Please tell me you will remember
No matter how much I do wrong
That I had the best of intentions all along




Best of intentions from the start. 
Sad.

Hi (:
My name is FANGLIN and I rawkz!
Twenty-one candles on the 26th June '11. I ♥ Singing, Laughing, and Stoning.

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back to norm. at 11:02 AM

I think everything is back to norm! So, I guess I am gonna start blogging all over again. (:
But I really hope I wouldn't bring any unhappiness. -.-

k, shall blog after my singing session later! but i think......................................
i have no voice to sing.




clubbing was ^^! (:


bye. at 10:46 AM

我等 等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候 比较真
太多疑问 知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人
心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺


I am not gonna blog anymore.
The thunderstorm right outside.......... seems to be the same as how much my heart feels like tearing. Because it crack last night, not a small crack.. but a big one.
I stared in the sky the entire night and replay everything, and I cried so much...... but does it all matters anymore? ah, why am I such a crybaby.
Tired of... not just anything.. my whole LIFE.

if I can, I would want to end it.



both.. at 1:21 AM

I am crying inside and outside.....


It hurts. so much.


I....... at 12:59 AM

at this late night, I know I am get sleepless for the next f-ing few nights.
because... I am feeling really hurt.




I can't complain when.....................






ah, fuck it.


damnnn tired. at 8:55 AM

Good morning world! (:

I am damn tired yet I am going out now! BLEH!



okay, outing with Esprimere! <3


Fanglin thinks that she's a bi. at 1:13 AM

Sometimes, I think girls understand each other more.
Just like how guys will think that they understand each other better!
To girls, guys are weird. and same goes for guys.

I have many things to sigh, at this point of time.
But some are really not convenient for me to say it out. Nevermind, keep it to myself.
I suddenly got the craving for weird food. Oh yes, there I go again. (emotional)
GOOD, tomorrow I can sing emo songs with better feeeeelings!! (:


Actually, I do need to go sleep soon! Meeting @ 10AM tomorrow!! I can't be late! cannot give people bad impression okay? LOL!!! =X








I miss you yet...............


HAPPY. SAD. HAPPY. SAD. at 2:31 PM

What a title, I know. Because I don't have any better title!
But then again, it just shows how emotional I am. I can be happy this minute but not happy the next. Lol, I am not weird... I just know how to express myself.. urm.. well? HAHA! (:

Ice age is a nice and funny show! (: And the 3D effect is REALLY REALLY damn cool! Although it makes me headache for that few moments, I love the effect! It's like COMING TOWARDS YOU! HAHAHA! (:

Dinner with Bob and Yvonne on Fri was GREAT! (: HEEEE, It was so long since we last saw BOB la! URGHHH! okay, it was long since I saw yvonne too actually! (: LOL! Anyway, we ordered a lot and we ate like.... as if we ate babies! =X SERIOUSLY, LOTS! LIKE A LOT. My mushroom(hehe!!), prawn fritters, salad, 3 mains, banana SPLIT! And the main sides were cold, so they came with new one! AND.. omgoshhh, this means we have LOTS of sides! =X LOL! But of cos we didnt eat the cold one la. Hee! After that we headed to starbucks! My 2nd trip to starbucks on friday. Cos i went in the afternoon too! The drinks were just TOO SWEET. eeeeeew~
Waited for Bob's mum to reached singapore because very long never see her already! After that, then we went homeeee!

And then, guess what.... I didn't sleep till like 4am? Right, from the moment I am home till about 3am, was discussing about songs and dueting and performing.. SO... in the end.... decided! Don't be shock! I know I used to not have balls(i meant... guts) HAHAHA! sound so crude! =X
So.. I have like really lots of performance!

1) 小酒窝 with Justin
2) way back into love with Titus.
3) 原点 with Diana
4) 第一天 with Adele, Diana
5) 屋顶 with Jason.
6) 你最珍贵 with Bosssss Tee Yien.

HAHA! you didn't see wrongly. I HAVE 6 songs coming up for me to practice already! WOOOOT! it's from 22-26 Sept 2009. 12pm-2pm. Will let you guys know the time slot again! (:

Tomorrow got KTV session with esprimere!! (((: So exciting..... when everyone who can sing get together............. It will be fun fun fun! :P Okay, I can't wait! (:


To Chua yi wen,
I hope you are alright. You made me so worried last night. ):


movieeee! at 4:36 PM

Gonna watch ice age 3: 3D later at Tampines! (:

I am not sure if the 3D effect will make me headache or not! LOL! =)




but for now, i need to vacuum first! URGH. kk.


lots of different feelings. at 5:15 PM

Suddenly, I lost faith in love.

