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happy halloween! i am indeed happy. at 10:59 PM


that's my new hair!
but now seriously cui liao le! ):
anyway, I went for hair treatment today! well, partly because I was too bored at home!
Secondly, because it was cheap(yes yes, call me aunty, i damn cheapo one!)
Thirdly, my mum asked me to try! So, tadah! (:

and they steam steam steam! the chemical went in in in!
hahahaha! and now, hair feels so smooth! but then again, marlene said "your hair is soft to begin with!" ROAR! hahahaha! it's softer now(okay, still tryng to lie to myself that the treatment has got some effect!)

Today was also my last lesson with my beloved boy-Alvin.
Well, last lesson for the year of cos! (: so, he was being such a sweet boy! (:
he made me a lego car! (((((: touched sia! like seriously!!!! =)
Okay, i hope he will do well in his final yr exams! and remember what i'd teached him! (:

that's the car! :D


So anyway, after I am back home, i started doing my tutorials! (:
and then waited for 4pm patiently so that i can catch darryl on air!
and when his prog came, I got a shock of my life okay! HAHAHAHAH!
doesn't sounds like him! OMGOSH! i totally LOL!!!! =X oooops! but okay, he's very nice!
He sounds so gentle and 稳重 on air! and then, the him when we all study together is so jokey! hahahaha! (:

so anyway, i messaged him to tell him that I am listening to his programme! and then answered his IQ qns which he asked his listeners!! so i was like.... "scissors paper stone!" and then next moment he called me! and then record the call so he can play on air! HAHAHAHAH! madness, make me so excited okay! HAHAHHAHAH! =X so yea, and then he gave me the chance to 点歌 to people! but then i guess no one was listening la! ): so it was kinda short! and of cos, i got 点 to darryl also la! hahahahha! it was so thrilling! ((((:
must say thank you to him too! it's the first time i went on air! HAHAHAH! and also, he edited the call! cos i sounded retarded at some part! LUCKY LUCKY! =X
And then after that i decided to dedicate songs to my parents cos their birthday coming but then i forget to say it in the early part! so i texted him! then he read it too late also! so he said he will push it to the dedication hr (7-8pm)!
I must have been very ma fan! LOL! =X I told him to read my dedication one of the last few! cos we were having dinner! so after dinner 刚刚好 board dad's car! tune radio, then yes.. wait!
then yayyyy! it came on! and thank you to DARRYL once again! he made my parents very happy! HAHAHAHAHA! cos he also sang a birthday song for them!! YAY! =DD so yes, because of this, i am happy today! HAHAHAHHA! :P

Halloween... not out with friends! At home, it can be so fun too! HAHAAH!
right, okay, i shall be his supporter, and one of his many listeners! :P
88.3家FM! (: sat(4pm-8pm!)


so, anyway! I am taking pop piano class really soon! it will be 8.30pm lesson every tuesday! (:
this means, I really need to save money le! $80/mth! plus esprimere $30/mth! wooooahhh!
shall have more tuition! jiayou fanglin! you can make it! (:


it's really rare that I am happy these few days! but I am! :D
TITUS, hello. I know you are reading my blog! (: I AM HAPPY TODAY! :D
you like to read happy post right? HAHAHA! :D
MARLENE, hello to you too! and, I am happppppyyyyyy! are you??? please say yes k! anything sms me! :P
ADELE, where are you! you seems missing leh!!!! you also! dont keep dwelling on that problem yea? I am here to protect you! :D smile smile! keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on me, for sure! that's what friends are for! :D


at 9:17 PM

i dont know why i start to sneeze all over again! ):
booo, seems like when I am down, my immune system will also be low! ):
roar! this is irritating!

anyway, today whole day, didn't do anything! ):
other than watch my brown sugar show!


and i dont know what to blog abt either! ):
boooooo~


i think i am okay now.
let's just hope i dont think about it! =)


bad mood once again! ): at 3:20 PM

not those angry kinda feeling, more of upset and down.
to be honest, I am at a lost! I don't know what to do!
Cos, a side of me tells me that i shouldn't, yet the other side just couldn't stop!
Well, I really hope I can control it, but the more i control, the worst i feel!
Even if I keep myself occupied! ):
well, something happened today(okay, very small only), but it affected my mood for the whole day! what do you think, really influential right? ):


okay, that's just me whining...):
feel like sleeping now! ): really tired! but then at the same time, I have not prepared well for my song later! sigh! how am I supposed to do it well! there isn't once I go for lesson feeling really relax! Well, Cca is supposed to help you get rid of the stressed mind from study right? but, why do i not feel this way? ): tskkkkk! ):
okay, thats STILL me whining! ):



