The thing about love 
Is I never saw it coming 
It kind of crept up 
And took me by surprise 
And now there’s a voice inside my heart 
That's got me wondering 
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

Hi (:
My name is FANGLIN and I rawkz!
Twenty-one candles on the 26th June '11. I ♥ Singing, Laughing, and Stoning.

FRIENDS
is the bomb.
i love love love my friends TTM!
xoxo


withlotsof♥♥♥♥




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((((((((: at 10:58 PM

Today is a happy day! :D
LALALA~ :D


1st: I felt so reluctant to go to work but work turns out fine! (:
2nd: I have earned like $108.50 today! :D (basic+comm!)
3rd: Uncle is super handsome and cute! :D
4th: Uncle asked if I want to go JE with him.
5th: I have got like $576 sales altogether for my 2 days of work! :D
6th: I realised UOL isn't a bad choice cos one of my manager told me.... they prefer UOL to local uni grads! :D
7th: I am just happy, I don't know why. This is why I am FL. Cause I am weird.
8th: Made new friends. (Bryan, Uncle GA, Mandy, Jasmine, Marcus, Yan Ming, the other 2 EmitAsia people.)
9th: I saw Dai yang tian REALLY CLOSE UP COS I WENT TO STAFF TOILET AND YEA... though I don't like him.
10th: I AM EARNING MONEY! :D


Afterall, it's the lil lil things that counts.

Thank you for passing me the form with a smile cos it brighten up my day! :D (Uncle)
Thank you for the m&m! :D (YM!)
Thank you for scaring me! :D (bryan!)
Thank you for going lunch together with me! (J!)
Thank you for tapping my shoulder and talk to me! (the 20yr-old Emit's girl!)
Thank you for advicing me! :D (Victor!)


Whee~ FL IS A HAPPY GIRL ALTHOUGH SHE IS GOING TO WORK 12 HOURS FOR ALMOST EVERYDAY FOR THIS WEEK! :D


Feverish+SUPER SIAN! at 8:42 AM

I think for the tele-job i also not this sian. But omgosh la, this pop roadshow is gonna be damn sian okay! Cos my leg will hurt like mad! ): BLEH! For the money sake, shall stay positive.

I am unhappy yesterday.
Still unhappy today. But what to do, life moves on and this means I shall move on too!
People can be unhappy and happy about this. So ironic. ):
I feel so..... SIGH.


Okay, gonna eat my breakfast alr! bye.


Leo!! Very long never talkto you already! I miss you! :D


tired! at 9:01 PM

Feeling really hot within me, hope I am not running a fever! =/
Anyway, met up with S25 today! :D hohoho!
So so long since we go out!
Me, Nadia, Shuqi, Rebecca, Val, Emma, Edward, Zhao yuan, Alan. (:
I AM HAPPY. COS COS.... :P
OH BTW, we got the huge room. there is a stage and there's SMOKE if you press the button! SO UBER COOL! LOL.
Anyway, I AM STILL VERY IN LOVE WITH EDWARD AND ZHAO'S VOICE! :D

Sang xiao jiu wo with Ed! I think he is like the best guy to sing duet with because he knows how to harmonise! (: I meant, he know how to pei ying and not sing zhu ying! (: righhttt! nice! :D
And then I did ling yi ge tian tang with zhao yuan(my grandson)! hahahaha! his voice is also superb la!
SO LONG SINCE I HEAR THEM SING! :D
After 11-6 we went to find wy and wp! Had dinner after that we went home!



AND AND, I FEEL SO SAD NOW LA! ):



sigh. what is happening?


WORK! :D at 11:21 PM

I hope you are doing well in Taiwan! And everything is fine for you! :D
Hope that you will come back safe and sound! (:
Hope nothing will happen to you!
TAKE LOTS OF CARE!

will miss you, friend! :D








Today work was tiring! I SWEAR IT'S SO TIRING AND SO....TIRING and SO.. (STILL TIRING!)
Woke up at 8 and left house at 9! But apparently, I was still late by a few minutes. Okay, whatever! :D

Booth was like somewhere in the middle. Away from BlueOrange! And Besta wasn't there! =X
Our booth is just behind EmitsAsia!(not sure if i spell it this way!) So in the end, made friends(okay, not really make friends but me and chua talk to this 2 guys la! Bryan and the other one we only know him as senior) SO, please do not say that we are unfriendly! BLEH!
Today was a 12 hours shift! OMGOSH, I nearly died! SO TIRING. DIDN'T GET TO SIT DOWN ON THE CHAIR FOR MORE THAN 5 mins please! URGH! but I am happy happy happy! :D
after 9.5hours of NO SALES, i got my first sales together with chua's first sales! :D WE ARE THE FIRST 2 to broke the zero okay! :D And shortly after that, I got another sales! But then, I gave discount la! urghhhh! ): Originally $49.90! I gave till like $45?!
HEEE! :D I AM HAPPY. ((((((((:

AND OMGOSH, I SAW MY NIKKI! SHE IS THE COOL! :D
CUT HAIR TILL SO SHORT! OMGOSH, I stared at her for the longest period of my life! LOL!
Anyway, saw my cousin, neighbour and and and MR NORDIN! :D
Talk to him for a while and he gave me some advices.
"whatever you do, don't regret and be happy about it."
He asked if I will be happy in SIM, I thought for quite some time and I replied him....
"afterall, it's the course I really want to study...."
(yeayea, infer all you want! you may be right!)


MY LEG HURTS NOW! ):
THERE'S CLASS OUTING TOMORROW YAYYY! AND IT'S SAT! YAYYYY! :D
hohoho, I love saturday cause I can see A! :D


So after me and chua got sales, we were really sian like SUPER.. and it was like left with 40 mins? we walked around.. after that play the english chess(emitsasia's!) wahahahha! :D
den we did smth nasty.. we put face to face! HAHAHAAH! :P and I took a photo of it! but i am very lazy to transfer them now! So I guess I'll do it tomorrow!


Okay, I am kinda tired now but then I am very full. So I can't really sleep! :D


I can't believe that I actually stand for 12 hours! OMGOSH! Such a great achievement! :D
I have earned....$69 today! :D


my destiny at 9:16 PM

我的命中注定。。是你吗？


I am glad to have someone who will always be there for me and clear my doubts.
Someone who will not abandon me. Someone who will make sure I am fine before he goes to sleep.
I just realised, I am very lucky. I have found what I want. (:
I have great friends, great family and you. (:


Thank you for appearing.


swim. at 8:43 AM

I am late!

I woke up late!
but here I am! LOL!
Yes, gonna go swimmmmm~ Woooot~
okay! BYE! =D


I may appear fine, I may not be. at 9:48 PM

After I type a whole chunk I decided that it's not appropriate.




I AM NOT FINE.


Exhausted! at 6:01 PM

Early in the morning woke up and read P's email.
Oh well... I guess I am not gonna consider his suggestion! BLEH!
but really need to thank P for this offer! ((:


Went to meet ZR after such a long time! Went to AMK to sing! (:
And then, went down to bugis to pray!
I hope everything will go well for him when he is in taiwan! =)


So I went to pray..... pray with my most sincere heart!
And I hope I will get what I pray. (: Nope, not material goods. (:
Yea, then the ash land on my finger! and then, now got shui bao! URGH!


OKAY. I AM BORED.


Tough decision. at 9:45 AM

Okay, I am supposed to go out now by the way!
But oh well, Now I feel really confused. Like more confused than ever.
I received another offer. Came unexpectedly! HA! What am I supposed to do!
Okay, shall think about it seriously before making any decision.




Blog later! =X



生日快乐to myself! :D


WEIRD HOURS! at 2:28 AM

I am blogging at such a weird hours for like the first time.
Because I am talking to CHUA and A! (:

okay, I didn't want to blog.. but......
CHUA...... SHE IS THE GREATEST.. she thought of a very nice english name for me already!
so from now on.. my english name is....

Perlyyn! :D (it's purple because i need to give credits to yvonne!)

and there is double y because YVONNE thought of it! and since her name starts with y, i shall add in one more y! this will make it UNIQUE! :D
YUPPPPP~ such a nice name!


YVONNE IS GREAT!


i love yvonne chua!
i love A! :D


成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过 at 10:14 PM

成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过

成全不是美德:
It was easier than I expected. But because I am able to do it, I felt unhappy, upset, disappointed. With who? No one else but myself. I am not being emotional, neither am I sinking into depression. Just feel this tinge of sadness. ): No point telling you again.. right?

拒绝也不是一种罪过:
Yes, definitely! Maybe this is how things should work.







ultimately, I think I just don't know how to love.
high expectations leads to huge disappointents.