Not that I am out of love, but I just don't know what strikes me. Though I have got a guy who loves me so much, I am not sure about it. Yes, I am saying this out in my blog. I feel shaky. It's about myself. I am not sure what am I getting myself into. Everything just seems so unreal, so vague. Not sure what's gonna happen next. Maybe, I am just hoping for an impossible? Or maybe, I know what's wrong.. yet I am not brave enough to face the truth. Where's my courage? It was long gone... I am seeking for courage.... more importantly, seeking courage to love. I'm not desperate to love, just that... I feel that it's unfair.. that I can't return as much love back. I know, he's not gonna mind.. but I mind.


What had happen to make me feel this way? I really don't know. It's much like... I woke up one day... and then suddenly I don't remember who are my friends. I think I feel so emotional now. Perhaps I am. *go one corner and emo*


I'm gonna start school very soon. Life is gonna get so busy and hectic. Perhaps, it's a good thing. I don't have time to think, don't have time to reflect on myself. Even if I am doing smth wrong, just let me do it wrong all the way. (well, i am not talking about studies. I meant all the rest of the things.)

Life seems so unfair. First I want to get into NIE, yet I wasn't given the chance and till now, I am still not sure why!? Yes, I was so pissed with MOE. But what can I do? Make a big fuss about it? Forget it, maybe there is just another route out there! More successful than being in NIE. THERE MUST BE ONE. And of cos, here I am.. I chose to study in SIM-University of London. And here I am... choosing a CCA that I love. Where I can find fellow people who loves the same interest. Singing. Singing pop songs to be more exact. Yes, I never had the balls to perform.(well, minus the council dance.) So here I am, giving myself a chance to let others know me. It maybe a small step forward, but I know... it's a big step to myself. I cross my barriers, I am moving forward.


From August onwards, everything will be so different. I may not be together with JC clique anymore. I may have new friends coming along. I may have more work, more outings, more ktv session. No time for you... no time for family, no time for other things.. But I am just speculating. Things may still go on smoothly, but the word here is.. "may".


Why is all this happening? ): I feel so tired in my life. Yet I can't wait for school to start.


blog later.


woooooooot~ at 9:32 AM

Just as 武汉 turns bright....
铜陵 turns dark! -9:29AM
天荒坪 has also turn dark! -9:34 (omgosh, IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL....! you can see the circumference with light! OMGOSH. WAH, BEST BEST!!! it's like a pearl!)

It's seriously beautiful. LOL.


at 9:26 AM

武汉 is also dark already! -9:23AM

omgosh, I am so happy k! I love to see that the moon slowly devour the sun..... (((((((((:


LOL. Total Solar Eclipse at 8:40 AM

I can't believe I woke up just to watch the total solar eclipse! LOL!

So sad, Singapore can't watch! This means, I can't watch with my naked eyes in my lifetime! ): Next time probably! SIGH! ): How I wish I am in China now! BOooooo Hoooooo!
Okay, so exciting! I want to see the moon devour the sun! LOL!
Uncle Batman supposed to wake up and watch also, but he must be sleeping stilll~~~
(ooops, nope. he went to save the world from darkness. so if we don't get to see that beautiful scene later, it's bcos he saved the world! LOL!!!!)


But you know what, my area already very dark le! LOL!!!!! Because it is raining! LOL! K, very lame. I am very hungryyyyyyy~



Sunday KTV session with Esprimere! ((((((((:


I really can't believe that I have got a CCA already by the way! HAHAHAHA! And they are fun and cool people! We actually talk about music and talk about each other voices on msn! Never did this before! hahahahaha! We actually discuss about how to sing and all! Hahahaha! interesting huh? LOL! =)


Okay, now at 9.14...
Singapore is bright!
China is black(dark!)

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Exciting la! woooooot~


understand.care. at 7:05 PM

you understand?
you care?



原来真正的去爱。。。会让你心碎


at 11:00 AM

Please tell me you will remember
No matter how much I do wrong
That I had the best of intentions all along




Best of intentions from the start. 
Sad.

should I blog about zoo or camp? LOL! at 4:07 PM

I am definitely very lazy to blog now! So I don't know which to blog about!

okay, fine.. a summary of both then, but as for pictures, please kindly go to FB k! (:



Thursday: A trip to the zoo with OG12. (:

We felt a lil bit too old for the zoo but we still went because we have lost touch with the animals in the zoo! And guess what, when we see the animals, we turn to be like a 3-4 yrs old kid! We went to watch animal shows like the elephant shows! And we walk ard, going into kids world to see rabbits, horse and many other more animals. (: White tiger was cool, we didn't get to see lion, but we saw the mane. ): And then we only caught polar bear at the very last min and then it was entering it's air-con place! ):

After that we went to Lot1 for dinner. (: follow by arcade and then home! Then I needed to pack for my CAMP! (((((:

okay some pics: (very lazy want to arrange..)



















