Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough that you would drown?

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
Screaming every step, "Just stay here"

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still
I will be here still

"Little change of the heart, little light in the dark,
Little hope that you just might find your way out of here.
Cause you've been hiding for days, wasted and wasting away,
But I got a little hope today you'll face your fears.

Yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
Follow the lights to this city.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend,
Yeah I know you could make it through cause I believe in you.
So lets go put up a fight, lets go make everything alright,
Go on and take a shot go give it all you got.

Oh yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
No, it's not always pretty.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring,
Are you sitting down? I need to tell you something,
Enough is enough you can stop waiting to breath,
And don't wait up for me.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.
Don't look back just go,
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah. "

This is to you, the you who seem a lil upset abt work. 

The you who seem to be upset about we both know what.

加油, my forever and always HPY！

Take a chance and be strong. :) 

I know you can make it through, cos i believe in you! (as stated in the lyrics!) 

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying
And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me crying

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

Do you ever think about me
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep
In the middle of the night when you awake
Are you calling out for me
Do you ever reminisce
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

Chorus:
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away
I miss you so much
And I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better
But it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away

Hi (:
My name is FANGLIN and I rawkz!
Twenty-one candles on the 26th June '11. I ♥ Singing, Laughing, and Stoning.

FRIENDS
is the bomb.
i love love love my friends TTM!
xoxo


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If no one will listen - Kelly Clarkson at 10:49 PM

A song to myself:

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough that you would drown?

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
Screaming every step, "Just stay here"

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still
I will be here still

Dont make someone your priority when you're only an option.


To my HPY at 10:14 AM



BLG - GO

"Little change of the heart, little light in the dark,
Little hope that you just might find your way out of here.
Cause you've been hiding for days, wasted and wasting away,
But I got a little hope today you'll face your fears.

Yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
Follow the lights to this city.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend,
Yeah I know you could make it through cause I believe in you.
So lets go put up a fight, lets go make everything alright,
Go on and take a shot go give it all you got.

Oh yeah I know it's not easy, I know that it's hard,
No, it's not always pretty.

Get up and go
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring,
Are you sitting down? I need to tell you something,
Enough is enough you can stop waiting to breath,
And don't wait up for me.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.
Don't look back just go,
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on.

Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
Don't look back just go.
Take a breath move along,
Or you could spend your whole life holding on,
You could spend your whole life holding on.

Don't spend your whole life holding on, yeah. "

This is to you, the you who seem a lil upset abt work. 

The you who seem to be upset about we both know what.

加油, my forever and always HPY！

Take a chance and be strong. :) 

I know you can make it through, cos i believe in you! (as stated in the lyrics!) 

at 12:53 AM

although this is really an emo song......



it's a great song.

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on
And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying
And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me crying

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

at 12:21 AM

why is it so hurting?




LOSER LIKE ME. DAMN IT.



not that i have nothing to talk to you. (makes me damn upset.)
was damn happy that i get to hear you. 
oh well........ 


another random cover at 5:33 PM

here's another one :)

cover of 6,8,12 by ME! :D

did another cover when I got bored studying! :)
inspired by CHW. :)))

Do you ever think about me
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep
In the middle of the night when you awake
Are you calling out for me
Do you ever reminisce
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

Chorus:
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away
I miss you so much
And I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better
But it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours since you went away

at 11:41 PM

I don't know. 


a decision to make. at 1:51 PM

i feel dumb for doing smth over and over again.
maybe it's time to not bother about it anymore. but once I've decided and put it to action.
there's really no turning back.






Which I probably think, it's best for everyone.


What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow


at 11:31 PM

I was damn happy today, because of horlick icecream.
and of cos, thanks to CHW! :)
really really really a great friend!


but, something have got to spoil my mood.
not just 1 thing! ):
1) I'm not even 21! ROAR!
2) I think someone just misunderstand me totally. I THINK. =X


Get it Right - Glee at 12:53 PM




Was watching glee a few days ago.
Original song for GLEE. I really love this song. :)
"what can you do when your good isn't good enough."


What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight


Happy weekend!


full of thoughts. at 1:16 AM

TODAY SUN IS REALLY KILLING ME.
it was so hot that i tied my hair.