小酒窝 at 2:30 PM



wooot~ So nice. Okay, I am gonna learn this piece very soon. (:


I don't know why today the time seems to past by really really slowly. ):
I had a bad dream last night. ):


FUN FUN! at 10:41 PM

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY HENRY CHUA-my half brother!(since, yvonne is my twin.. so you get it! HAHA!)

Today seems to be a very good day! :D

Started off with Mummy being so nice to me!
And then went to work.... SHIRLA IS GONNA KILL ME IF I TALK ABOUT WORK! BUT I AM STILL GONNA TALK ABOUT IT.


It started off with Shankar asking us if we want to work weekdays! OH YES! :D
Finally!!!! WOOOOOOT~ This is just SO great! Too great to be true! So, yea.. I told him to leave a space for me and I should be able to start on 8th June. Since I have already promise Richard that I will be at the roadshow till 7th June. So yes! I will have a steady flow of income for the next few months before I start school! (: My mum is gonna be so happy about it too! And maybe.. A too! :D

So after that start work la... and... then..... guess what?! In 5 mins, I could actually get 2 customers! HAHAAHAHAH! After that slack slack.. cos got 2 already mah, no more stress! After that.. Shankar called my name! Then I was like.. "jialat la! what did i do wrong?!!? did i get like tau gey appointments?" But in the end.. NO. NO. NO! HAHAHAHAHA!
He actually taught me to do another job! As in.. MUCH MORE SIMPLER ONE TO BE EXACT! To call those already got appointment and say..

"hi sir/mdm.. this is calling from XXX.... just want to check if you have received the sms? Oh great, i'll see you tomorrow. okayy. bye!"
THAT'S ALL I NEED TO DO! the most just change appointment! HAHAHAHAH! :D
And this one so much more easier than trying to convince people to come!
BUT ANYWAY... SO... after that I just have to type into the computer and then print it! That's all. SO SIMPLE! I spend like... from 1-4:45 doing this.. cos got 2 companies mah! yupyup! :D
AND THEN.. I WENT BACK TO CALL(my normal job!) Then shirla was like.. if you get one more within the next few mins I'm gonna kill you!
LUCK IS ON MY SIDE TODAY.. COS.. I GOT ONE MORE! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D
THIS WEEK I HAVE GOT 5! :D
(i seriously hope all will turn up okay! don't put me aeroplane!!)


LUCK IS ON MY SIDE! :D

After that, I went Chua's house! Cos brother's birthday! :D
THE CAKE IS WOAH! I ALSO WANT! OMGOSHHHHHHHHH~
And then like usual, play MJ.... LOL. and LUCK IS ON MY SIDE! :D
HAHAHAHAAHHA! =P


And then, had dinner... and then.. slack.. and then home! :D


I dont know why but I just thought that my day is fun today! :D
Anyway, Thank you Yvonne Chua! NOW I HAVE GOT A PIGLET! :D


I feel that I have been a bad friend? But am I really one? I don't know?
This is getting me confused all over again. ):
I was the same since the start... right?
Someone please tell me! ):


Life is good. (: at 10:16 AM

What a title, oh well, at least life is good today!
Cause, I had breakfast.... and my mummy is very nice to me today! (:
She actually asked me if I want money to top up my card. ^^
So nice, hahahaha! I should have like ask for more money. HAHAHAHA!

I am still deciding if I should go for DFTL(chinese) later on.
Apparently, I did some research and they are giving the people really old songs...
like... feng fei fei's song! is like, hello.. I don't even know leh! @%*)!@%*!)%*
So yea! moreover work is till 5.. and the audition ends at 6! So, got time?!


Okay, I wanted to blog longer.. but stomach is acting! OMGOSH. I need the toilet! URGH! ):
okay. bye. blog later!


SERIOUSLY? at 9:38 AM

LOL, this entry is blog with a character of mine. And that is.... KAYPOHNESS TO THE MAX!
HAHAHA! Yea, to the max! But, I didn't gossip or anything. Just like usual blog hop hop hop and still continue hopping! Wahahaha! (:


Does love change so quickly? Like just all of a sudden, overnight?
It's weird, really weird.. For a moment it's him and her, the next is him and another her!
And somemore, this him is good looking! Can't believe what I saw! Seriouslyyyyy! OMGOSH!


Anyway, I can't talk much now, need to rush something! And yea, need to go work soon!
No longer have the feeling of "i-don't-feel-like-working" Cos I want money! HAHAAHAHHA!
It's great to see money in my bank! HEE! (:


Okay, blog when Im back or tomorrow or monday. I don't know, but.. blog soon! :D


可不可以爱我 at 10:38 PM

为什麽如此的安静
为什麽明明想靠近 却还在迟疑
努力的我保持镇定 努力开拓话题
最後却溃不成军

为什麽如此的美丽
深刻的烙在心里 最温柔的酷刑
每一天无法不想你
连闭上眼睛 怎麽都是你

你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过
告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑能告一段落

你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
反正看或不看 我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞


nice song.


Garbage. at 8:43 PM

You are one.
Whatever.

I received an email from Claud today about Garbage Truck.
There is one phrase in there which I particularly like..
"So when someone wants to dump on you, don’t take it personally. Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Believe me. You’ll be happier."


Whatever you want to think la, every thing is already pre-fix in your mind. And only your way is right. So what's the point? I'm gonna just look at it and go... whatever.
Being nice doesn't pay off!


IT WAS GOOD WHILE IT LASTED. (:



If I have $500 000... at 7:30 PM

Yesterday while on the way to Yvonne's House, I was day dreaming like usual.
LOL! And the topic was... If I have $500 000....

What will I do with it?

Okay, If I have $500 000.....

$50 000 will go to my mum and the other $50 000 will go to my dad! Then I think they can retire also! (: And if they not enough then i give them more lo! Oh, okay.. I shall sponsor their trip to Europe! Since they want to go........! (:
So this will left me with $400 000!
I shall be nice and give my sister $5000. Even though I don't think she needs the money!
This will leave me with $395 000! And then, I am going to give $1000 to Yvonne!
And then go shopping spree! So, I will be left with about $393 000?! AROUND THERE LA!

And then.... I will go and learn driving, since I got the money to buy car already! (:
So, about $2000 will be gone for driving! And then... for the cost of the car.. I want tortoise car....! The one that I will hit leo's head when i see them? HAHAHAHAHA YEA!
it cost roughly $75K i guess! Okay, even if it's higher.. the most... $90K?!
So, I will be left with $300 000! WOAH! still got so much left!

I shall put like maybe $100 000 in bank for the interest! For the rest of $200 000.. I still don't know what to do with them la! HAHAHAHA! Depends, if I graduate with degree already, I would want to start my own business.. If not, I think I will buy a house! Oh, and of course... I hope to get a dog! Golden Retriever or Lab! (:

IF ONLY I HAVE THE MONEY! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

So, should I go for the audition for don't forget the lyrics on Sunday? HAHAHAAHAHHA! =X
That's the $500 000 I am talking about! I know it's kinda impossible! But there's no harm for dreaming right! tsk tsk! HAHAHAHAHA!

And then I don't have to worry so much about my future anymore? To lead my simple life... $300 000 should be more than enough! that's what I think la!

Oh gosh, it's the weekend! And guess what, I am still 0% ready for something! OMGOSH!
LOL! Actually, I have no idea what to do! What should I do? omgosh! *panic panic!* =X


okay, blog again soon!


Long Deep Sleep. at 12:17 PM

I just woke up not long ago. Woah, Such a long and deep sleep!
And like I say, I will be fine today. Guess what!!! I AM FINE! =)

But I woke up thinking of someone. ):
Because, he seems to be more lost than I am, so I really hope he will be fine.
For all the times he's there to listen and advice me, I don't know what advice I can give to him.
But I do hope to be able to stay by him... Oh well.. ):
This someone, I hope you are feeling better!

Okay, I am feeling really lazy. but I need to go buy my lunch/breakfast! :D
k, blog later.


alternate route. at 4:06 PM


I don't know who is this lil girl but I am feeling like her. I feel sad, disappointed, a lil bit of anger and very mix feeling! At least now I know that I am not shortlisted for BSc/BA but for the dip prog..... I too isn't shortlisted. I used isn't because there is still a small chance.. really small.
Because the people ask me to wait.. yes, wait.. let's wait till the sun rise from the west shall we? ):

I don't know what is wrong with the system. I don't know how I should actually feel.
Not that I am not happy with SIM, but... oh well.... ):
Such a confused feeling, such a disappointment.. Next time, if you know you can't score well, score worse.. because at least there is a way out for that. At least they will give you an alternative. This is weird, plain weird.... I have nothing else left to say other than.. screw the system! Let me show you that I can be successful this way too!

But K***Y and SHIRLA!!!!! you guys chiong all the way k! Dip isn't that bad either, study hard and switch to the degree!!!! ((: Don't worry I ain't mad or anything. This is life, and sometimes it's just unfair! Whatever it is, let's work hard! heee! ((:


Right now, I am pining my hopes on NUS FASS already. Although it also seems impossible... since the rejection letter isn't here yet, I shall not give up! (: This is the way to life isn't it?