Finally last day of the week! (:
gonna go night safari on saturday! YAY-ness!
but it's gonna cost me a BOMB! =X
hooooooo~ then again, for the fun! :D


nothing much to blog about already...
shall stop here!


finding my 感觉 for 我不想忘记你。。。


morning! at 6:55 AM

it's thursday morning!
and i feel so upset!
because.........................







my hair cui already! ):


tuition.cut hair. shopping. at 9:04 PM

today, i spent $55! OMGOSH! roar.

anyway,
tuition at 1.30pm today!
it's the unofficial last lesson for alvin! shall post up his photo! :D
he's like super not paying attention to me these few lessons! felt so upset about it! ):
SIGH!

so anyway, after that went to twister to cut hair!
twister @ tamp 1! :D
okay, the person who helped me wash my hair.....................................
HAHAHAHAHA ONLY ADELE AND LIMIN KNOWS! =D
omgosh, felt so shy!
he said, " it's okay, you can rest your head on my hand one you know"
:$
anyway, i changed my hairstyle A BIT LA! just a single bit! it looks nice after i cut, but tomorrow, i scared will cui le! ):

then we went to make my ezlink card! i lost my card the other time, so now made the exact same one! yeayea! i love it! :D adele also made one! YAYYY! :D
after that, went to shop! woooooot~ DRESS DRESS! =D now need to search for belt! YAY!
next preformance or whatever got things to wear liao! HAHAHAHAHAHA! =X

then we went to uniqlo but never buy anything! (wah, if i continue buying...GONE!)
after which we went to buy bubble tea, and well.... i got the free one! hmmm, not that bad! just like normal green tea! lol! =)
then we went to cold storage! lots of nonsense in there! like mask, HUGE PUMPKIN, corn flour..
blah blah blah!
and with adele's "you know at fair price BLAH BLAH BLAH" she said it for like manyyyyyyy times!

after that, dad came to picked me up! and we went for dinner!
well, anyway, i hope my dad will be fine! don't know what happen to him also la! need to undergo surgery! =X
pray pray that everything will be alright k! (:
now, i really need to teach tuition to support myself!(and afterall, my passion is still to teach!) allowance especially! =/


there's CCA tomorrow! :D
yay yay! didn't see sugie last week, i bet he misses all of us! HAHAHAHAHA! =X
need to prepare 2 songs! 1 fast 1 slow!
decided on: 我不想忘记你 and 马德里不思议!
like woah, so not me right! well, we shall see what sugie and ruth say tmr!
=XXXXX


adele: sorry, i never sing that song le! ):
when i got chance, i will k! :D

marlene: dont worry! i am fine. just need some time to chill! (: yup! and, i hope you are fine now! dont be mad already! :D loves!


8pm. the whole day. at 8:21 PM

I don't know what is with my title! heck the title k! (:

so anyway, in the end, i did not go school today!
don't ask me why! just woke up feeling veryyy upset! ):
tsk!
something keeps floating in my mind! hmmm, i really don't know how i can get it out of me! ):


so anyway, was like searching song for the entire day for my "audition".. but still to no availability! roar! ):
but of cos i did not waste my day la! I revised maths! since maths 2 is gonna start! soooo, have to revise right! :D


tomorrow
gonna have tuition at 1pm!
cut hair at 3pm!
shoppingggg after that! :D
probably study after everything! not sure!



at 8pm, i thought of mrSMART!
the whole day, i thought of mrNICE!
sigh.


tireddd at 11:26 PM

after eating maggi mee, i am sweating again! ):
ROAR!


anyway, i felt like a yr 2 student for like 1.5 hrs! HAHAHAHAH!
i went to crash marlene's lecture @ 3.30pm when I am supposed to crash adele's!
hahahahha! the reason why i changed was because...i tot matrix was not that bad!
sooooo, after considering for quite some time, i decided to SKIP lecture.
and then, i didn want to go home, so i went to crash marlene's lect! AND WE SAT AT THE FRONT ROW!
can you believe it! OMGOSH!
during break was the funny one! he was like standing there, not going out.. den we were like.. "shit, how to go out!" den someone went to ask him qns! den we like LIGHTNING SPEED like that! runnnn out of the LT! hahahaha! funnnny! =X it was such a thrill for me and limin! HAHAHA! :P


and today's POA test was..
well, not that bad! I think i still can pass la! not sure about that but I THINK SO! HAHAHAHA! =X cross cross finger! i hope i pass! =X