Finally went down to post office to send lecture notes to Leo! :)
Speedpost is SOOOO expensive! wanted to do via express, the person advice that... just do by the normal one will do. 2 days difference. the prices is like almost double! =X
OMG! so anyway, $72 to China, Shanghai! I hope best friend will receive it soon! :D


So, was supposed to meet HPY for hotcakes today!
but didn't want him to rush here and there, so asked him not to. :)
he had physical proficiency test @ nie! :)
I really hope he pass it! :)


It's damn long since I had Just Acia, so decided to have that for dinner!
The dinner is not the important thing, but the person I was having dinner with! :P 
I WAS SMILING FROM EAR TO EAR IN MY HEART OKAY! HAHAHA!
After that, went down to COMPASS POINT! :DDD
brings back lots of SR memories!
still remember going to compass point early sat morning to have GP consultation with Mr Andrew @ starbucks. 
still remember going to compass point after school for lunch/dinner.
still remember chilling out at CP.
the arcade @ CP has got to be a weekly trip with Leo, we were aiming to become VIP.
totally miss compass that much.

so bought this chicken biscuit which I REALLY DO NOT REMEMBER EATING WHEN I WAS YOUNG! (mummy, why you nvr give me childhood! so sad!)
then we went to Community Centre to chill out.
it really doesn't matter what I do with the person, but it's just the companion that matters. really.
we did stupid things, like talkbox though we were in front of each other.
im probably tired. hence, i didn't really talk much at first. but it's only near the.. "im supposed to go home.."
then we started talking! ROAR! =X
So yes, after talking so long... this person... i was out with.. is not any random guy.
I was out with my HPY. :)
Zhao Xiang, thanks for always bring joy to my life. (: Even if it's "bullying" me.
永远的好朋友!


while on the way home,
I was thinking about a lot of things. okay, maybe not a lot. since the journey was only around 35 mins.
However, still must thank HPY for accompanying me home.. via fast sms replies. :)
Felt quite sad on my way home, a lot of things.. from school work, to work(yea Starhub. though i quit alr.), to friendship, to relationship.
in that short 35 mins, so many things flash in my head.

Have I lost faith in love?
Thinking back, it just sucks to know that... when you put your whole heart into something, and it just isn't right. you end up getting yourself hurt.
I'm just afraid I guess. So maybe I have been telling myself. enough of it, I'll just focus on my studies for now.

But afterall, who doesn't want someone.. who will dote and care for you?
Who doesn't want someone who will listen to you when you're upset, troubled?
Who doesn't want someone who will love you the way you love them?
I've always been finding for this special one. But now....... it's just NOT the time I guess.


For now, I have lovely friends around me who care for me, they probably love me the way i love them too. :)
so i shall not be bothered abt RS for now?
Thank you all of you, who never leave me even though for sometime i have been cold to you people.
especially

to Leo Nardo. I know I haven't been talking much to you. but no one will ever replace you as my BFF okay? :)
you know how special you are to me, don't you? :)

to Yvonne Chua. Hey babe, we have been through MANY ups and downs. we quarreled, we ignored each other for many mths before. but now here we are, still as close as sisters. I really cherish and treasure you. i love you babe. :)


to Bob Thanks for making the effort to always asking to meet up! :) I really miss those SR days when we will hang out after school or even study outside. at Srg garden mac. and everywhere else. Thanks for not forgetting about us. :)

to the 3 of you, we'll forever be a clique! :)

to my 8 sisters in BV(manhong, sock, clariss, kai'en, nadia, chai min, xiaowei, shirla) :
We may be all busy with our different lives now. But then, we still bother to meet every CNY, birthdays, or occassionally dinner. :) I know when I'm troubled who I can go and look for. and I know that WE will not be apart. no matter what! :) thanks sisters! :DDDD

to Khairunnisa:
Babe, you are DAMN impt to me. although we really rarely talk nowadays. we did so many things together.
we went through crazy times in NCC together. and me choosing you to work w me. having you as my APC was great. I miss all those times! studying at mac for Os.
let's forget abt the work thing k! :) I STILL HEART YOU MANY! :)))

to HPY:
you're not just a normal guy. :) I know you know how much you mean to me!
you brighten up my day, always.


I wish the best for all of my friends! :)
please stay happy all of you! cos FL doesnt like it when anyone of you are upset!


