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at 9:05 PM

if you lean forward, i wouldn't back off. :)

today is a great day because i spent the entire day w my sweetheart! :D
i have a handsome boyfriend. :)
i think he probably got the camwhore disease from me! oops! :P



so anyway, we went to bugis from breakfast and then sing @ topone! :D
i think my stamina dropping lo. not enough 气 and everything! ): BOOOO!
but i think my range has gone a bit wider! good job to myself! *thumbs up!*

after singing @ topone, went for dinner @ Suntec.
Seriously, I was scared.
many thoughts were in my mind, like what to do, how to blend in, what's the correct thing to say.
was really afraid that i would do the wrong thing @ the wrong time and everything!
but i guess, it was ALRIGHT. (well, hopefully!)


so anyway, quite tired now already.
gotta rest. :)
hope my boyfriend will sleep early too, i love you Aloysius!!! :D


random post. at 6:37 PM

I am currently in the library alone. Well, supposed to study but can't find a table.
Here I am using my laptop. hohoho, was using the internet tethering, however scared i will over use the 12gb usage, hence decided to use wireless@sg instead. (:
Gonna stay here till 9pm and then head to mac till time to meet the rest for supper @ 85.
bf isn't going to come. ): awww~ nvm. will get to see him 2 days later!
actually i am still thinking if i should work tomorrow, since tomorrow only got esther working!
mmm, not sure not sure~ =X


cut my hair today too!
and awww~ i wanted to cut it short like able to tie can already, however.. decided not to....
it's still short, probably cut about 2 palms off! omgzxz! yes, that much!
and probably will rebond real soon, because after he blow my hair like as if it's rebond, it's DAMN nice la! hahahaha! i'm just delaying the time cos i dont want my hair to look messy during CNY. :)
therefore... probably end of the year. like mid of december that's just about 6 weeks later.
hang in there FL, your hair will be saved then. :) 


(okay, the aircon is kinda cold in here! omg!)

gotta end here! blog soon.


rainie's DAY! :D at 10:49 AM

16th October!

let's all go back to 16th october when there was a not-that-bad concert! :)
spend the entire day w aloysius.


So yes, on the 16th.. 
was supposed to meet at 1230 for lunch and everything.. but got dragged a bit. :)
watched child's eye! it wasn't that scary. the story plot was quite lame. but still i got scared.. 
did not shout out though! the 3d effect was NOT THAT BAD. 
it was quite sad at the end, knowin what happened from the past. 
no ending to the movie though, quite crappy. 
so yes, after movie.. walk ard abit and then went to leisure park and continue to walk.
met with Adele and AO ard 6? had dinner @ pasta mania. Was already hungry after movie. :)
since it's open now, got a scandal photo:


after which we went to the indoor stadium, hoping to get YCL's concert t shirt or smth, but no.. there was nothing much available. so did not queue for anything. 
(seriously, there wasn't really any queue!)
and then sat down to camwhore a bit @ the staircase. 




Ard 7 plus, decided to go into the stadium. :)
stupid thing is.. walked all the way to east entrance to know that the east gate is close! so got to walk back to north entrance! ): and my sis pass didnt have to use cos... seriously not a lot of ppl.
so after that settled down and concert start! :D

collage the pictures tgt. a bit small but ya! :)
she's damn woah! :D

some individual photos :








the concert wasn't THAT great but her vocal that day was GREAT! :D
her costumes were great! :)
but the concert settings wasn't fantastic!!! =X
her pegasus was OMG nice!!!



after concert...
AO drove us down to simpang bedok to have supper with xuan cheng and yeowhwee. :)
(yea, have brought aloysius along to meet quite a no. of my friends already!)

after which headed home!
thanks xuan cheng for the ride home! :D

that's 16th oct! :D
I am still 5 blog post lag! :D


love.... :) at 9:58 AM

love is in the air for a lot of people! :D
although i've nt been attending cca, my stalking skills is still there! hahahaha! :P
i'm happy my gd friend! (: way to go adele! :) stay blissful and happy!
more than just 1 couple, shall wait and see. :D
it's the love season i supposed! ♥


somehow it feels great and relief that finally both our parents know about it. 
yea, don't have to hide about anything anymore. it feels good. 
i've told mine quite sometime back, say 2 weeks ago? It's like I can finally say.."i am going dating." kinda thing? and dont have to lie here and there! afterall, you need many lies to cover 1 lie. so why should i crack my brains for such a thing! :) so yes, he broke the news to his parents too. =) 
I hope my parents will love him as much as I do, and I hope.. his parents.... will feel the same too.
I am worried seriously. Even though relationship is supposed to be 2 of us, I still take parents view into consideration. *pray pray pray*


I'm also quite sure that there are still people doubting this r/s. There might be even some people thinking that it wouldn't last. Will it last or not, I really do not have the answer myself. All I know is, I have got a sweet boyfriend who I would hope to keep for life. (I sound so selfish. but... isn't love supposed to be selfish?) 
Skeptical views shall get away from me. I did not regret for any move that I took. :) 
because i simply love him, no matter what! :DD 



at 12:36 AM

i am really afraid of losing. ):
爱得很深 所以心会疼..