and there's like econs test tomorrow, which i am totally not optimistic about!
i hope at least to pass it too! but then of cos for my real exam i wouldn't want to have just a pass! if not i will be uhappy about it! so will my mum!!! SO, cannot let myself and her down la!
study hard, fl! you can do it! :D



and, I am glad that Yh's paper was not bad today! (:
at least, it makes me feel relieved that studying with him, helped him in a way or another! :D
and of cos with the help of MARLENE! :P
Marlene must be feeling the same way too! :D


okay, feeling kinda slpy now already! but shall stay online a while more! :D



FL IS HAPPY! 7926! hahahahha!
*clap clap*


but at the same time, i am also sad.
sad that i dont know why you look this way! ):
and i dont know what to do either to make things better! ):
all i can do is to watch you from the corner of my eyes and hope that you are well!
please smile, at least when you smile... I know that you are fine! :D



hey! Blogging with my beloved! at 10:05 PM

i am totally in love with my e63! (:

However, mood has been a lil shaky today which allow me to nua at home the whole day. There's tuition tmr.. And morning shall wake up to go reservoir with my mum at 6am! (: nowadays i am having weird cravings! Like, sudden craving for tau huay.. And strawberry milktea now. Hahaha. So weird eh! Lol! Okay i'm going to log in with my com!

<3 my phone!


at 8:50 AM

dont understand.


felt so breathless when i woke up today! guess, it has been this way for a couple of days!


felt so strain almost everyday. my emotions are getting really tired.






take a step back.
look at the world.

things might be better.


希望 at 10:04 AM


Xi Wang - Sylvester Sim


沈祥龙 (Sylvester Sim) - 希望
-----------------------------

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不懂你如何看得见
也只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能 让我开心一整天
只要一天没和你见面
我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多 我还有话很想说
隐藏在我心里 不懂如何开口
我会很快就要走 每一夜不算太多
简简单单 希望你会懂

不能在一起 也没关系
只少你懂我的心 会在想你
那些回忆会永远抱着甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记
我爱你 你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心


down. at 9:19 AM

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have
the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this I think
I never will……


mix emotions! at 1:11 PM

6th day at mac- Studying!

Okay, yesterday was the only day where i did not go to mac!
Yesterday mood was REALLY REALLY bad! ):
More than just upset! it's disappointing filled with a bit of anger!
well, I really don't know how to explain it!


Maybe I did not expect it coming....
And somehow or another, it's the first time I am feeling such a thing.
Well, Yh said that i am growing at the same time too! Ha, to be honest, I don't like the feeling.
): I don't like the feeling of growing up! I don't want to worry for many things!
I still want to stay like a kid, where there are so little troubles coming my way! ):
but reality check, the truth is..... It's time to get mature and do things the right way!
How tough can that be! How tired will that be too?
I hope I would be able to cope it!


Not working for popular anymore!
perhaps, just help out in the Popular Fair during December with Guo an!
So, my income will solely come from my tuitions! (:
yes, Not many kids! but a fair share of cash enough for me to use for the month!
and of course, I would be able to save that bit of cash each month too! (:
Yes! Great!!


and I AM HAPPPPYYYYY NOW! :D
I am going to get E63 later! YAY YAY YAY!
shall study hard now!


and i need to pass my POA!
Such a motivation! heeee!


morning!!! at 9:47 AM

yesterday night studying with YH was quite productive!
which amazes me! I thought I would be quite restless but im not! (:
yayyy! :D


Then again, I am still being study guide by 1 chapter! better chiong soon!
there's econs in a few hours yet i am still here! AND, I feel hungry! oh no! hahahaha =X
anyway, thank you Marlene for waking me up! :D


Many things change over the past month, i guess.. more or less, everything is being settled down.
however people are getting different emotions! I hope everyone will be fine soon! =/
well, it seriously sucks to see someone being upset or something! (:
and also a shout out to JOKKO!!
although he also doesnt read blog, but anyway...
drink more water and get well soooooooooooooon! If not how you sing?!?!?!

and a shout out to MARLENE!
lol.4 words for you!
hahahahahahahaha
don't think too much! sleep more!!! then you wouldnt get so moody k! <3


and to YOU.
you seems to be going away from us.
which upsets me a lot. )))))):
I don't even know how to describe the feeling anymore.
like everytime i hope that you are here, you will not appear!
sigh.



there's tuition later at 4pm too!
wahh, the kid is chiongster man!
and shittttttttt! i can't have money to shop yet!!!!!!!!!! )))))))))))))))))):
how how, monday how! )))):


and btw, i have not decided, should i go maths tomorrow or not go.