I have learnt not to be too over-confident already. Cause I thought... I will and definitely will at least get the chance for dip interview.. and now, I guess I am wrong. ): One shall not be too over-confident! ): Let's just SMILE now!

There will always be sunshine after the rain, let me find my sunshine now......



p/s: bob!! if we were to bet the other time, you lost this time round! Cause I am not accepted or rather given a chance by moe at all! haha! (:


sorry. at 12:25 AM

Nothing much to say other than I am sorry.



For the first time after so long, I felt this way.


I PASSED MY EPT! :D at 6:59 PM

LOOOOK! JUST LOOK! For that one line, it took me 1 month and 7 days for the results! (:
OH YAY YAY YAY! FANGLIN PASSED HER EPT AND SHE IS VERY HAPPY! :D
SHE JUST HOPE THAT MOE GIVES HER A CHANCE! :D SHE WILL BE HAPPY AND GRATEFUL. (:

OF COURSE, SHE WANTS TO THANK LEO NARDO! :D
Because, he has been so nice.. correcting my english, asking me to correct my own english, with us going online to do english assessements! Yea, and with his endless support!
Thank you best friend! :D Our friendship can continue because I PASS MY EPT!
(I know even if i fail my EPT, our friendship will still continue! hahahaha!)

So now I just need to pray hard that NIE likes me! LOL!
OKAY.

HAPPY! *clap clap!*


back to norm. at 6:03 PM

my mood is more or less back to norm! (:
Thanks to A, Chua and Leo! :D

Seriously, thank you the 3 of you! ((((:


Tomorrow gonna go get my commission! My moneyyy! But I don't know why so lil leh! ):
But nevermind, doesn't matter! Got money I happy le! Hee! (:

Gonna work back for popular again I supposed! Because Richard asked Me and Chua to help him for roadshow! (: So I will have money again! But then, I am not sure if Richard wants to take me! Because, i have work on weekend! =/ I hope like I can work from 6-9 on weekend or something! )): I really want work on weekdays you see! =X Afterall, I don't mind the popular job la. (:
Okay, pray and hope for the best tomorrow! :D

I shall trust and believe my G.Y.M. She told me everything will be fine! So, I shall not think about it anymore. (:

EPT results is out! And I have yet to get mine because I don't have my letterbox keys! I think it is in my letterbox la! Cause Kelly received it! (: Omgosh, I feel very scared leh! I need to pass! If not, I am total goner! ): there will be one more testdate coming up and then, that's it.. no more! But then, let me hope that I didn't fail la! *cross my fingers!*

Gonna go Clementi and then Buona Vista!(BLEH!!)
It's thursday tomorrow! Weekend is coming! (work!) YAY! :D

okay, blog again later!
I seem to be blogging more often than I usually do! :D


f*ck! at 2:55 PM

So you mean we need either really good results or really bad results?!
Like hello, what the hell! I submitted my application freaking 2 months ago..
you got the cheek to say, the process needs 1 month! you exceeded that one month by another month!

and people with worse results than mine got it but i don't? I do have better CCA to support me somemore! WTH! So what is the criteria seriously!? I am going down and questioned ALL OF YOU TOMORROW! ):


I am f*cking pissed and I swear I can just kill a cow or 2! Maybe 10!
Not just pissed. UPSET. SERIOUSLY. =(


URGH! i hate whatever is happening!
SERIOUSLY.


Thank you people! :D at 10:28 AM

Thank you A! (:
Thank you Chua! (:
Thank you Leo! (:
Thank you FangHan! (:
Thank you Shirla! (:
Thank you Khai! (:
Thank you Kelly! (:


Thank you for trying to cheer me up! Thank you for talking to me.
Thank you for your supportive words! ((:
Seriously, thanks.


Inevitable. at 10:07 AM

It's not that I want to feel sad. It is because, I can't help it. It's all within me! I can tell my brain.. "okay, dont worry.. dont feel sad. everything will be alright. It will be your turn soon."
But deep down inside, the feeling still exist. ):
Then Again, I will try my best not to think about it.
(but, actually, i have been thinking last night till now..... it was a tough sleep i swear!)
It was the last thing on my mind when I fell asleep, and it's the first thing on my mind when I woke up. Cos I saw Leo's message and he asked me not to be sad. oh well.... ):
This feeling sucks.


早知道就用功读书！): 现在就不必担心这么多了。。　
但是，人生哪里有这么多的“早知道”！




Really Sad. ): at 8:47 PM

Today I received Shirla's call and then she told me she received an email telling her that she got rejected for the B.Sc or B.A(education) but she got offered for diploma. As in NIE ask her whether she wants to consider for dip. Sigh, I feel so sad because I am not given the chance at all. Cos I didn't received the email! ): What everyone say is that "don't worry.. maybe they consider you for degree"

I would want to think this way too, seriously. But, I.. just can't! I mean, my brain cannot switch its mode to that! ): So, yes. That's why I am sad. ):
So, I think I will give NIE a call tomorrow! Have been so affected the whole day. =(
And then, I realised.... not only Shirla got the email. Some others got it too! ):
It's like those who applied for NIE.. almost all got it! SIGH.

What? Am I seriously going to SIM?

I don't know la. I feel so !@*$)!%#%&@#% now. And very !#%*)#%@#%&@#)%&.
Don't even feel like doing anything. ):



gonna go home soon.


lovesong101.(chinese) at 12:48 PM


Some nice soul, please buy this album for me! LOL!
I am broke but I want this album! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! =D
Okay la. Shall get it after I get my pay! (:

I am still searching for my JJ's first album! ): Sigh, seems like it can't be found anywhere anymore! ): BIGGER SIGH! ):

I am hungry. I am waiting for Yvonne. I can't wait to go Ikea. I can't wait to go her house.
I can't wait for saturday. I can't wait for next tuesday!(7 more days!)

Can't wait for next weekend too. (not this coming one!)
Cause I think next weekend I will get my payyyyy! :D YAY YAY! :D
And then 15 days later......... TADAH! I will have commission! :D Although not alot of money.. still.. it's money! :D And it's MY money. (:

Okay, I will blog something kinda saddening to myself later at night.


oh no! I have been sneezing like mad again! ):


10 promises to my dog at 3:31 PM


Just finished watching 10 promises to my dog.
I remember that I keep whining last year how I want to watch this show.
And the date of release was on my birthday.. But then again, last year was a lil too hectic to keep watching movie.
So finally today, I've watched it. (:

And I realised... woah, I indeed can cry alot.
Been crying these few days! Books, Shows and some other stuffs.
I think I will go blind crying one day. LOL! =X
okay, not funny.


bored at 11:54 AM

I woke up at 9am today, I didn't wake up late! But I was feeling really tired. Back ache and headache, so decided to give today a miss! Gonna change the day to wednesday! (:
Afterall, it was really cloudy. So I think we are gonna postpone it anyway! =X
And now it's raining!!! =/

Just created another Facebook quiz. Because the previous one... people say difficult and tricky and very wth. SO.. here's a new one.. quite simple. If you fail, you really don't know me at all man! HAHAHAHA! :P But for the fun of it, please take it people! :D

http://apps.facebook.com/quizdoyouknowme/take_quiz.jsp?q=3579800&key=IXCZ


Anyway, For the whole morning.. I have been cam-whoring with my sister laptop! I am really bored and feeling really really really tired. But it's not the mind tired, so I can't go back to sleep you see!

Here's the photos! HAHAHAHA! (:



Damn bored at home! I'm gonna start on my 4th Sparks' book! And then I can head down to library again! YAY! (:

And the whole morning I have been listening to Like An Eagle. I first heard the song during Graduation Day. The choir sang it. And then... I went to search online.. and now, I am still hook to the song! (:

I do have the mp3 from a song choir. A school in US I guess! I think they did pretty well with the song! (: But anyway, I'm gonna post the video up here! Listen to it.
It's so inspirational!



Like an Eagle I will fly!

Okay, I seriously want to go find food already!
Blog later.


one more down. at 10:59 PM

One more book down!
Unexpected ending! ):
Made me cry. (like always, all books have that effect! SIGH!)

The notebook next! :D


Not in the right mind. at 7:13 PM

The weekend is over once again. This means that I effectively earn another $60 bucks! (:
This week, same thing... got 3 clients! And I SERIOUSLY hope that they would turn up for their appointments so that I can earn money! =X

Anyway, so.. there's funny things that happen today. And today, I seem to be not in the right mind still. =X

Me : Hello, is this Mr X?
Mr X: Ya, may i know who is this? Because I am a married man.
Me : Oh this is fanglin calling from bio focus international.... BLAHBLAHBLAH..
Mr X: Oh, no need la! my face only sandpaper can help!