As for camp!
It's really worth the $30! (((:
For a Shirt + the food + lodging! (((:
3 cheers to exco for planning!!!!
we had buffet for dinner, next morning breakfast, lunch and dinner we had BBQ!

It just got a lil boring when there's too much break, if not the games were fun! Treasure hunt was crazyyyy! Competition was so strong! WOOOOOOT~ <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7ergh1YRWTgouZ1VkQydPyM2PwaocWmnHFf9Iiuo2CNBQzL0JT6DFXToaXAu2UZIDu4Umf3p3TKKL1ZRGNauUYYXlzrCwvNSSCqv9_79682kehzQEhjK3jP5cfabLfiAEzkXZ1Gc_jXE/s1600-h/31.jpg">SO NICE!!!!! <3333 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhB6aMGZ91Zk2jv9SObf0PzlxagIndDkI_b-_VterPSRvrddtJWokY5otIwFjttUAAjQf5qCOI1MjLfRCVuVRwyf6avEWgFQrcLo7BQVoHQypdfp-drT0ES_K0BrsJinAO-3wWhl-m0hk4/s1600-h/21.jpg">that's quack on the last day without me and zi qi! So, Jeff tag me as the duck after i complain that so sad i am not in the pic! -.-

More pics:

Me and Shi Hui.


The guys:

Camwhore! LOL!

SO NICE RIGHT!

The place where we stay!

The girls!

okay, my HOUSE ALREADY! i lay everything out nice nice!

at night! bath finish, hair damn nice! that's justin(twisting) and you see junhong standing! Tee Yien aka tian sitting, and there's me.

POKER in 03-11.

he's singing i think! (:

hahahaha! how i wish I could say he's mine! hahahaahha! joking! :P
Jason the Jay chou! :D

Kenny in airforce shirt. Titus in Red. Joo koo in yellow!

Justin and Tee Yien.

Tee Yien, STOP showing me your cards! i'm gonna lose!! LOL.

Candice + Zi qi.

Diana + me!


That's JEFF! he's fierce! LOL! joking la!

Just look at Jay chou! isn't he COOL?
QUACK'S OGL! :D

that's me in flour! yuckkk!

quack finding one another saying quackkkk quackkkkk! Can you believe it? I pulled justin with me but then justin walk away saying.. "how can you pull me?" He thought was the seniors playing on him.

The east siders! :D

According to height? i think!
TWIST!

AND FINALLY, I HEARD THAT... SHITMAN had to eat kayabun+wasabi! HAHAHAHA!
oooooopsy! i didn't get to see it! ):

okay, that's all about my camp! and my zoo!

I am waiting for pictures from sock for the sun one! :D Shall blog again! (:


p/s: should be performing with Justin soon! (for art festival!) exciting exciting!
xiao jiu wo! (((((:


Back from camppp! at 12:08 AM

Hello, I am back from Esprimere camp! yayyyyy! :D
Fun bunch of people, fun team, fun fun fun! (:

Shall update more when I am not so sleepy, probably like... monday? (:
(tomorrow, will be going out too! LOL!)


"说好的幸福呢" 变成一首快乐的歌！




im probably gonna sleep now!
nights!


byeee! ): at 8:11 AM

Off to camp feeling sad! ):


Shall upload pictures when I'm back.





I am really sorry. ):


I think I am getting better.... at 8:25 PM

There isn't any fever now anymore(but that is because I took my medicine on time!)
There isn't any sore throat anymore.(that is because I keep drinking water!)

I am not sure if it will all come back tomorrow! It better don't! Cos I need to go ZOO with my OG!


I am not sure if I am upset or not. I think I should probably get disappointed?
When I ask you to go take flyer with me the other time, you excitedly said okay and then you went MIA the day before and on the day itself. ):
When I ask you to go zoo this time round, you excitedly said okay TOO and then you went MIA yet again. And what? you only contact me when there is something important? Come on, what's this all about? Then again, fine, I shall be nice and help you whenever you need! Stop going MIA, if you can't make it just say you can't. Is it so difficult?!

Anyway, as expected... (shall not elaborate!)



camp on friday! Right, I am excited! (:
Need to start packing really soon!


I watch my birthday present from leo again! somehow it's just so touching! I guess that's gonna be the thing that I will watch whenever I lost my way, lost my motivation! Cos since he can't be here anymore, that's the thing to keep me going I guess. Sigh, I'm gonna miss him like mad!(no, I am already missing him, just more when he flies! SIGH!) Let's just pray that he will at least meet me when he comes back for that 1 day or for that lil while! =)


I am so lucky yet so unlucky! ):
I won myself a pair of tix to NDP rehearsal this coming saturday yet I have got camp to attend to! And also, I have no time to collect it! ): So, I don't know if Yvonne is still going! So suay!