i want to get a rubix cube because i want to learn to solve it!
but where can i buy?!?!? i don't want those lousy one k! LOL
if not, anyone wants to donate their cube to me???? please please! :P



okay, got to go bath already, if not late for school la!
byeeeee! :D


at 10:49 AM

to be honest,
i dont know why i feel so pekchek when i wake up.


many things going through my head.
if only all of them are gone. ):



1)
i hate the feeling.
2)
i hate the feeling too.
3)
HATE IT!



it's no longer how you see things anymore.
it's how others decide to see you as.
and that's FREAKING irritating, and pissing people off! ):
it's like you are not this way, yet they think that you are.


just feel like SHOUTING OUT LOUD LA.
ROAR! ):


happy day meena! :D at 12:06 PM

whenever i look at your picture,
i think somehow or another, i miss you.


hello. morning!
Okay, I miss my mac breakfast today again! I guess shall have it like soon! ):
ROAR! I want the pancake and I want my coffee! ):
it's approaching monday soon yet i don't know what is happening.
Somehow, feel so.... worried, so upset. for myself.


and another thing,
i don't know if i can say, i hate XXX. ):
roar, he/she seems to be making this really messy and really really @$*!@_$*@
damn it.
maybe if you don't exist in our lives everything will be good. ):
because apparently, i miss his presence!
(PLEASE DO NOT TRY TO ASSUME WHO IS THE PERSON I AM TALKING ABT AND WHOSE PRESENCE I MISS! I JUST NEEDED TO FA XIE!)


what song should i sing.
what song should i sing.
what song should i sing.


okay, I am quite tired with this blog skin already.
yet at the same time, there isn't anything nice for me to change!
right, and actually i should just concentrate on other things!



I feel so breathless! ):
No idea why!


should I continue working for popular?
I don't know if I will have the time!
Somemore, now that i have tuition kid! and definitely, standing for 5 hours and getting only $25 is not as good as sitting for 1.5 hours and getting $35?
yes. so you get it?


i hope everything was a month ago.
when it was so simple and so happy.


complicated. at 1:57 AM

things.
complicated. headache. roar!


anyway, just finished a game of mahjong with the couple and adele!
won a lil! *yay!* but nothing compare to what i lost last week!
i hope the 3 of them are safely home now! :D


there's tuition tmr and on sunday!
meeting yh, adele tomorrow to study too! :D
today was A LIL productive!
and it was very sudden too! i woke up and then yh message me!
so we chop chop get ready then go and study!
and soon, im gonna ban myself from studying with yh! LOL! cos he ban me! HAHAAHHA! :p
sometimes, it's really gd to have friends staying near you! so that when you lost motivation to study alone, you can just ring your friends up! vice versa! so i am actually glad that yh texted! if not, i think.. i will not study the entire day!


halfway through, we went to xc's hse!
cos yh wants to see cat! and that's also when Marlene joined us! :D
anyway, yh kept disturbing the cat, so it scratch and bite him LOTS of time! lol!!!!
see his hand the next time you get to see him! :P
after that we walk to blk 511 for dinner! AND AFTER DINNER..........
we walk a SUPERRRRRRRRRRRR big round back home!
and seriously, it's super!
cos... we walk THROUGH yh's childhood lane! LOL!!!

after that, back home...
and....
it surprises me when my mum asked if they were tgt! HAHAH! :P
and what... my mum said that yh's not bad looking!
oh no oh no, his ego must be damn high now!


shall not interfere or do anything.


Dream guy,
how ya doing?


gonna sleep now! nights!
need to brainstorm on what song to sing!
dan xiao gui or ya zi?!?!?! for next week song! OH NO!


at 9:36 PM

FL IS VERY BORED.
and once again, everyone is missing! ):


oh no, i am still thinking about you!
the whole day already! ):


is still feeling very happy. at 9:03 AM

memories do stay! (:
and i woke up thinking about it, SMILING! hahahahaha
(shit, i feel so psychotic! nono, i am not!)


it was the 4th time --------
then i realised, maybe it's the correct choice! (:
such a nice guy! a gentleman! And, not just that he's definitely gentle!
he has this special something which not all guys have! LOL!
he is not the really really really "nothing-to-say" guy! He does take the effort to continue talking and talk about something that he doesnt really need to know! (:
and showing me something which i ask for, which i also dont know why i asked for it! HAHAH!
he's smart. (:
he definitely has a sense of humour!
he has a very nice smile, eyes and hair! =))


we were walking by the road side, on the road.. many cars were driving past us...
we were talking... and i was beside you.
then you asked me to walk inside.. so i did..
but never did i expect you to walk next to me but at the outer side! =))
then, we continued talking.... ha!
i felt safe! :D