Tomorrow will be a better day!
breakfast with my FAMOUS friend, Min Hua!!! :D


tonight is a damn hot day.
i dislike it. ):


YOU at 12:23 PM

YOU, 加油 and ALL THE BEST! :DDDD


morning! at 10:07 AM

no more hotcakes. ):


the friendships just get stronger! :D at 12:46 AM


newly form group. :)
alex.hongwei.peiyu.me! :D

Alex is REALLY a super funny guy!
Totally can click w him. both our laughing point SUPER low! :P
Out with him is like laughing NON-STOP! :))))
Thanks Alex! :D
 

looking forward for more outings with them! :DDDD
probably a trip to NUS for FRUIT JUICE! :P



i cant wait for breakfast tomorrow! :DDDD


at 1:22 PM

what can you do if your good isn't good enough?


at 9:43 AM

oh man, i dislike going to toilet so many times just in the morning! ):


at 2:41 AM

I can't seem to fall aslp.. Mayb I'm troubled?
Someone.. sweet..
Sang for me in the middle of the night.. so that i might just sleep easier.
I'm more than just touched, brought me to tears.

Then I realized,
How fortunate I am.
To have known many great friends.


Thank you, CHW! :)


today is a happy day. at 12:22 AM

Woke up, did some ABSM questions.
Trying to get the hang of equivalence relations. :)
Finally I understand how things go! *thumbs up*
totally love listening to 93.3FM while studying and doing questions!
Especially when JJ song start playing on the radio~ and it's like WOAHHH, then i'll take a break. hahahah! :)

But today, decided to drop a visit to NUS! :)
I feel smart entering the school. LOL!!!!! =X but the school is so messy! Their signboard is NOT V HELPFUL! :)
ANDDDD I SAW ALEX YOW TODAY! :D My Mr Teban! :P 
Thank you for the AWESOME watermelon juice treat today! :DDD

But the main motive was to accompany my HPY to NUS. :) He needs to apply for uni but then lost his pin! The trip was kinda wasted? He didn't get a new pin, instead he has got to use type 2 form.
At least got to see AY in school! :D hopefully HPY get into NUS too! Then next time if i visit anyone of them, I can get to see both of them! :D
After that went down to PS, needed to buy something from daiso and craving for Swensen's Icecream! :D
HPY has got some things to settled also. So yup. :)
Had dinner and then ICECREAMMMMMMMMM! :D
how happy can I get man? Spending my day with someone who literally makes me smile every moment even though he's teasing me everytime! :)
but I've allowed him to do so, :) His unique way of caring probably? :P


while on the way home, felt a lil weird.
I think cos I ate at a v late timing today! =(


okay, gonna sleep!
Gooooood night! :D


oh, CYA ON FRIDAY! :DDDD


morning! :) at 10:30 AM

GOOD MORNING! :D
just woke up not long ago, the weather is TOO nice, so I slept a bit more today.
As usual, woke up at 8 plus, seriously it's in me already. everyday i almost wake up around the same timing.
my body clock is super strong and good. I don't need an alarm clock! :P

Really tired recently. ):
Still can't get over the fact of my 2 pimples! =X
oh man, I am craving for hotcakes! not now I guess, tomorrow I'll get them probably. :)

Yesterday I got home and GUESS WHAT, there's a hugeeeee cockroach in the kitchen!
OMGGGGGG! I immediately run back to my room! =X
EEEEEEW~ i think im more afraid of cockroach then lizard.
cockroach WILL just FLY to your face man!

ANYWAY...
click here
you wouldn't regret!!!! :)))
okay la, actually just another random singing of mine. but I thought LIKE NOT BAD! HAHAHAHAHA!
普通朋友! (:
listen already tell me how is it okay?!?!


ohohoh!!
hpy, then you are booked on 2606! :)


blogging @ KBOX bedok POINT! :D at 10:40 PM

HELLO ALL,

I am at kbox bedok point with Kwang. :)
Met Kwang for dinner @ Bedok point and we didnt know what to do after that, so we decided to go and sing!
Since monday night kbox only $8. So why not!
and I am under stress man, I have 2 pimple popping on my face. 1 on each cheek!
how nice seriously!
please please please, i hope before i go tw i will recover from this ugliness seriously! OMGNESS! =X
totally dislike it, it has been SOOOOO long since i last saw a HUGE pimple on my face.
oh man! =X I feel so sad! =(
Especially after my mum said... "omg, why so ugly?!!?"
hello mummy, i am damn stress okay! ): I NEED DARK CHOC! booooooo~ so upset! ):

(okay, at this point of time, kwang is singing! so I am taking this time to blog. seriously, damn convenient that there is a computer here! I can keep myself accompany while he's singing! lol!)