最怕你忽然说要放弃..


I don't know why, my self confidence seems to drop. ):  
i hope everything will fall back to norm soon.


lazy to blog at 12:26 AM

I have been very lazy to blog.
have not blog bout
1) rainie yang's concert.
2) kwang's birthday eve.
3) kwang's birthday.
4) kbox w starhub peeps!
5) movie with starhub peeps!
6) dinner/drinking w yvonne chua!


shall start w it soon!

im gettng excited for next week! im anxious @ the same time! and also, i'm scared! ):
seriously!


at 11:31 PM

saw this saying somewhere...it goes smth like...
"i rather fall in love w someone who has got their heart broken once. so that they know how it feels and will not break mine." 






at 11:01 PM


i miss my bestfriend very much! ):
LEO NARDO, I hope you are doing fine in china! not even sure if you will see this post! high chance you wouldnt! Hope you will receive my letter sooooooooon~ :) hopefully it will reach you! :D


JJ! :D at 9:54 PM




counting down to 15.11.2010! :)
hopefully they did not give us false hope! :D
new song from JJ? or new album from JJ? :) *excited*


Happy 1st month! :D at 11:59 PM

Time flies! :) 1 month has just fly past! This one month has been a month of joy/happiness occassionally there is some sadness. I feel so loved, and feel so protected whenever he's around. :) there maybe times when i get a lil grumpy but he just bear w it.  there maybe times when i get irritating but all he does is listen and not complain back. It feels great to have someone you love, loving you back the same way. maybe less, maybe more.. but at least he/she loves you. :) We started out quite suddenly, but I am happy that we did. :)

♥ happy 1st month, aloysius! ♥

 

lousy feeling at 11:37 PM

i feel quite upset that i can't do anything or i don't know what i can do to cheer him up.


i guess im only good at being a listener and giving comfort.
not advice, not words.
feel like tearing again tonight because it seems like the gf isn't doing anything.
not upset w him, but upset w myself. ):



more things abt myself that i hate nowadays!
really cannot take it. =(
tonight, i feel lousy again.


at 12:31 AM

i typed a post and i highlight everything and backspaced.

WOAH.



alright. just to sum up: i am upset. 


bye. 


econs and maths. at 10:27 PM

maths and econs.
econs and maths. 
maths and econs.
econs and maths.


okay, random me! but suddenly i thought that econs is more fun than maths!
today return back to micro lecture after skipping 2 lecture. the good thing is, i caught up back immediately!
so i feel relieve! tomorrow, i am going back AC after missing 2 lectures too!
and on friday, i'm returning back to ABSM after missing 2 lectures too!
omgomgomg~ :X
can't you see I am reverting back to a normal student? LOL!!!!
okay, self psychoing myself! =X


3 more days and it will be Rainie Yang's day! :D
WHEEE~
child's eye + concert! how great! the best thing will be... going with my beloved! :))))
how great will saturday be! *thumbs up!*


at 12:27 PM

I'm scared to lose more than anything else. 


did not attend lecture again! like someone please save fl! ):
what's w the "i do not want to go lecture"? ): feel so upset about myself!
come on come on! i need to study! i need to study! ):
too many things in my head too! i need to clear them out. i need to focus.
REALLY REALLY REALLY.....

okay anyway, nvm!
already not @ lecture what can i say/do! of cos is study la! but no! i am not studying!
WOAH! smart me! hahahah! alright, got another lecture to attend shortly in about 3 hours time!
and i want to go and buy something before that! however the seller is not replying me the email now! but hopefully everything will turn out well and that i can get it successfully! ):
oh btw, I am yearning for a canon s95 but it's uber expensive! ): ohhhmyyyygoooodnesssss!
where can i even get the money from! ):


okay, gotta prepare to go school already!
working tomorrow again!
seriously, i think i should stop working soon too! =/
or maybe cut down on the no. of days I work!

it's tiring!


song dedication! at 9:38 PM

whenever i study, would always motivate myself and my friends.
remember hw i was studying late @ night in the kitchen(cos the table bigger than study table!), and then i would sms in to radio station to dedicate songs for my friend! :)

tonight, while doing some revision, i did the same.
i sms in to the same programme! :) the same Deejay who used to read my dedication, read my dedication this time round again! :) and playing the song i would want to hear! :)
勇气 by Fish Leong!


