them will laugh at me even till now.
You see, the haunted house is nt tat scary afterall. but then because i am Scared.
SO, ya, from the moment i enter the haunted hse, I SCREAMED at the top of my lungs. and at the HIGHEST pitch i can go. and screaming till i have no more breathe. yes, damn long. LOL! after the haunted hse, i swear they were all laughing at me! OMG!

btw, i was so scared that the blue creature would move when we are taking photo and grab us. OMG! LOL! i am such a scary cat! HAHAHAHA! :p

Ripley was so much more fun.

another JOKE:
there are many statue around the gallery. and then at this corner there was this chair it was the luckiest chair or smth. Then, there were this group of people. 1 adult 2 kids. I supposed they came from the haunted hse. LOL!
they walk past this place and got scared! So i was mentally prepared to see a statue at that corner. AND GUESS WHAT, while we walk past, Leo and I had a really really good laugh. HAHAHAHAHHAHA!


YES, IT WAS BOB! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
HAHAHAHAHAHAH! omg, it was SO SUPER FUNNY LA!

ANOTHER JOKE:
there was this statue of a man and a woman. the guy was taking photo for the woman. and the statue look SUPER real. so bob knew it already and walk past it.. when leo was about to walk past... bob said. "Eh leo, people taking photo la." I think Leo said sorry. HAHAAHHAHAHAHA! damn FUNNY SIA! HAHAHAHAHA!
i have retarded friends!







anyway, there's alot of weird stuff in there.
show some interesting ones.





Shall collage some pic.




People who survived after some OMG incident!




Fun with the weird mirror.

Weird animals.



INTERESTING:

Look at the hand! compared to mine! OMG LA!


This person can see 360 degree ah? OMG! siao one sia! got like 2 pupils!
he must be having headache! i really can't imagine such a person exist, but he does exist!


This person here will do a really great OMG! with the eyes popping out!
he can dislocate his eyeball. SIAO ONE! LOL!



TALLLLL MAN! AND A BIG SEAT! :D


Yea, many interesting stuff.
After tt we resign back to hotel. =/
had KFC which really really SUCKS!
YUCK!

TOO tired, i dont even know when i fall aslp.
but oh well, the next moment i woke up, bob and yvonne are gone.
BEST LA, they never off light! =/
woke up a lil later.
by the time i bath finish it was 7.05.
wake Leo n Yvonne up, but then.. they just continue slping. In the end,
while bob was playing his DS, i dozed off again. =/

After that me and bob went to buy breakfast while the other 2 bath and all. (:
Had tea egg and cup noodle for myself.
OH! AND MILK TEA! WOOOOOT~ :D
After tt we slack a lil more then check out le.
no much photos taken after that. =/

The journey back was a lil sad though.
I am a dramatic person. IT WAS RAINING ON OUR WAY BACK! ))):
AND YVONNE CAUGHT ME DOING SOMETHING REALLY WRONG!
i can't help but......... =/




I love BOB, YVONNE AND LEO for giving me such a wonderful memories! :D
<333333 style="color: rgb(255, 255, 204);" face="lucida grande" size="1">I was thinking to myself,
when next will i get to travel with you again.
Or even, when will i get to sleep next to you again?
When can i see you so close, so close again?
When will i get to hear you again?
OMG, 2 months... say long not long, say short also not short.
Oh well, i just hope you miss me that teeny weeny bit!
Life is so tough without my best friend! =/