Anyway, I think my voice like machiam spoilt already! ):
damn upset about it also! wah, today seriously like a DOWN day.
talking about DOWN, i think ABSM seriously do not like me! ))))):
Maths, you know that i love you right? since primary school, you have been my fav subject, why are you going so hard on me now?! ))))):
dont abandon me please! ))))):

was talking to yvonne about REGRETS yesterday.
I decided.. to do things that I have been wanting to do! (:
After exams, after coming back from TW.
I would start working. and at the same time I would pick up guitar class! :)
and also, the next singing competition, I will go and take part in it! (:
Always do not have the gut, but since so many natural disasters happening, I think i should not waste my life!
THEREFORE I HAVE DECIDED... :)

(okay, my turn to sing! BLOG LATER!)

byeeee! :D


the 2 hot guys - AY & CHW at 11:54 AM

before i start studying....
I had a damn dramatic dream! OMGNESS.
YEA, I DREAMT OF 2 HOT GUYS (IN AY's words!)
I dreamt of hongwei and alex! OMGNESS! like what a dream right! =X

I dreamt that I got ditched by CHW was damnnnn upset that i ran out of house...
when the lift door open at the first level.... i saw Alex.
So he was there cheering me up!
HOW DRAMATIC CAN MY DREAM GET!
just like VV drama, typical hongkong drama! HAHAHAHAH! =/


TSKTSK.
i must have disturb AY too much! =X
okay Alex, i shall not call you TEBAN anymore!
and if you are reading this, PLEASE STUDY HARD FOR YOUR TEST! :D
cyaaaaaaa like V V V SOON! 

and chiahongwei, i will be nicer to you k! =]]
though i don't want to go USS with you. OOOOPS! :P



2 hot guys to start off my week.
my week should be GOOD.



and, you.. EVERYONE out there,
加油!


at 11:39 PM

unglam photo:


back on retainer...


21st and some misses. at 10:04 PM

Just woke up from a very bad headache, must be the super hot sun and the not enough sleep that cause my headache! ): Didn't bring out my shades! it was such a good time to look COOL! :P

Consecutively had 2 21st Birthday party to attend for this weekend.
Good thing that one is on the Saturday and one is on the Sunday. :)
Happy birthday Herman Loh and my 傻大姐 XiaoWei!! :)

19thMarch2011: Herman's 21st birthday party! :D





20th March 2011: Xiaowei's 21st birthday Party:








Seriously, XW's house is SUPER BIG!
there's like a indoor SPORTS HALL?! you can play badminton, you can play pool, you can play table tennis.
there's a treadmill too?!










and this is one of the balcony. it's so long till.............

a model( i have no idea why i type LAWYER) can practically walk to and fro to practise her walking! can build a swimming pool man!
seriously, the house is lack of a swimming pool and a lift.
ALL 8 siblings with their own room, how awesome?  almost all have got their own toilet.



Everyone is asking around now if we are going to have a party... and I was thinking about it.
And I think I came to a conclusion. Instead of having a party, I guess I'll just spend the day with close friends. [OR MAYBE A HTHT SESSION AT NEX TEADOT W THE PERSON WHO SPEND 21st doing the same thing would be good(: ]
And in the first place, I am not sure who will be free that day. =/
a surprise would be good too! :P
MUCH LOVE! :DDDD

(OKAY, I BLOG SUPER LONG ALR, INTERNET CONNECTION WENT DOWN, RESTARTED THE COM... and the whole post was gone. spoil my blogging mood!)