And dedication went out to my boyfriend and Si hui! :)
I doubt anyone of them heard it! but oh well, i heard it myself! :)


我们都需要勇气, 去相信会在一起。。　

okay, post shall stop here and revert back to my books!

fl is starting to feel like a student again.
pat on my back! :)
加油！


ranting.ranting.ranting. leader? want but difficult at 11:22 AM

I think since young i have been taking the leadership post.
Primary school: Prefect.
Secondary school: NCC SSG.
JC: Student council.

I have always enjoy taking charge of things and everything.
However, holding on to the leadership means the responsibility that i have to carry is huge.
i guess, throughout all these times, i felt the best being Part A PC. :)
together with my team, we brought the newbies up.
that was the time i really felt as though im doing things right.
planning for different activities everyweek. from a grp of girls who knows nothing abt marching, to them marching in unison. and when you see it, it just feels....GREAT. :)

being a leader would means you have to answer to almost everything.
you have to take care of what others think and what you need to convey to your fellow teammates.
how to bring things up in the correct way.
and honestly, i seem to have lost the ability.
it seems like nowadays, i would want to run away whenever i can.
i would want to hide from it and not think about it.
and i know that hiding is not the solution yet im still doing it.
i need to find myself back.


i know im soft-hearted.
please dont take advantage.

the smile i have put on almost everyday is tiring.



because deep inside, i might be feeling otherwise.
okay, i think i just make myself sounds like an emo freak. but no, im not! there are days you just feel lousy about yourself isn't it? yes, it is hitting me now.


so what if i have been working so hard, i have neglected so many things.
why should i even be working so hard now... when i have the rest of my life to work for in the future?
for the money i will say, but why do you want so much money and lil leisure time.
it's hard to find the balance point. struggling and still struggling.

a few days ago, i felt sad.
sad that i've neglected my family.
sad that my family thinks that i do not care bout them.
so what am i going to do abt it? to spend more time w them of cos. but where will this "time" come from?
from the few hrs i have after school.
weekend? im working.. and even if i dont work, i would be alone at home. so....
it really causes headache come to think of it. =(


enough of ranting.
afterall, everyone knows fl is a happy girl. so she'll be fine in a while.
definitely.

the leader in me has got to step out to continue to lead me in my life.
please appear.


emotions at 11:20 PM


emotions. 
I totally hate how i can suddenly feel upset. 
one simple sms can get me affected. that's how fast my emotions can change! and the best part is, that 1 msg will linger in my mind for very long. that's why i am a typical cancerian. 


it's really hard to handle so many things.
sometimes i feel as though i might just breakdown anytime. 
as long as i can't take it, i will just burst out. it's just a matter of time. 


it's sad how sometimes i am being left alone.
it's sad how sometimes I feel as though i don't know who to talk to.
i think it's time that i need to allocate my time properly.


although i feel so upset, i am still glad that bf is by my side. :)
he gives me the sense of security.
i am glad that he made his way into my life. :)

 


at 12:52 PM

it's another new week and guess what!
FL IS SICK! =/ ROAR~ it was totally uncalled for! and it came all so sudden! sigh, feel so upset! ):
i want my voice back. Realised that while working @ starhub, i have fall sick for almost 3-4 times already!
this either shows how weak i am or how dusty my workplace is! roar~~~

so yes, it's monday and i am here @ 1245pm. this means that, fl did not attend lecture.
*good job* what happened to the promise made to myself!
okay, 1 month, i need just one month to find back the student in me.
and then i will start to mug like mad till exams are over. 1 month. i need this 1 month to find back the mood.
therefore, work might just be put aside till exams are over. hopefully i will still be able to work back for SH after exams. that's next yr june. far yet near. =/

okay, i need my study guide seriously. when will it reach me? ):
my study notes are not enough!


i think my table is super messy to study too!
it's time to pack my room VERY soon. the tons of clothes that i do not want anymore also got to go!
my wardrobe is gonna burst very soon, especially with myself buying so much things!
(oops, busted!)


k, gtg study a bit.

tc peeps! <3