*clap clap* at 11:46 PM

if you're happy and you know it clap your hands!
*CLAP LOUD LOUD*



yay!



omgosh! such a long time since i last felt this feeling!
if im not wrong, the last time was during popular fair!
(in march!?) OH NO OH NO!
what did i got myself into!



your smile, your eyes, your hair, you you and still you!
=))))))
happy.


even if everything starts from a crush!


i want watermelon juice! at 10:50 PM

i want watermelon juice! ):


okay, that's totally random!



anyway, today is a good yet bad day!
don't know how i should elaborate!
i did POA till i headache and till i want to cry! ):
SAD.
so, my GOOD friend is gonna help me tomorrow! THANK YOU! :D



MARLENE DARLING!
please take care of yourself!
don't eat the wrong food again k! and for now, please keep clear from fried, spicy, sour food!! :D
yes yes, you need to get well! and, paiseh, i really dont know what to do when you were in great pain!!!!!! )))):
sleep early and remember take medicine! :D


oh btw, i forget to introduce!!!!
i have a monkey friend!
her name is Adele! :P


tired. at 9:51 PM




*i wondered how you are doing right now!
many questions came to my mind..
what are you doing? Are you happy?
and then shit, i realised, why am I thinking about you! ):


Study at KOBP wasn't productive for me at all!
not because we were talking, but because i am uber tired!
plus the fact that i couldn't get a single thing!
was kinda pissed off to be exact!
Xuan Cheng!!! your disease pass to me already la!
now i also think i might fail econs! ROAR! )))):


anyway, i finally decided to save those zhong qiu jie pictures!
so so so, i shall post some of them up!!! :D

adele! you act cute! :P
mooncakes! LOL! the vegeterian type!
papa with lantern! :D
PANDA!!! reminds me of NARDO! :D
adele and teoheng! :P
This is JEEP! :D
3 generation!! :D

awwww, so sweet!
camwhore!





lanterns! we feel young young young!
no i am young, the guys are not! :P

let's all light up the candles!

GUESS WHAT IS THIS!!!! ANSWER will be revealed at the bottom! :D
yeaaaaa!! :D
SMILE! :D esprimere ppl RAWKZ! :D
jokko and friends! (daren, ryan, wee hong!)

WE LIGHT UP THE MYSTERY WORDS ON TOP! :D
YES, now you see it! it says.. ESPRIMERE! :D


okay, ending post here!! TADAH! :D




happy + friends + money! at 9:00 AM

okay, what a title right!
anyway, the title has LIL links to what I want to type anyway! HAHAAHA, so don't bother about the title! (:


so anyway, miracles do happen!
LIKE.
when you thought that your parents wouldn't allow you to watch mid-night movie, they actually allowed! wooooot~ yea, you know that feeling! YES YES, i know you know! =P
So, yesterday night, initially was about to go look for Marlene, YH, XC to chill out for a while! But then, they allowed! yayyyyyy! :D
Reached YH's house and then play MJ! =)
yea, right. I lost!!! ): shucks, felt so noob! LOL!!! but I tell you, I wasn't the biggest loser! WAHAHAHAHA! :P someone knows who SHE is. :P
After that headed down to Cineleisure to look for nD, Peiwen, Wendy, Jokko, Daren!
Movie @ 0040! Time Traveller's Wife! WOAH.
nice nice nice show. First it's a lil boring, and then, it gets so intense! and then... the tears would start flowing! Plus, the main actress is PRETTY! wooooot~~~
but you know something, -.- I felt so weird sitting in between 2 couples! No kidding man! LOL!

After movie, went to Xin Wang Cafe to chill a lil, while some had their supper!
Then left at abt 3.30! (:
Yh fetched Marlene back first! and then drop Xc at his hse to get xc's car, den xc drove nD back while Yh drove me back! (:


I love everyone's companion!
Although, everything maybe a lil different compared to last time.....! :D
it's like how I wouldn't believe if I have...........................
but I am still not sure about it! shucks! =/



Right, I need to go tuition soon already!
Daddy's gonna fetch me there!
yayyy!

after that should be meeting nD(who is selling fruits now!) to go meet yh!
and then meet Marlene at KAP to study!
At night might be meeting chua and bob! :D
Not sure yet though! =/


Alright, shall blog again soon!


a new week is gonna start.
i hope you will stay happy! :D
(you as in ALL!)


woooot~ at 6:54 PM

oh, btw! FL thinks that one of her ex-crush is cuteeeeee! =X
hahahahahaha!