I am gonna rant about someone! (please do not continue reading if you don't want to!)

you are an ultimate bitch! I will always remember when I _____ and you refused to! damn it! and then there you are BLAH BLAH BLAH...
So now what? Take the credit? Be like the nice of all. come on, dream on!
Wake up, stop dreaming. never gonna happen!


It has been long since I met my boyfriend! ):
I MISS YOU!


Congratulations! at 8:27 PM

Dear all,

Congratulations!

I am delighted to inform you that you have passed the audition. Welcome to the Performing Team of Esprimere Singing Club!!


woooooooooot~
wooooooooooooooot~


okay. I am happy. (:
I am VERY SICK! ):



contrasting mood! wth! ):


oh no! at 11:51 AM

jia lat!

why do I sense sore throat coming again? ):


audition. at 10:30 PM

你划定楚河汉界
我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
绑着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界

that's what I sang just now....
LOL. a lil off here and there la! OOOPS!
plus, i was nervous. Though I promise that I wouldn't. LOL!
inevitable la! =X

got camera, got 6 people! 6 pairs of eyes! HAHAHAHHA!
scarryyyyyy! though i tried to relax la! and of cos, thank you to LEO NARDO! :D
Messaging me all the way to calm me down! (:

And many many others who send their good luck! (: YAY! :D
Finally, I went for one audition ALL BY MYSELF. WOAH. just a school stuff but.. but.... IT'S A GREAT STEP FORWARD K! HAHAHAHAA

I want to be famous! WOOOOOOT! :P




You, gave me the reason why I sing that song....
And right, I could express myself well in the song..(yes, even they said so.)
Is it a good thing? I guess not.
But I know things will be fine very soon. This is just part of a r/s.
Afterall, We do love each other.... right? At least I know I do. ((:
I hope you are feeling better. please take care.


Wise person. at 7:04 PM

Someone Wise told me:

"don't be nervous! Cos when you are nervous, half the battle is lost!"
"Remember, on that day.. those around you aren't your enemies! The only enemy is YOURSELF!"
"just pretend that they bought tix to your "concert" "
"do your best, so you wouldnt regret!"
"give your 200%!!"


Thank you Someone Wise! :D
I WILL JIA YOU! :D DEFINITELY WILL! >.<


YAWN! at 10:22 PM

I am tired! =X

Found out that Vanessa(and shelin I guess) has got the same Stats class with me! :D
Oh, and Val too! :D Same same stats! :D
And I realise a lot of people wants to join SRC! =X
After my monday audition then I decide which to join!
(cross finger! hope that i can get into performance team!)


3 more days for work!(off tomorrow! YAY!) (:
5 more days to ZOOOOOOO! (: it's zooooo not zouk! (:
probably 6 more days to camp! (who knows if im going or not!)


Anyway, I am surprised my primary school friend(the one who is working at MPC popular) asked me... "you still stay block 547?" I replied.. "ya!" He said.. "still at 10th floor..." I was like " woah.. yea!"
AFTER SO LONG, with not a single contact, he still remember I stay at 10th floor! NOT BAD! :D


alright, i guess Im gonna sleep soon!


Jin Zhang. at 10:50 AM

So here I am, doing some impossible stuff again!
Something which I MIGHT back out last minute because I don't have the guts! HAHAHAHAHA!

Alright, I am going for audition to be in the performance team for singing club in SIM!
LOL! =X


we only pay a small amount for a singing coach who teach in LWS! so, WHY NOT?! (:
it's definitely cheaper than if I go to LWS itself! SO.......
I AM GONNA GIVE IT A TRY! :D


1 min audition, what song?

tuo xie? ren zhi? hei bai pei?
HELP! OMGOSH! =X


FOD! :D at 12:34 AM

PHOTOS TIME!
Is not in any order! :DD!

That's me and my 4 JC friends! :D
WOOOOT~ VAL/JIAWEN/SHIRLA!

BEFORE GAMES! :D


The last photo we took! :


the guys doing jump shot! woooot~
the one who jump the highest is xuehai. on his right is hansheng and on his left is shawn(his gay partner!) the guy on the extreme left is henry. the guy bside hansheng is darren....
the girl on my left is grace, on my right is shirla.... and then val and then jiawen and then ogl, swee ching and then behind her is bryan(ogl) beside bryan is....... ziyu i guess.

There, 4 guys for you! :D Xuehai, shawn, hansheng and alex.

and US! :D wooot~
finally, the very nice ogl-bryan! COME ON, SAY THANK YOU! I TOOK SUCH A NICE PHOTO FOR YOU! :D

and no, i am not a cam-whore! HAHAHAH I THINK! =X
out of like 47 pics from my ogl's camera... >30 includes me! HAHAHAHHAA OMGOSH!
like seriously! HAHAHAHAHAHA! =X


okay, can't wait for zoo! :D




right now, i miss my boyfriend.
i miss yvonne.
i miss fanghan.
i miss bob.
i miss leo!! ):