And then,

the sexy bitch wanted to call me(my colleague!).
and I saw her dialling no. so i thot she was calling me already! Then my phone rang..
I picked up and said immediately... "stupid sia, so boring!!! *yawn!*"
A man voice appeared and said.. "hello?"
I WAS LIKE OMGOSH OMGOSH.... so i hang up... and then I scared he will call again, so i hang the phone.. but because I was using headphone, and it wasn't on my ear, I didn't know the man was still on the line.. and then, I was laughing like mad already.. then when i settled down.. (about 20 secs later) I wanted to make the next call... the man said.. "helloooooooooo?"
I WAS LIKE OMGOSH. so... i plug out the telephone line. =X oooops, and i couldn't stop laughing.
Seriously, sorry to the man! OOOPS! =X

Another funny thing is that Shirla prank Carmella. And then we were trying our best not to laugh.. And then carmella was so serious.. and she didn't know it was shirla.. And after a good 3-4 mins....(after many qns from shirla).. shirla said.. "turn your head to the left" AND THEN WE BURST OUT IN SILENT LAUGHTER!(yea, if we LOL, sure get scolded!)
Really funny! =)

Work seems slow yet fast! I mean, at least I am doing something rather than slacking my 5 hours at home doing nothing! =) So i do feel that I am making good use of my time! (:
Why did I say I still don't feel right.. is because.. I actually left something in the office after I left.. so... =/ Tsk tsk! I had to walk back alone to take it. BLEH! =(


So, here I am blogging.. feeling hungry because there isn't any dinner for me at home! !@#)%!#*%@# Yes, i do feel very !@$*!(@$*!$*!@#$. I mean like.. if there is no dinner, at least give me a call or something. Not when I reached home and then I realised there isn't any dinner for me! And seriously, how is it fair that my once weekday allowance became a..... WHOLE WEEK ALLOWANCE?! it doesnt make sense! That's why I always ask my mum to buy dinner. I used to be able to claim back my dinner money, not now. So, why should i spend my allowance on dinner! BLEH! This is.. seriously.. not... fair. !@%*!@)%*!#%
And when I was in J1, and half of my J2 years, my allowance was never $30. Oh man, SISTER, please count yourself lucky to have $30/week now! AND... $30/week is actually lil compare to alot others! BLEH.


I am going out with Fanghan tomorrow. Though I am thinking twice now! I mean, because I feel really tired. So I dont know if I will have the energy to swim tomorrow! And we actually plan to meet early in the morning! And, yea.. EARLY in the morning! HAHAHA! anddd..... She is gonna be crazy and say swim like maybe 15laps?! LOL! I am gonna die! And then, we're probably gonna catch a show(the ramen girl!) at E-hub! (:
(boyfriend, it's because you don't watch this kinda show, that's why I am watching with my friend! LOL!)

Tuesday, I'm probably gonna drop a visit to Chua's house! Because she told me on the phone that her house look as though they just move to a new house! And she said that... When I go over.. I would want to stay there. so it's quite thrilling and exciting. So I think, I am gonna pay a visit! (:

That's my plan for the next 2 days!


I hope to stay in your mind like how you stay in mind. <3


<3 country songs! at 8:19 PM

Been listening to country songs! Like really country songs! For example...
Eric Church-Love your love the most.

I have been in this country mood since last night and I have no idea why.
Suddenly just have the interest in country songs! (: Cos it just sounds a lil emo.
Well, there is just something that keeps lingering in my head and I just can't seem to get it off me!
That explains this feeling. ):

Everything happening around me seems saddening. Friends. Schoolmates.
Aiya, I dont know what I should do... =/


Today work was fine. The time seems to pass by really fast! (:
Shimona and Carmella join us this week. Hee, funnn! I prank-ed Shirla. SO FUNNY.
Got 1 customer today! Anyway, last week I got 3 customers and all 3 came down but 1 got rejected because he came before, shucks, i didnt know! =/
Anyway, so yea.. now i have got $10 commission! and.. after tomorrow work, i'll have $120!!!(basic pay!) :D YAYYYYYY! :D
and, GSS is coming soon! :D I REALLY CANT WAIT!! XD! shopppinnggggg!
DRESSES AND SKIRTS! =)


我不知道在担心什么。。 就觉得很不对经。。。
告诉我。。。该怎么做！）：


I miss bestfriendddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!
because he said...
"I really miss you and all the time we've spent together and all those stupid things that we did!"


Booooooo! at 9:32 AM

Mummy woke me up at 8am! And then I continue sleeping like a pig till 9!
I just had my breakfast! (HEALTHY LIFESTYLE!) HAHAHAHA! (:
Gonna change soon and then go buy bread for lunch to bring to office!

I had such a nice sleep! And I don't know why.. Okay, my blog is getting more and more no sense! =X
Anyway, things come and go. We should learn to take things seriously however at the same time lightly. Because when it is time to let go, no matter what, we have to do it. Or else, it will just cause us more and more hurt. Till one day, we totally give up hope on it. Be it a person or a good. We should still have some feeling attached to it no matter how much we want to give it up.
Because, as long as the feeling died, we no longer cherish the person or the thing. This means that, whether or not you are alive or dead, I don't really care. That's what I realised.

Therefore, I think.. it is because I hold on for too long, that's why I am treating you the way.. I think you deserved. In the first place, was I even your friend to begin with? I deviate from your graph I supposed. Oh nevermind, like I say.. I can't be bothered already.

Oh yes, another day for me to earn money money money!
YESSSS! HAPPY OKAY! =) Last week.. basic pay = $60.
This week another $60. Wahhhh. I am happy k! HAHAHAAHHA! =X
I am a woman who is easily satisfy, I THINK! =P

Okay, I think I got to go! If not I will be late to meet shirla again! But I thought we'll be really early today. Alright. Ciao~


Oh yay yay! (: Today is the 16th of May. This left us 10 more days! =)))
<3!


Sunshine after the rain! :D at 12:14 AM

Well, everything is fine now. I thought things are gonna turn sour!
lucky it did not. =/
I really did have a shock today afternoon. But oh well, it's all over. ((:
Over in a good way. HEE!

Hope Chua is doing well too! (: BABE, you always have me! =)
I LOVE YOU!


Supposingly, I should sleep now because I need to wake up at 8am tomorrow!
Yes, I have work! (: I am looking forward to work k!
But this means that I can't see B! )))):
But oh well, Gonna get paid in 2 weeks time! YES YES.
It's either I get $240 or $180! Cos payday is 30th! (: This means I will have money to go out already! and then I can like spend on something which I think I need to buy. (:


I hope everything will go well from now! ((:


Please not so fast. at 8:31 PM

Have I not been a nice kid? Why is my life so rocky?
Please, don't let this end. And don't let this proceed too fast.

I looked out of my window, with the strong gust of wind blowing on my face, I asked myself a question. And I don't know how to answer. I look out of the window again, I see the heavy traffic and the headlights of every car and as every car go past, I asked myself another question.
And questions just keep piling and piling. And as I look out of the window the third time, a tear just flow out of my eyes.


I don't know what is happening. I thought all was going fine.
Why am I feeling this... unexpected feeling?
Why am I feeling like this?



what will happen next?
what should i do next?
I fear...really fear.


heartbroken? at 6:18 PM

I don't know why but I feel this way.
Was it on accident??
):


I... dont know.
I only know....... Im sad.


yuck. at 11:59 AM

I was reading my Sept and Oct entry.
And I felt digusted. With myself if you want to say. eeeew~ I feel like I am such a despo! EEEEEW~

And I still don't believe how he act and all. Yuck.



I've finally reached the stage of..... YUCK. I hate you.


woah, such a great achievement, I don't usually hate someone.


Morning to everyone! (: at 10:15 AM

Goooooooooood Morning to all the creatures out there!!
I feel really happy today, I had a very weird dream last night! Omgosh! LOL!
I feel so sick. As in mentally sick! LOL! =X

Oh gosh, today is friday. This means that tomorrow is SAT. OH NO, I am working! ):
BLEH! So boring! =/ But then I need money like alot alot alot! LOL! SO, yes, I am NOT dreading to work! =) Surprising eh? HAHAHA!

Created a FB quiz yesterday! And I thought Best Friend will score like damn high! WTH! HE SCORED LIKE 50% only! And also SOME OTHERS should score like high tooooo! And all of them actually got 30% only k! HAHAHAH! Im talking abt A, C and F! HAHAHAHHAHA! But oh well, I admit my question all very !%&!(%&!#%&! HAHAHAHAH! HELLO PEOPLE, I prefer Econs in JC! If the qns was in sec sch, it would be maths! LOL! =)
Nevermind, it's for the fun of it! So... (:

And then, I still feel really proud that I score 50% for Leo's quiz! because so far Im still the highest! HAHAHAHAHA! Fair and square, I got 50% for his, he got 50% for mine! HAHAHAAHHA! This is how best friend works! We get the same score! HAHAHAAH! this means that we TRULY understand each other! HAHAHAHA! Okay, trying to crap my way! :P

Well, I think I still prefer Friendster. Much more simple and easy to use! Well, I am talking about the old version of Friendster. The new version, makes me !%!(%&#!%&!#%. So yea, make me PRO-FB.