hello! :D at 6:21 PM

okay, enough of all the very angry or very sad post!
LOL, i think reader also tired liao! (:


I just woke up from my nap! Feel a bit awake now!
Early morning, woke up to give tuition to my very guai and adorable Alvin!
(no, i am not paedophile!) but anyway, he's getting a lil too talkative! =)
well, and of cos, i extended my help by giving him a extra 30 mins for maths!
Made a deal with him! Felt good teaching him!! (:
I met his mum for the first time, and she's very very very nice!
LOL, she asked me if i want to take the fees first cos she scared i need to use money!


so came back home, and then studied for like 5 hours?!?!?!
and then decided to take a nap! and here i am!!!
and you know what! i feel like nowadays, I'm the last to know everything! ):
and the feeling sucks! but oh well, nevermind.
Like I say, shall be positive! :D



I cleared one obstacle!
now, to the next! :D




I love POA.
somehow or another. because it just fried my brain! ):


at 11:55 PM

shall ban myself from that particular website! (:


I'll be happier! (:


at 11:52 PM

for your info, i did nothing wrong either.
so don't use that tone on me.


at 10:26 PM

i hate you.


and i meant it.



don't assume who he/she is!
and don't think too much either!
and no, i'm not gonna say who!


yippe! :D at 12:16 PM

it's friday all over again! :D
this means, it is the weekend! nowadays, time really flies fast!
I still remember how i dread about going for POA! and now, it's the weekend! :D
I love my time table! Well, other than... the 3 hrs a day, i get my friday free! (:
It's a good time for me to catch up on what's lost or catch on my sleep! :D


Anyway, I just woke up not long ago! but at 5 plus once again, someone message woke me up! LOL!
it was such a heart-warming one though. (: because, nowadays... everything seems so messy, so luan! and most of the time, I don't know what is going on! And then, being the very emotional person, yea, i do feel sad, feel upset, feel disappointed easily! not to say, even anger! I am very capable of feeling upset because someone else is feeling upset! weird huh! but that's exactly how i am feeling! not that I can control whether I want to feel it that way or not! Maybe, it's just the magic of friendship!


(roar! msn decided to fail on me!)

but at the same time, I think there are lots of misunderstanding going around! ):
hope everything can be cleared soon! ):


so anyway,
okay, this week I have been a bad kid! O.O
Tuesday, I did not go for lecture!
And from last week, I haven't been studying! Feel so guilty! how am I suppose to get my first class like that! omgosh!
Wednesday, Teo heng-ed! omgosh! =/ See guiltyX2!!!!! ):


Okay regarding Vocal lessons yesterday!
Yesterday lesson wasn't much! it was just the other half of the people singing!
And I realised something! Everytime Sugie would ask Jokko to sing first and then follow by me!
Like last week, Jokko sang his rainbow first and then next was me..
yesterday, he asked him to try the zhuan yin and then ask me! ): like, omgosh... scary man!
but this also means that he has not given up hope on me! HAHAHAH!
i mean, I tot he had! Cos, he always say my pitching got a lil problem! and my hearing got problem! =(
so yea, yesterday also not that bad! At least he mention my name! So yes, FL would need to work hard! so that i can grab all the performance chances!!!!!! JIAYOU! =)
shall sing like everyday and then make notes here and there!
results will show because of hardwork right? hmmm, let's prove this point! :P

Since young till now, I've got curfew!! Nowadays, things are getting a lil more relax! Like, I don't need to come home by 10! but of cos, self discipline! I will still want to come home before that! nowadays, it's either I'm home very early or I'm home very late! ):
shucks, seem to have upset my mum lots of time! )))):
okay, shall not stay out too late! Afterall, my full time job is to study and not to play!!! RIGHT, okay! ):
This means that I can't join adele and gang out late night activities! which sometimes make me feel so out-casted by myself! =/ *sad*

(wahhh, muscle aching!)


okay, after typing so much, i realised.. I need to study now!! LOL!
ciao~


i never thought... at 10:41 PM

i never thought I would feel this way.

never thought I would feel so upset because you are upset.
that's how important you are to me as a friend!
never will tell you that on msn, neither by sms or even f2f!


if there is a way, i hope everything will turn out fine.
turn out to be happily ever after.
but this is life, we have to learn to accept and then let it go.
even if it's difficult, even if you are not able to, you need to try.
you still have the support of your friends. those who stand by you, those who listen to you..


please smile and not think too much about it!
because, brother, i care!