it's almost a month since i left work. and i still miss those people very much. ):
the feeling is really sucky when you wake up knowing that you don't get to see them! all you see now is BOOKS. and LECTURE NOTES! like how nice?! =(

but good thing is, I have already fallen in love with macro.
SO, micro and ABSM it's time that you guys fall in love with me, so that i can understand you REALLY well. alright? :)
I'll be nice to you, so please be nice to me as well! Just till 1st of JUNE! :D
I promise I will spend much more time with you people okay?
NO MACRO tmr! just ABSM and MICRO! :D


before someone say i horse behind cannon... :P

I guess you'll not know how's the feeling of knowing I don't get to see you today, tomorrow, the following day, and so on..
don't know when i'll get to see you next, don't know when i'll get to poke your face.
but trust me, i'll find my next silly reason to go down to look for you. :)
it might just be the MOST SILLY reason. but I guess, it wouldn't be so soon okay? (:
I know you wouldn want to see me every week too!! before you say I never study!! :P
我还不了解你吗？
oh, and I was really happy that I got to see you on sat. (: REALLY NOT HORSE BEHIND CANNON. but you do look tired eh! but anyway, still bring smile to my face!


Tomorrow,
it's the day when I'll get things settled.
but I am actually afraid and scared. ):
Really hope that things will be fine.. or things will get better.
I hope I can do it... right.




I need to be more courageous.


加油！ at 6:56 PM

如果有一天， 我回到从前。 回到最原始的我， 你是否会觉得我不错？





心里有好多感触， 很复杂。
可是，我下定决心了。
不能在回头！！





at 3:54 PM


我的JJ好可爱啊！！！！！
只要看他一眼就充满了活力！
哈哈！　
休息够了，　读书去了！


用中文感觉好亲切！
也比较。。。close. LOL!


at 11:50 AM

 GOOD MORNING!


craving for egg tarts today! OMG!
I have weird and random cravings! =X


sunshine after the rain. :) at 8:20 PM

还蛮不习惯我们“闹情绪” 的时候！
可是，雨过天晴了啊！(:


偶尔闹闹也没关系啦!　(:
我们了解彼此就够了吧？　


要天天开心好吗?　




at 6:31 AM

Fl, please stop.....


Please sleep.....


at 2:41 AM

I said I'll b happy from now.
Somehow tonight is not the night. I can't seem to sleep at all. ):
I can't seem to stop crying.

Why did it hit me so hard this time? ):


at 11:30 PM

Finally,




the flu stopped. :)
i think i could have enter world record for sneezing consecutively for 10 sneezes. -.- (DISLIKE!)



and marks the end of today too! xD


was reading news of Japan again and felt quite sad about it.
It feels as though, life is that short.
So we should all, not feel sad since life is so short. Who knows what might happen next moment?
We just don't know the future. We can't predict the future, but we definitely can choose how we live our lives! :)
As much as I am always feeling sad, I think for a change, I should feel happy.
I am blessed enough to have food, shelter, clothes! Why should I be feeling sad compared to people all over the world! :X
My problems as compared to the world's problems is SO SO SO SO SO small that's it's nothing. =X
Hence, FL will be happy from now onwards. ;) so friends and family, PLEASE STAY HAPPY!

1) because we have all.. some don't!
2) because a smile uses less muscle! :)
3) because I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY :D
4) we should stay happy and strong to show our support to JAPAN! =X
5) LIFE IS JUST TOO SHORT TO FEEL SAD! :DDD


Giving a sincere smile can brighten up anyone's day. even if it's a stranger. :)


生活简简单单就好！　


at 6:04 PM

a sense of relief. (:







i hate my nose! roar. ):


at 10:32 AM




简简单单


a day out w sister. at 8:34 PM

picture heavy post. :D
a day out with my sister with NEW camera = many photos! :D
went into popular and heard LZX's song! and i told my sis "AFTER THIS SONG THEN GO LEH"
but they playing his WHOLE NEW ALBUM! lol!!! :D


Pictures:





RETARDED 3 SAME POSE:











at 10:07 AM

Supposed to go out for icecream and laksa today with shirla and hongwei.
but now i can't make it either! ):
boo! =/

gonna wait for my sister to wake up, but before that I'm off to study.



I'm glad, I slept well last night. :)
Not a heavy sleeper, it's not how long i sleep but whether i did wake up endless time!
luckily i didn't, slept all the way till 8.30am! :)
really awesome! (:


okay, macro darling, I am here to conquer one more topic of you. :)


It's great to study....可是。。。 at 11:40 PM

我好累。
今天读了一整天的书， 真的累了。
原来，读书是那么累的一件事。
可是， 它也让我蛮开心的！
When you finally understand what you don't know initially..
the sense of relief and the happiness. woah. :)
it's great.