I am on twitter too! (: Anyone here has twitter tooooo? (: It's really boring how i only follow tricia! HAHAHAH! And a random writer from NUS. Cos I think whatever he twitter is funny! And I don't know him. I was reading asiaone.com then yea, there was an article on it. So I followed him on Twitter! (:

Too much programme on the net! Too much things going around, making our lives so interesting and so hectic even though we are doing nothing! hahahahaha! It makes our lives busy! okay, so now, I am going to do a 100 truths because my dearest Kaien tag me! I didn't felt like doing, but since I am bored... might as well... (: YUPPPP! :D OKAY.



BLOG LATER!


Say It Again-Marie Digby at 7:27 PM

The thing about love 
Is I never saw it coming 
It kind of crept up 
And took me by surprise 
And now there’s a voice inside my heart 
That's got me wondering 
Is this true? I wanna hear it one more time

if you're happy and you know it clap your hand! :D at 2:38 PM

I woke up feeling really wrong! Bleh! But I am fine now.
Feel so unhealthy today! Cause I had mac for lunch! LOL!
Just because I want that pink glass! (((:
It's freaking pink in colour okay! Now I am happy because I have a pink glass! :P

人生就好是一步一步来！

no other meaning for me to type that chinese phrase.
Was just listening to 梁文福's 一步一步
so yea....

In life we have to take things slowly and step-by-step.
We shall never attempt to jump step or go the short cut.
Still remember when I was going one of my friend's house the other time and I wanted to cut through the blocks to get to his house. But as I walk by the blocks.. I ended up at some unknown places. I could have reach him in 5 mins yet i spent a good 20 mins trying to find my way.
Ever since then, I told myself not to talk short-cut anymore. (literally!)

Metaphorically, I think I am still taking short cuts in life. There are some things that I know I shouldn't rush or I should take a longer route, yet I choose the other. I rush through things and then I'm not sure if it's right. Yup.

Gonna leave this entry with this question.....

how do we know if we have made the correct decision??


just a lil more. at 12:26 AM

maybe, i just need a lil more.....


Tired! at 4:55 PM

Woke up at 9am today because I needed to go down to SIM.(deadline!)
Oh gosh, I don't feel like entering SIM anymore. Only me, A and Leo knows why! =X
Bleh! ):
But anyway, still went down to pay the first sem course fee and membership fee!
Went with Shirla, her bf and Jiawen!
It has been like 1000000000 yrs since I last say Jiawen! LOL!
Anyway, because morning I took a flu pill so was kinda drowsy and sleepy the whole journey!
After that me and J went to hg mall. The inital plan was to go catch a movie at cathay! However, we... missed the stop. Or rather we didn't even see SMU! urghhh! So in the end, we went to Hg mall straight! Cos that's where the bus terminates! BLEH!
Had our lunch(we could swallow a cow because we were so hungry!)
and then I went to library to find Sparks' book! YAY! found 2 so i borrowed them!
The notebook and At first sight! HEE! :D

After that left J and went to Marine Parade Popular to look for Kelvin.(okay, i don't know him. but i need to look for him to get my money! But.. my money is not here yet! BLEH! what the hell!) So yea, going back to the popular felt like home! Went to find those aunties at the assessment area! HEE! they still remember me okay! I am happy! :P
And Kelvin wasn't there yet! therefore, i went to look for Stephaine! SHE WAS PLAYING PET SOCIETY! OMGOSH! HAHAHAHAHAH! She is supposed to be working okay!
Oh man, I just miss working at popular! ):
And then went to find the besta guy! AND YES, he still remember me! (((:
He asked me how long i work. i said.... <10 days! LOL!!!! oops! =X
Found out that Kelvin also want to quit already! but not bad la! He worked for 2 months already! (: Anyway, quite sad! Didn't see Li Hui and Nikki!!!!!!! I miss Nikki like mad lehhh! ):
I need to go down another day to get my cheque! I hope that I can see Nikki! HEE! ((((:

So here I am blogging after vacuuming my house! (:
And I am indeed very tired today!
Gonna rest for a while and then read my book! After which I'll wait for A to go home so that I can talk to him!
That's all for now! ((:


I don't know what is happening again. But it seems like...... we aren't doing anything about it.


WHY? at 7:49 PM

just one word...
why?


I wonder... at 7:15 PM

I don't blame anyone of you...
I seriously don't. But it's inevitable that I will feel sad...
But who is there to listen me out and understand how I feel?
Simply, no one.


What am I suppose to do now?

It is at this stage which I feel that I am a burden. It is at this stage which I am lost all over again.
I don't know. Don't ask me about it. I just don't feel like talking. not to anyone.
A very messy feeling deep within me. And it's REALLY messy. I can laugh about it or joke about it. But now, it's the time when I CAN'T joke about it anymore and I don't think it's funny at all.
Yes, I am on the verge to scold some #@%*#(!*!# lang! ):


Is this world seriously that unfair?
Is this world......seriously so bias?


Is it really that important?
Sigh. ):



Sick and tired of crying about it.
But seriously, afterall... who is to be blame?
I guess, I shall take it all by myself.


at 6:25 PM

I CAUGHT A COLD! )))):

I might need to wear mask out already! Because of the H1N1 virus! I think everyone will be so scared to be near me! HAHAHAAH! =X I'm going out almost everyday! Tomorrow going SIM and perhaps out with Jiawen! And then Thurs out with FangHan again! LOL! =)
Bus fare oh bus fare, stop killing me! ): it HURTS! so much!

okay.
shall blog later.



!uoyssimi


always will be my pig. at 9:52 PM

I feel honoured. I feel blessed. I feel really glad.
But then, all these are making me really...
troubled, upset, messy yet at the same time.. delighted.


This doesn't make me unfaithful. -.-
People who know me will know that how important this person is to me.


I seriously hope to see you soon. ):
It has been long, though we still chat almost everyday! Either that or you will drop a message! (:
Oh well, I miss you.


I hope everything is fine at your side!
GET WELL SOOOOOOOON BOAR! :)


时间把习惯换了。。 at 3:34 PM

也撤销我再想你的资格..

It's gonna rain again. Both literally and metaphorically. =(
This is because I am trying to find out what 人质means! LOL!
I am like doing my preparation for Saturday! =X
HAHAHAHAHA! I need to get the feeling right!! HAHAHAHA!
I bet Chua must be doing nothing about her song!





Lazy. at 10:49 AM

I think I am just gonna stay at home today because I am very lazy to go out.
And I think because I slept really late the past few days and waking up early, I feel really tired.
So, I guess I will only go out tomorrow. (:

Oh well, so this means I am going to slack at home. Probably catch a lil more sleep or something.
I am kinda worried for SIM. Because I dont know what and how I am suppose to go about registering, getting bank loan and all. And I think, my parents don't really want me to go SIM. Oh gosh, just when I have decided what to do and what I want to study and my future, they actually disagree with me for going to SIM. I don't know, I just feel really sad about it. ):

Oh gosh, this saturday.... *trembles!*


blog again later, I am hungry.


(: at 1:06 AM

It's kinda weird how hearts can change! =(
No, not my heart change..!

I was just being my usual kpo self... and I was reading some people blog.
It seems like a few weeks ago.. A and B are together..
and then a few weeks later.. B and C got together.. something like that.
):
It's the anger that I felt when I read about it! =/
So weird. !@$*(!&!#%&!#%(!@

And yayyyy! I did something today and I am happy! HAHAHA! :D



k, it's late. i want to sleep.
wan an! :D


OH YES! :D at 6:57 PM

I have earn... (wait, let me count...)
$75 for 2 days! :D
and it's only 10 hours in total! Kinda easy job! And quite fun la!
Can like really talk casually with the person on the line! HAHAHAHA! :P
And it has been long since I wear my council jacket! (:
Today I have got 2 customers! ((:

I am still waiting PATIENTLY for my commission! OMGOSH! )))):
I want money la! Quick roll into my pocket! (:



I want to see you! ):
cos i miss you!