Art Festival! 心动 at 5:38 PM



心动!!!!
this is the video of my performance during art fest!! okay, kinda bad! but shall share with everyone!!! :DD
so for those who missed my performance, here it is! HAHAHA! :D


<3 esprimere. at 2:17 PM

I totally love esprimere!
For the people, for the chances given to perform, for the friendship.


I said that because, yesterday when i needed help the most, someone was standing there literally to "protect" me! hahahahaha! even though i am actually not very close to him, but yea.... thank you Min Shun! :D

and also, whenever I feel the most down, there will always be someone to hear me whine. if not the person will also whine together! HAHAHAH! and also, the one who always send me home after esprimere! well, blame our hse distance k! HAHAHA! =X ((((: and yes, I feel really blessed to know him! Thank you, Xuan Cheng! :D

Of course, there is still my bff!
the one who knows my secret and knows me almost inside out! the one who shares the lamest joke and funniest one with me! the one who tells me almost everything too! the one who i need her to accompany me to go toilet! LOL! OKAY, sound so primary school! but yea, thank you Adele for being there! :D

WAIT, there is still more!

so, there is this one...
who no one likes because his reaction very kua zhang during camp!
but, he is the one who actually gives the most advice... and always saying dont care, dont bother.!
the one who ask all of us not to waste food! the one who actually get a tick in everyone's checklist! HAHAHAH! ((((: the one who i look upon as one of my bff! yea, thank you Jokko! :D

the one who sits beside me during maths lecture! the one who made me laugh like there's no tomorrow! the one who tells me the lamest stuff! the one who always say i bo jio him! the one who is like a lil boy! the one who copied maths yet still "fail" HAHAHAHA! :P MY BFF no.3!!! :D HAHAHAHAH! thank you Bonson! :D

how can i forget my 2,4,6??? (((:
she is the one who listen to me as much as bff! (: hahahaahha!
we attempted to study twice together but failed! =X
the one who i love! she is my the other half okayyy! HAHAHAH! :P
thank you Marlene! :D

still got the person who i look upon as my brother!
he totally has the brother feel cos he very tall and protective! HAHAHA!
the one who always tell us story and his 6th sense! :D
yea, he bring as much joy as everyone else! and that is... yeow hwee! thank you da ge! :P

of cos, there is still this girl...
who always say.. "aiya, ni bu dong de la!"
who always say.. "suan le la!"
the one who sing really nice! the one who take photo at one angle! the one from the same jc! :P
fun fun! :D thank you Peiwen!!! :D

there is always this girl!
who knows quite a no. of famous people, cute people, pretty boys! :D
the one who talks about anime, who can draw well too!
the one who is very girly! hahahaha! =)
the one who doesnt have secret! (:
thank you Wendy! :D

also,
one more... who is really rich. who has 6 dogs! who live near Jack Neo! :D
hahahaha! yea, she always say i never tell her things one lo! actually it's not!
LOL!!! she also, always send me home!! always telling me funny stuffs too! hahaha!
thank you Princess Diana! :D

how can i not mention my boss!
without her nothing is possible! without her, everything will be chaotic!
she is like the soul of the club! AHAHAAH! :D
the one who say that i owe her hot teh peng! HAHAHAHA! :P
yes yes, thank you Zhiqi! :D


LASTLY,
everyone else that I did not mention! (Esp, my family!!!!!!)
you guys made a difference in my SIM life! :D if not, seriously.. it would have been REALLY REALLY boring! i did not make the wrong choice! Did not regret for going for the audition the other time! did not regret going for the camp! yes, friends rawkz! :D
thank you all for being such nice bunch of people!!!! :D


withlotsof

♥

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at 9:57 AM

hope that everything will be norm.
i feel kinda scared now. lost as well.
like, what am i supposed to do?


it's just a harmless one.
i didnt want it to get exposed.
i feel really lost.


the moment i left, i know everything will not be the same anymore.
fear.


mid-autumn at 5:30 PM

Hello world!
I just woke up again! Felt so tired after my <4 hrs slp in the morning! So, i just catch back another 3 hours plus beauty sleep! Woooot~ feel so energetic yet at the same time STILL feel a lil tired! HAHAHAH! okay, contradicting! =X Anyway, yesterday was such a fun fun fun fun day! (okay minus the ending of the day!)

I woke up at like 8 plus, prepare tuition material! However, when I reach Alvin's house, he said change to sunday! ROAR! LOL! so nevermind la! Since i'm gonna meet Adele after tuition, I was like k, go there first! But no, I went all the way down to Kovan to fetch Adele off work! which gave her a SHOCK! :P See, how good friend am i?! =)) After that we had lunch together with daren also, then head off to Adele's house! (Well, supposingly Jokko should be present too! BUT APPARENTLY, he didn had car so..... LOL!)