可是， 今天。。 还感觉蛮不一样的。
我不知怎么表达那。。闷的心情。
对你们而言， 我今天应该跟平常没什么两样。
我。。 是在压抑自己的心情吗？
还是不想让别人知道我脆弱的一面？
不知不觉， 会在夜里掉那几滴泪。
心里感到有点寂寞。

不想烦我常烦的人，不想显得我太依赖了。
可是心里就。。觉得怪怪的。
闷x2! ):


也不想听音乐。
我真的觉得今天。。 我不是我。。
我很想笑， 那种疯狂的笑。


希望明天。。 会是好的一天。
即使心情不好，能读的下书就好了。




说些话来让我开心好吗？ 


at 10:21 AM

我只是一个平凡不过的女生。读书去了！



cars = friends. at 10:12 AM

I had a bad night. ):


I was looking out of my window cause I couldn't sleep.
Looking at all those cars driving passed, stopping at the junction, zooming passed...
And I wonder,
if the number of cars are the number of friends I have...
It's scary how so many cars will drive past and not stay.
I guess in life, we do meet many people, they must be the number of cars on the road...
not all will drive so slowly, some will just definitely zoom past you.
We need to make an effort to make those cars stay... even if it's just for a lil longer...
And because we do not want to have conflict with one another, we always try to give and take.
That's why we have the traffic lights on the road, you stop for me to go.
The honk, is for warning.... It's just like how a friend/gd friend will sound to you when they know you are going astray.

As the night gets later, the cars on the road gets lesser.
Does this means, as we get older, the number of friends will get lesser?




it's time to make up for some friendship i've seem to have lost.



i don't wanna have regret in my life.


however, there's always this unspoken words. 
it sucks to feel this way.


at 11:12 PM




Just another random singing of mine on a random day. :)


sisters day + some down and lousy feeling, at 11:02 PM

Saw this today...

Hello, HPY. I know you will read this some day, how true is this statement? LOL! :)


Some photos for the day:

I can't help but say, how pretty all of us have become! (:
Even the tomboy Sock has become pretty! :P







Mr and Mrs Goh:

Their daughter(TongTong):


My camera is SO COOL.
There's many many effect! and there's smile detector! :)
OMGNESS. coolness okay!
When you smile, it will take 3 continuous shot! Damn good for 自拍！ LOL! :P
I show you! LOL!







Okay, that's all for the day! :)









I feel kinda lousy now.
A few weeks ago, I don't feel too good about myself.
I... feel that I've changed... I don't feel like myself anymore.
And this is kinda hurting to myself seriously.
It'll sound really cliche or drama... but it's like..
staring into the mirror and not recognising yourself or.. stare into the mirror and you don't feel happy cos you aren't yourself anymore.
I don't know if anyone understand what I mean.
I really don't wanna emo tonight, just that..... someone impt to me also realised that I've changed.
Running away from problems... sucks........
I feel really lost. ):


at 10:00 AM

Don't the construction workers have off day on Sunday? ):


don't assume at 10:57 PM

oh, and i totally dislike how you gossip about your friend.
feels sad for your friend seriously.



maybe you are also gossiping abt me behind my back.
OH MAN.


DONT ASSUME WHO THIS PERSON IS...
assuming is making an ass out of you and me.
I learnt this in ncc, which is DAMN true.


new camera! :D at 10:25 PM

Studied for a while in the morning, didn't want to leave house, but CC called and asked if I want to go IT fair.
Since I didn't want to go alone, it must be fated! hahahaha! So yup, she got recalled till 3pm. So, met her @ PS! :D


left a mushroom note for HPY! (:
although i know it's no longer a surprise for a post-it to appear, I just hope it will make him smile before work! did you, hpy? (:
never try, never know! :D


There's like 10 thousand people @ IT fair man! really got to squeeze here and there!
pre-ordered Honghan's laptop before going to get my camera! :)
the pink is seriously PRETTY PRETTY CHIO! :D

now no one can laugh at me, saying my camera is gu dong! because it is not!!!! :D
yayyyyyyy! I am shooooooo happy! :)
thanks to mum for sponsoring $50 and thanks to sister for sharing! :)