Maybe.. it's my fault. Just maybe!
I tried fried mars bar today! SO SWEET! CRAZY ONE LEH! LOL! =P
it tastes just like fried chocolate ice-cream! =)


Alright, I am feeling really lethargic now! Gonna rest for a while. (:
(before my family bugs me to play mj...!)


b,
I just want to tell you............... 86938654!! :D


Superrrr TIred at 9:56 AM

Omgosh! I am feeling super tired now! ):
but I need to go work in a few minutes! It's mother's day lehhhhh! then still got to work! =/
Tsktsk! And my eyes feel so "want to close!"
Yawwwwwnnnnnnn~
Must be because I slept too late last night! that's why.


Anyway, I am happy and I am sad.
Happy that something is no longer stopping us.
Sad that there is something i might need to change. Urgh! ):
Happy that I dreamt of you.
Sad that my mum woke me up when I was still dreaming! HAHAHAHAHA!
(Yawn!)


Sigh....
someone.... and this someone shouldn't tell me this..
he said...
"why want the 回忆 to stop there? let it continue la, maybe got better and nicer memories?"
Oh gosh, this someone needs to know that.. I can't. ):
soooooo.... I will still try my best...
就让回忆永远停在那里.....


CHUA, please do not feel sad!
I will text you soon! (:


okay, gonna blog again after work! For now, I need to change and stuff! TIRING. URGH. ):
Okay, bye! :D




boyfriend, i miss you.


yawn! at 1:19 AM

Yawn! (:
I am feeling a lil tired now! Need to wake up at 9 tomorrow also! =X
There's work tomorrow!
Yea, you didn't hear me saying it wrongly...
I HAVE GOT WORK! YES, FANGLIN IS WORKING! HAHAHAAHHA! :D
(I heard that Shimona and Carmella are joining too?!)
And that Chua Yi Wen, not sure if she still wants to work la! =)
I am happy because the first day of work I managed to get 1 customer! yayyy! :D
Shirla must be cursing me now! HAHHAHAH! Don't worry! you are better in talking! =)


Met B after work! Been so long since I last saw him! )))):
Saw Vonny! =X! HAHAHAAHHA!
Watched Horsemen.. I think it's not bad a show la! Just that I don't really know the whole movie la! So luan! HAHAHAHAHA!
Not the movie that matters anyway! ((:
(but once again, I didn't do what I want to do! hmmm..)


I think gonna go library tomorrow to get more nicholas sparks' books! (:
Not sure if i want though, kinda lazy!



i miss you, and your hug. ):


Nicholas Sparks! at 11:39 PM

Okay, I found something interesting to do for the rest of my very-long-holiday! :D
I have like 3 months left for me to slack! So, I have decided to read Nicholas Sparks' Novels! :D
That explains the column at the left! I hope to finish the rest of his books by end of 3 months! MAYBE possible! Don't look down on me! HAHAHAHAHA! :D

I think I need to go library almost everyday to find all those books already!
And I have learnt not to be ambitious! I should just borrow one book at a time!
(yes, FangLin is very poor, she can't afford to buy those books! although I have A walk to remember! HAHAHA!)
MAYBE, I can go 2nd hand book store to see if it's cheap! =)

I have 12 books to complete in 3 months! CAN ONE LA! HAHAHAAHHA! 4 books in a month is like... 1 book per week! Can Can! (: In life, we must press on and persevere! :D I HOPE I AM ABLE TO DO IT LA! But this doesnt means that I am going to put my piano, econs, maths, singing aside! And of course, my weekend job.. which I am not sure if it starts tomorrow! =X
I was thinking... I work... 10 hours per week! this means.. $60/week! 4 weeks... $240! NOT THAT BAD LA AH! I CAN SURVIVE! HAHAHAHAHA! =X and this is just basic pay!
although, I am not hoping much for commission la! HAHAHAH! but oh well, kinda slack I think! =X I shall not grumble! =)


and omgoshhhh, 16th may is coming soon. I feel so scaredddd! =X
Yvonne said: aiya... lesser than the no. of people in school when we make morning announcement.
I said: YA RIGHT. but morning annoucement, we have got a book and a teacher standing behind us!
I need to go sportlinks and find balls! HAHAHAHAHA!



yes, you are finally home! :D


feeling really !@$*!(@$* at 11:23 PM

今天心情不太好。
我也不晓得为什么!

It's like... as if when you touch me a lil... I will explode kind of feeling!
So, better say correct things.. If not, i will just !@$&(!#$&!#$

I was thinking really hard.
Why did I not get like ACC! It will make life so much easier! Or.. BBC! OMGOSH LA! ):
now everything is so messy! Part of me really wants UOL. but......URGH! ):
I don't really know what to do! =X
(shucks, not again!)


Officially !@$*!(@$*! at 10:38 PM

I feel really pissed with the connection tonight.
Not sure why it is LOADING LIKE FREAKING SLOW after I watch my slow.
What the hell.
Can't even log on to msn.


))))): at 7:57 PM

I cried because of a book!
This happens usually, the books I read are always... so.... saddening or touching.
Done with another Nicholas Sparks' novel!
But, this is a book which I shouldn't have read it now. It makes me.. more and more and more... and REALLY MORE confused. ):


I am not sure if it's fair for you. Sigh.
I seems to sigh more than often nowadays! ):

Oh gosh, FangLin... stop thinking! stop thinking! stop thinking! ):



I feel really guilty today.
REALLY.


Late night. Early day. at 5:54 PM

I slept really late last night. About 3AM??
Just couldn't fall to sleep for some weird reasons! Or is it... because.... ):
Anyway, I felt really too lazy to climb out of bed today morning to go SIM!
And it was raining, so shiok la the weather! So i decided not to go SIM and then slack on my bed more! =X

After that went to meet Chua to sing at TopOne. (:
OKAYYY.. here comes my ren zhi on 16th may okay! So exciting! =X There will be many many people and I will be so so scared! Omgosh! =X Okay, hee! shall take it as a new experience or smth like that la! :D
My throat seems really dry despite the amount of water I drink and the amount of honey lemon I had! ): BLEH!

I emo-ed in the room today. Because many people came into my mind out of a sudden! ):
and more and more...
Like when i sang 冲动... i thought of....
when i sang 当你... i thought of.....
but of course when i sang my 两只恋人.. i thought of ^^

Oh well, Such a sad day!
I thought I could see A. But he's the busy man! Heee! hope he is doing fine! :D
Anyway, I scared tomorrow cannot see him because got training! And the instruction is so not clear! Like.. is it from 12-5 or 12-1++? urghhh! If it's till 5 then i meet him for a while onlyyy! Eeeek! =( but, okay la.. at least got meet! Die la, when I start school, I don't even know if there's anytime left for us! ):

Last night was so confusing! I need to thank Leo for coming online to talk to me! (:
Thank you for putting your games down and go online k! ((((:
Yes, after talking to him, yvonne and A, I've decided what I want to do...
If by next week, NIE decided not to give me a chance for interview, I would just go UOL.
Probably switch course if it's possible to econs&finance or econs&management!
But well, see how!
Kelly told me: believe in miracles! Still got one more week! Don't give up hope!
Okay Kelly, I will! :D

I feel so tired now! ):
Yawn~


I change my goal in life. at 10:12 PM

LOL.
I am in a deeeeeeep trouble!
But, all I can think of now is........
to marry a rich man! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
I think, I am.. crazy.


Oh yayyy! at 7:54 PM

yayyy! I am happy because cookies was a success! :D
This is the DOUGH! (: Choc Chips with Almond!

That's the dough on the tray before we make it into smaller pieces.
DONE! This is before putting in the oven to bake! :D
OMGOSH! :D Looooook SO NICE RIGHT! OMGOSHHHHH! (:

And we have MANY MANY COOKIES :D!
Oh yayyy! Leo is so nice la! He text me and ask if Cookie monster was doing alright! Hahaha! (:
Oh yayy! It's a success! :D Happy Happy k! (: I did not make cookie CRUMBS ONLY! BLEH! =)
And happy happy! I got another $10! HEE! (but currently owe my mum $40 due to oversea sms! BLEHHH!)

I swear bus fare is killing me! It's literally cutting my throat! SIM talk tomorrow! Not sure if I am going down. 50%! If I can't wake up! I wouldn't go! =/ And I think.... I might not be able to wake up! Ohhhh, btw..... Show you guys photo of Khai's sister! Soooooo cute!
She is just so cute! :D Can't believe the 16 yrs different! LOL (:

Okayyy, I can't wait to have my own babies!(okay, so wrong!) HAHAHAHA! :D
Babies are cute! HEE!


I know I am wrong... I shall learn to be a lil more understanding, a lil more patient. (:




Bestfriend just don't know that he managed to make me smile again.