Practise Shuo Hao de Xing Fu ne at adele's house! Okay, I seriously hope I would be able to make it on monday! kinda scared about it! ): Cos of the intensity of the song. It builds up higher and higher! So at the last part, I fear that i will po yin! This time round the performance quite gan! ): So ah, rush here and there! and i need to like catch my he yin also! (which apparently, I dont think I will be able to do it ROAR! sorry xc!)

So anyway, after that got Andy's message ask if want to play lantern! LOL! so, on ah! we all decided so so so last minute again! LOL! But it was raining cats and dogs! we were so scared we can't get to play! ): but we(andy+haoyi) still met at 7.30 at white sands! We had a FUN time trying to find lanterns! we went to fairprice, then to japan home, then to popular, then we went back down to fairprice! and we found it! And at this moment, XC came too! Then after we buy... Limin and Pei Wen also reached! (: then we decided to go E hub for dinner!

GUESS WHAT! we did it again, 7 ppl in a car! Was like having stomach cramps man! cos was laughing too much! and that stupid hao yi make us laugh even harder! And it was so difficult to find a parking slot! AND there was a funny scene! A woman was walking to her car, and we were following.. den someone suddenly said.. "is that diana?!"
AND we burst out laughing! LOL! in the end, diana had to stand at an empty slot to chop place for us.

After dinner we went to diana's house to get mooncake! oh before that we went to be chrysanthemum tea! LOL! =X cos xc say, need to drink tea and shang yue........-.- OMGOSH, Diana's house has 6 dogs! and they are frigging cute! Although they do like climb onto you and scratch you! hahahah! and they were so friendly! LOL! Jeep(ADELE, LAUGH!!!) got molested by me, andy and adele! HAHAHAHAHA! (:

we finally set off to Pasir ris park at 11:20 like that! we walked there with our lit-up lanterns! feel so young! HAHAHAH! :D and then while walking there, there is this curb.. we heard lorry horn..... YET, there wasn't anyone inside! freaked me,pw,limin, adele!!! we found a place for us to play candles and all! and then when we reached, we realised, we not enough candles! so xc and haoyi walked back to diana's hse to take car and go and buy! LOL!

Then we put the candle around the tree in one circle following the boxes...
so fun! WOOOOOT~ hahahahaha
after that Jokko and friends came over after their work! (weihong, ryan, daren)
then we play the sparkles also! HAHAHA! damn fun la!
and kudos to Andy for making the word "esprimere" with candles!

Seriously, my Uni life would sucks so much without Esprimere! more of the gang of friends!!!! i totally just love all of them! :D so anyway, yesterday was also the ONE DAY which i stayed till 3am plus! never in my life i was so late before! ROAR!
after everything, we still went for tehpeng! then xc send me home first! for obvious reason!!! ):
anyway, XC!!!!! thank you for sending me home first! although i should be the last to alight so i can accompany you through! sorry, damn paiseh!!! thanks!!


so that was how i celebrated my mid-autumn!! (:
pictures will be up soon! as long as i got it! :D


ugly truth part 2! at 5:26 PM

I don't know why I feel upset.. Upset whenever I see or hear it...
Maybe that's what love is all about. So, I think I will have to say, whatever that we felt before wasn't love. I will choose to think that, i am the bridge... and always the bridge.
Never once the main in any story....


When I played the story all over again, I can't help but teared... can't help but feel the disappointment as i compare.... Is it really so fast? Have you really.....? how is it possible?
cos maybe in the first place, it wasn't real. wo fang bu xia, shuo yi wo xuan zhe li kai.


I hope I will never get to experience this before..
because it sucks, and it spoils friendship.
even if it's not intentionally..........


i guess, i shall not care, not bother and not think anymore! (xc, familiar? :P)
take care and all the best.


the UGLY truth. at 4:40 PM

nope, you did not keep your promise.


but who should be the one complaining. you, not me.
yet i am here thinking, whining... for what? nothing. HA!
am i just being childish or being very NICE?


decided to have minimal contact from now on.
yup.
sorry, maybe afterall I can't take it.



It was great once.
Both side.


Maybe I need time, but how long... i'm not sure.


at 10:10 AM

things seems so different.
I am learning not to think too much, learning not to care however.... it just seems like i can't! ):
I feel so troubled the whole day yest. ):


It saddens me! not just a bit.
but what am I supposed to do? Sit down, watch and do nothing?
Or be some kpo person and interfere in?




sigh.


tuition later at 2pm and wedding dinner at night!