After getting camera, saw a place selling a lot of earpiece!!!
and saw the one which is quite pretty! and CC saw the one she wanted, so i randomly said..
"so cheap, buy la!" next moment she buy already! OMG! super quick!
the promoter didnt had to do anything! AND SERIOUSLY HE IS DAMNNNNN CUTE! omggggoshhhh! =/
His name is Derek! HAHHAHAHA! okay, such a stalker. =X
the queue to pay for just 1 earpiece.. is like..... SUPER long... we queued for almost 30mins-40mins! OMGNESS.
and there is another cute guy @ the cashier! HEHHH!!! his smile is... can't describe.. both me and CC said his smile really WOAH! =)
I gave him the receipt already, i couldnt stop smiling to myself. OKAY RETARDED! =/
hahahaha! okay, just look look see see like how guys always look at girls! :P


Totally in love with my new camera! :)
Now I don't have to borrow camera from others anymore for concert! :)
and also dont need borrow a digital cam to go taiwan! :)
I am happy. :)

Really got to thank CC for asking me out. (:
I knew a lot of things from CC too.
Had a great day w her.


Tomorrow is a SING-DAY for the GOH family! :D
with Goh Family and my beloved SISTERS! (:



sometimes, things may not go your way.
but there's definitely something positive about it. 


at 11:09 AM

好像超越了。。 ):


at 10:38 AM

我告诉自己。。这样就够了。。



yet another lonely weekend at home without parents. ):
ROAR.



I hope you are feeling better today.
As much as I want to cheer you up, I seem lost last night.
SMILE YO.


at 10:05 PM

damn shagged today.
i totally dislike studying micro and macro one after another.
definitely will get them mixed up somehow or another!
this is not doing me any good. ):

oh man, can't seem to find anyone to go IT fair with me tomorrow!
and I really do not want to go myself..?
but I really wanna get the camera. canon ixus115HS! ):

i know i will be able to make it. (:
jiayou FL.


life is full of ups and downs.
because of all those down times, we get to truly understand what's happiness. (:
As we grow older, there seems to be so many problems we'll face.
Turning 21 soon, I guess being an adult is not that fun afterall.
I can't imagine myself working a few years later, handling with all the office matters.
Or can i continue dreaming that i will be a rich tai tai? LOL!
then i don't really have to work and all, maybe I can just be full-time tutor?
SOUNDS GOOD.
okay, FL is just thinking a lil too much because she got really tired of studying today.

for my 2nd upper class, 加油！！！ 
):


the lil things that i miss. at 2:20 PM

i miss eskimo.
i miss chrysanthemum tea.
i miss honey lemon.
i miss takoballs(uhhhh, i really want!)
i miss the fruits selling in carrefour.
i miss the yong tau foo.
i miss the long toilet queue.



I miss hearing my name being called by any random staffs. ):
But I do not miss working.
I just feel as though something is missing in my life, it feels kinda empty.
Oh man! ):
In the midst of studying, I miss everything and all of them. ):


I miss helping CC/adeline/or whoever buy breakfast or whatever.
I miss spamming my own photos with whoever iphone 4.


I miss hearing your footsteps.
I miss playing with your itouch.


ROAR.

okay, back to books.


at 6:17 PM

maybe i am easily contented, just a simple meal can make me smile from the heart. :)

i didn't mean to be late today, seriously! =(
that's like minus 20 mins! ): boo! i didnt had the full 60 mins! OH MAN!
but thank you for helping me get food first and NOT TAKING BACK MONEY!
HOW CAN! ):

and yay! FL IS HAPPY BECAUSE SHE GOT A BOOKMARK! :DDDD
like omgomgomg pretty! HAHAHAHA! =)
it makes me smile x 10000000 from the heart sia! :)
THANKYOU!


it was fated that i have to be selfish today! OOOOOPS!
but i was SECRETLY happy. oooops x 2!


Sorry Allie the fairy, can't go your celebration!
treat you lunch next week okay?!
really sorry!!!



just when i thought this week is an awful week, thanks for brightening up my day with your bright smile and yourself! :)


at 10:29 AM

Craving for hotcakes but ain't going down to buy if not later someone dont want to have hot cakes with me! HAHAHAHAHA! :D

okay, gotta study a bit.


at 11:08 PM

the tears are in my eyes, but it's not dropping.


full of emotions at 9:54 PM

Slept like a pig today. ):
oh man, I woke up at 1pm! I really can't believe it.