Not sure. But I bother at 12:41 PM

No one is sure of their future.
Seriously, every night before I sleep, I would have the thought of...
"what if I can't wake up the next morning?"
My point is, we should cherish every minute we have. (:



Oh yayyyy!
I think.. I finally found a way for LEO! :D HEEEEE!
there is like 30% that we may still be in the same sch for yr 2!
*cross finger! hopehopehope!*
like I say, I am not yet ready for my bestfriend to leave me! NOT TO OTHER COUNTRIES!
URGHHHHH! :P

okay, I need to bath. If not.. sure LATE! :D


awful. at 8:22 PM

I feel even more awful now. When I took the job, I felt a lil down.
Now, I feel much more down. ):
I really think that it's a wrong move!
I feel so heartache. =(


today seems like a bad day.


Different kinds of hurt. at 6:48 PM

There are different kinds of hurt that one can feel.
The hurt you feel from family, friends or even the one that you love.(well, obviously you love all of them.)

But anyway.... right now.. I am feeling very disappointed? Or sad? Or even pissed?
I am not sure which one is the one that I should feel.. or should I just feel nothing about it?
Then again, I just feel awful deep down inside.
Because, she is someone respectable... if not you would have seen me typing something which isn't me! Back to the point, I seriously hate it when someone just pms with me! Get a life.

Although true, i would want to stay as a kid forever in your eyes, but don't view me as one.
I am not some kid anymore. I can think on my own. And stop saying that I am useless.
And... I still remember THAT day when you said you want to give up on me... which made me run away from home. Here I am trying so hard to be perfect in your eyes, there you are.... hitting me down everytime. Times and times I just feel so hurt because of you. Yet, how do you want me to complain? Because, I love your imperfections as well. Because I choose to think that you care. But, if you care.... stop saying things that you obviously know will hurt me! ):
True, there are times when I feel that life is so unfair. Why aren't you guys more well-off? But often, I just brush those thoughts away... because I still know that I am already better off than some others. You told me not to blame you for this, I said.. it's okay because I love you.
But, you always make me feel so worthless, so unwanted in this world. Sigh. ):
I just want you to know that... afterall, I still love you.


I will still love you no matter what, because you.. are important to me. And no one else can EVER replace you in my heart. That's for sure. (:


JOB! at 6:06 PM

Today, I did not play the role of God! LOL! I ate my breakfast and my lunch! And I am waiting for my dinner! (:
There's 2 reasons for me to eat my proper meals! (:
1) I hate gastric! It hurts like there's no tomorrow! And the problem is.. it gets more and more painful each time I feel it. weird huh?
2) Hmmm....... ^^


Anyway, I think I've gotten a job already. But I feel kinda sad about it?
Because.. it's a weekend job. =( Yes, you see the word weekend! And I don't favour it actually.. but the pay and commissions is good. ): Not that i prefer money to someone, but....... without money I can't go out! make sense? Okay, it's a 12pm-5pm thing! So....... I THINK.. i still can go out after that right? Still, feeling this sadness somehow. ):
Not sure If Chua is gonna work with me, but I'm going down with Shirla! (:
(my mum said that I am not independent.. everything also need to do with someone! I'm not sure if it's true.... but up till now.. it's kinda true! oops!)
So, there goes my weekend! Weekdays I'm still kinda free to do whatever I want! :D
Guess one day I should just go and surprise him!


After a long day out... I feel so tired now! I'm gonna rest a bit and then will be back soon! :D
Ciao~



Affairs of the heart.... complicated.


Morning! :D at 10:54 AM

Good morning! (:
Me and Chua suppose to go swim at 10Am! but I just woke up not long ago! Like 10 mins ago? LOL! And I am still on my bed actually. =/ Damn lazy to climb up yet! =X
Later probably gonna go for an interview, and then not sure if we are still gonna swim!

Anyway, I woke up feeling so hot. Not sure if I am down with fever or anything. =/
Sigh! I don't want to fall sick again! @#%*#)%!&


I feel kinda confused now. ): I mean, because if it's not from the bottom of my heart, I will not send it. But if I don't send it, it seems like I don't bother. I mean, what's the point if there isn't any meaning to it? Right? ): [ps: b, this has nothing to do with you!]
What am I suppose to do? Urgh! =X

Marriage is such a happy thing! I like to see weddings! Like to attend weddings! Lol! It gives a sweet feeling. But....
结婚并不表示你很幸福。
Nowadays, as much as the marriage rate is going up, the divorce rate are going up too! =(
[note: I am typing this because I am bored. nothing more to it!]
Divorce rate.. getting higher is it because of the freedom of choice? Is it because the society is getting so busy that one doesn't have time for themselves? It's kinda bullshit when people say.. "oh, i just don't feel for him anymore." Like woah, you marry each other because you are really in love with each other right? And if you guys are getting married, it also means that you already know how "evil", "bad" or whatever negative points about each other. So, why can one suddenly say... "i just can't live with him anymore." or "I don't love him anymore?" So, does this means.. it's because of the society? It seems easy to get that paper for divorce. And nowadays, everyone look at divorce in such an easy way. It's starting to be like a norm thing.
Hmm, marriage... Such a complicated thing nowadays!


Omgosh, I didn felt like myself typing the above! HAHAHA! =X

I've been visiting stomp often nowadays! And sometimes there are really interesting things. But, most of the time, what I see is.. "eating on bus/mrt" or "students kissing in uniform". These 2 topics usually make me pissed! We all know that it is NOT RIGHT to eat in the bus or mrt station. Almost ALL SINGAPOREAN know it.. but when one does it, this also means that there odd to be a good reason behind it! (okay, seriously, am i naive to think this way?!) But anyway, when someone see this, they SHOULD NOT snap a photo and stomp it! Shouldn't they politely tell the person that it's wrong and BLAH BLAH BLAH? Not as if like you stomp about it, and it's gonna stop right?? At least when you tell the person, they would be like.. "okay, sorry... blahblahblah"

And about students:
True. Students should not show public affection. Especially when they are in their uniform. It's like smoking in their school uniform. ( which I feel that it's really disgusting! First, you are underage! And next, you are tarnishing your school reputation! ) But, afterall they are students! After a long day at school, they odd to have their freedom. True that P.A is wrong! but, people SHOULD NOT snap a photo! I feel that it actually the matter worst! And like the above, I don't think there is any effect! Well, of course everyone now will think twice of doing anything stupid when they are out. But, I still think that snapping a photo and putting up on stomp... isn't the right way to do it. It's like.. when a teacher see a student cheat, he/she take a photo and put on stomp.. NO RIGHT? you just confront the person straight? yea. Some logic! Okay, I think.... it's just me thinking this way! HAHAHAHA!


Okay, I want to go bath already! And sister lappy is running low batt! :D
blog later!


you asked if I miss you,
of course I do, silly boy! :P


happyyyy... at 9:59 PM

okay, right now.. my stomach is kinda weird. =X but, it's getting better I think!
Anyway, it was funny just now! I was going to mrt to take train to dhoby to meet Chua.
And then, I happen to see Khai when we were actually sms-ing each other.. so we burst out laughing! Wahahaha! :P


Basketball with Chua today. And also my time crisis alone! (:
I am getting better with time crisis okay! WAHAHAH! Happy with myself!
Btw, with some help with yvonne, my new highest score for bball is 234! The other time was 209!
YAY YAY! bball never fails to bring back my mood! ((:
08/03/09

TODAY!!

After that went to walk ps. =/ kinda boring! LOL! Spot light, daiso.... blah blah blah.. then head back to Yvonne's house! Watch-ed Fated to Love(LIKE AGAIN! simply love my ji cun xi and chen xin yi!) Dinner at her house! (: Oh, and thank you Brother Chua for peeling prawns for me too! Because I was to lazy! ooops~ :P and thank you for Mama Chua for the dinner! :D

OH.
I HAVE TO GIVE THE BIGGEST THANKS CHUA YI WEN YVONNE! :D
Thank you for buying the thing that you OBVIOUSLY know I wouldn't like it!
BUT, Since you got it... I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LOVE IT OKAY! THANK YOU!
It's my shade of pink! & It's from you! SO.... I LOVE IT! :D
AND I LOVE YOU TO THE MAX TOO! :D dont say i zsqy!@$!@$!@$*!(%*!




YOU!

i'll love this view of ECP because of you! ((:
I've probably gave you a shock this morning. But yea, I wouldn't do it anymore and neither will I remember this incident! (: Please do the same too ya?
AH! Everyday, I just long to see you! =( and you know what! I think.. I may start to like long bus ride? :P okayyyy, i love you!



I'm gonna go out again tomorrow! Clarke Quay for job interview? Swim? Not sure! WHERE IS CHUA YI WEN!!!!!! Oh, I'm gonna bring my new bag out. OH GOSH... Tote bag is NEVER me! I think NARDO or ANYONE will just laugh if he sees me carrying tote bag! LOL!


Alright!
I'm gonna talk to my important person now! :D
ciao~


Urm.. at 2:29 PM

Okay, I am suppose to go Airport, but I was tooooo lazy!
but now, I'm gonna go out to play basketball.. as in arcade. (:
(waste money.. I know.. but I just feel like playing! OH! I GOT MY SAVINGS! :D hahahahaha! :P)
Although not alot, but got like maybe 5?

ANYWAY, i need to go now!
Cause I can't let my bitch wait for me for too long!

ciao~


你的承诺 at 11:57 AM

对不起。抱歉！
今早是我的错。。 女人吗。。。 常常都是这样！
所以。。请你原谅我的固执，我的情绪，我的小脾气。



ni de cheng nuo-me.mp3 - me!

that's my rendition of 你的承诺! (:
May not be the nicest you have heard, but you know what.... I also dont know what I want to say la! =/


Alright, to this certain someone.
I'm really sorry for whatever happen today morning. Yup. Sorry.
Nothing else for me to explain. Just take my apology will you? (:


Best friend went to swim already! 100 laps, he better don't die! If not I will be so bored at home everyday! BLEH! =P Please Please Nus, Please accept him! So that I can see him for another 4 yrs or so! and most importantly, he will give me something that hasn't give to anyone before! HAHAHHAHA! =D okay, sounds a lil wrong. but don't think it that way!

And btw, It's cool. Right after I sms Yvonne, I received her sms! This shows that we're really twins! HAHAHA! (: Because we sms at the same time! =) And, there's really lots of weird thing happening today! Rina sms-ed me something which gave me a shock of my life! Because it's so true. Oh well... =/

Okay, I think I'm gonna bath now and go Airport already.



I think, today it's gonna be hard for me! =(


make sense or not? at 9:42 AM

I don't know what I am thinking or what I am expecting seriously! ):
I always like to think that it's me. SO.. oh well, I should do some reflecting soon.



Oh well, Sigh. Shall not blame anyone or whatever! Shall just live with it. If it's this way, then so be it. =X Much disappointment.

And Oh Gosh, Early morning(I mean now!) I go and watch the 你的承诺 MV! It's uber saddening! ): Like SERIOUSLY! At first it shows how this guy watch the girl he likes get married and then... she got into a car accident with her just-married husband.(like on the wedding that day!) she was stuck in the car! The husband manage to get out of the car! And then... when the ambulance came, they took him away and left the girl in the car.. So that first guy.... run to her rescue... and she died in his arm... (she probably also feel for this guy I think!) And then... the whole thing explode! Yea, such a sad story.. EARLY IN THE MORNING! ):


sigh.


Pitch of darkness. at 10:44 PM

Tadah, it's the night again! Such a nice weather!
It feels cooling tonight, not those humid weather! (:
Still, as long as it's the night.. i usually emo together with Mr Nardo! =/

And, omgosh! I was looking through facebook and and and...
ETHEL.. the girl who i know from orientation... she was in my pegasus 2! She is one of Ms Universe Singapore 2009 finalists! OMGOSH! Normal girls would be still studying( I mean, she is studying.. but she is doing something extra! ) but yea, whatever it is... woah! outstanding! ((:
This is what I call.. achieving SOMETHING. LOL!


Tomorrow is Tuesday. Nothing much going on either. Well, there maybe some things on my mind, but I guess I rather keep my mouth shut! Hmmm, when you decide to say something about me.. thinking about yourself first.


Feel like going to the airport for some weird reasons. So, I think I will give airport a visit tomorrow! Since I am so free! ((: First, because it's aircon! Second, because it's really clean! Third, I have nothing much to do! Fourth, I miss bestfriend. 5th, I like to see planes! (:
6th, I just want to forget about some stuffs.. (or maybe, Im just trying to find some reason to be alone. nono, actually I AM LONELY WITHOUT CHUA! HAHHAH!)

Tonight, even though no one wants to admit.. but I think.. Chua, Nardo are also as emo as me! Stop denying the both of you!
Chua, I know what you are gonna emo about okay! You just dont want me to type here! If not there would be some really huge war between you know who! And i have not seen you ever since like sr olympics that day! OMGOSH LA! I hope wednesday come fast! (:
Nardo, i really hope uni matters isnt making you uneasy and not happy! Because I seriously hate to see you so lost, upset.. ): Oh well, best of all, I don't know what to say to cheer you up! =/
And lastly, I will not forget one more person who I have not mention for VERY long...
BOB!!! I hope that you are fine. Don't feel so upset. Even though you may say that you are fine, I know that you are not! You just sound so down la! Oh well, everything will be fine eventually okay? don't think so much! :D


When I am feeling down, i like the sound of nature! I like the sound of piano. So here I am listening to some piano pieces! Woah, seems so no life right? hahahaha! (: They are good music okay! without music, I think I would be SERIOUSLY DEAD BORED! gosh!


I was watching channel U just now and I switch over to channel 8 and i saw andie chen bang jun! ANDDDD... i miss cyz so much more! But what can I do? =/ Oh well!


okay, Im gonna blog again tomorrow already i guess.
SMILE.




I don't know if I am the right one for you. But I am doing my best to be your right one.


this is what it is ALL ABOUT. at 6:27 PM

Did not follow my plan at all. LOL!
Because, I was being such a nice friend to help LEO NARDO fill up SIM form! but in the end, he... is considered as international students! URGHHHHH! And application date closed for him! URGHHHH! This means that...... he can't be in singapore anymore if he is not accepted in NUS!
URGHHHHH! ):

Love

• Love means to have strong feelings for someone that can be close friends, family or even someone in a romantic relationship. Love is a strong feeling that represents affection toward someone dear to you heart.
  Being in love usually is used in a romantic sense when you meet your significant other transforming a normal relationship into a deeper one without further interest in others.
  Love means that you trust the person, would do anything for the person, know that person is with you through thick and thin, isn't afraid to be seen with you. make sure they treat you right.
  
• there is no true meaning in love. love with meaning is not love.
• The true meaning of love is found in the word "unconditional". Loving someone through their flaws and all. Accepting and embracing each others differences and compromising with their offerings.

I like the last point! (:



b,
it's okay if we aren't talking much during the weekdays. I'm fine with just a msg coming in every 3-4hours! I know that you are busy with your work! (: Well, we can do our catching up during the weekend right? Can't wait to see you again cos I simply miss you lots! :D
you take care of yourself alright? (: don't get too stress out! I know the working life kinda sucks somehow! :D hee! Miss you!

:D at 1:47 PM

okay, I am being a very guai girl today.
Went down to buy breakfast! And now, here I am slacking again!
but then, I'm gonna bath at 2 and start to study my econs again! :D
And probably finish my Dear John.


Whatever I am doing, I miss cyz!


okayyyy.... I am gonna bath now! :D


Monday morning! A new week. at 10:33 AM

A new week has just started! And there is another public holiday this coming weekend! It's kinda redundant to have a public holiday on weekend!!! It's just like any other normal weekend! But oh well.... at least my daddy can get the day off from work! :D

Yesterday REEVE THE HOT send me a song... tsk tsk! It's a sad song! )):
And I have been listening to it since like the moment I got it in my mp3. This means that when I am typing this, I am still listening to it! ): 你的承诺。go and google the song or something. Yup. (:
I think Reeve must be heartbroken or something! LOL!!!!! Somemore the person singing sounds so sad. And then............ being the emotional me.. you know what happen next lo! =X
我走以后你要好好生活，不要想我也别再哭了。。。
it's just song lyrics. Nothing much! =D I AM NOT SAD! LOL!
not at this period of time! I just can't measure how happy I am. LOL.


Look at the meh meh! So cute! hahahha! I love animals! :D Okay, photos credit to LEONARDO! :D

And I think duck just look so pure and innocent! Plus the fact that it's white! :D


I am hungryyyy! ):
I want foooooood! ):

And morning rain!!! #%&(#%&!(%&(!#&%! spoil my plan for me to run! @#%@(%&!#%&!
nevermind! later in the evening then! :D

shall blog later! (:


safety net... at 12:03 AM

Just like how swine flu isn't in singapore and everyone is taking their precaution..
I got it.


Here I am AGAIN. at 10:03 PM

Here I am AGAIN!
Am I asking for too much?
Shucks, I am a teenager.

Is it wrong for me to keep thinking about it?
Is it wrong for me to want to see everyday?
Is it wrong to have the urge to text and know what is going on?

I've been refraining myself. (should I even refrain myself?)
Oh gosh, what have I got myself into?
A well that seems so deep. Well, I don't really mind being in there....
but what if.... just WHAT IF... one day... I still need to climb out of there?


Chua told me...
There is no U-turn.


perfectly elastic and inelastic! at 8:13 PM

I know what I should do nowadays already!!
Since I am pro-UOL already, it's time I brush up my economics! (:
And shall not let TTH down! shall excel in economics! (((((: Thus, it's time that I start to study!
One of 2009 resolutions is to study hard!


After searching for some things, I lost the urge to blog! HAHAHA! :D
blog later.