Went out for dinner just now at Safra Tampines for Sakura buffet. :)
that's not why I want to blog anyway.


After dinner, dad drove into his work area, it has been so so so long since I went there.
I wanted to see rainbow and yes, I saw her! :)
oh man, it has been so long since I last saw her, really bring smile to my face and lots of memories. :)
I still remember visiting her every week when I was young, visiting her when she just gave birth!
And now, she's really really old! I think.... her time is really going to be up soon.
She look so weak just now, not like how she used to be. She would be chasing after the car, but just now, I saw her... sitting on the floor, looking at our car driving away...
Felt quite sad, although I didn't really actually LOOK AFTER her, i felt as though she's part of my childhood.
It was definitely something I look forward to everyweek. ):
Oh well, she's a V V V strong dog. My father will definitely be v upset if one day, she pass on.
but that's part of life.
Sigh.


and now, im upset.
I just don't know how to express myself anymore.
maybe i lose the confidence, or maybe im just tired already.
maybe i'm overdoing it.


G.Y.M,
why am I feeling so down recently?
Where's the smile I used to give so easily?


590 additional mrt train services! :D at 4:09 PM

HPY!!!!! LOOOK AT THIS! :D

hahahahahaha!
sms to smrt got use one leh! :P

CLICK HERE!! :D

HEHEHE! :D


at 3:55 AM

Just wanna say.. Thank you for always listening to my problems n brightening up my day. :)

I really appreciate you ALOT.

Thankyou!


taiwan done booking, at 2:01 AM

For some reason, don't really feel happy tonight. ): 


but at least, I'm glad that the hotels are all booked! :D
no need to worry about it already!
guess now is only left with exchanging of TWD. :)
and then, everything is good to go.


Just 3 months and 4 days more! :D I am excited.
And this has got to be the first time I'll be FAR away from my parents for 10 days! OMGNESS.
i'll definitely miss my mummy and dad so so so so so much! ):
hopefully they'll plan their own outing and have a short getaway too! :D
even if they go genting or go wherever is good.
they should actually relax a lil. :) don't like to see them stress.




really wonder why im so moody tonight. ):
oh well....


at 12:04 AM

莫名的伤感。

I really need to stop cryin that easily.


at 6:54 PM

It hurts the most when promises aren't fulfilled by your parents.

):


what's in my mind, and words for HPY at 10:32 AM

Good morning everyone, it's gonna be a good week! :D

Yes, I am going to blog before I start my study session today. :)
Yest night, I lose it again.
Sometimes, people just do or say things that will trigger my tear duct.
I am actually surprised at how easy my mood changes. I can laugh for a moment and cry the next moment.
it's really v amazing. =X
But last night, I didn't cry because I am sad. Instead, I am feeling a very mixed feeling.
There's element of happiness in it, or more of... I really miss those times.
Yes, I am talking about my HPY. I really miss those times with him.
It's a pity how we didn't get close from the day i join SH. =/

He's really a v sweet and nice person.
The one who has been there since my lowest point of life.
The one who never left me even though I know I have been v clingy towards him.
The one who bothers to reply my messages with a long reply. :)
(i really love long messages. :D)
The one who would talk sense into my head.
The one who will give me his brightest smile on my gloomy days.
Where can I find such a gd friend?
I am glad that Leo came into my life, and now, I am glad that HPY came into my life.
They are just like the angels that god decided to give me. :)
Because without them, my life would be so empty, so different, with lesser laughter, joy and sometimes tears.

HPY,
I have said my enough thanks to you. :)
I truly hope you will always be happy, because i dislike it when you are upset.
It doesn't matter if I have got handmade gifts/cards from you before, because having you as my hpy is already enough to make me smile. :)
Eventually, I wouldn't be the first person to wish you good morning. And I wouldn't be the one to hear your sweet morning. But I'll treasure all these moments. :)
Things will definitely change in years to come. I'm actually afraid of something(ask me abt it.)
The reason why I asked you along with me for JJ's autograph session/party, is because.. I get really happy when I see JJ, and i just want to spend with someone impt to me. :D
I mean, can you imagine if I go with............(read my mind, im sure you know who Im talking abt!)
Anyway, 我们一定会是一辈子的好朋友。


That's what is on my mind from last night till today.



Okay, gotta study. :)


my v boring sunday! at 2:00 AM

my actually v boring sunday.

Was home the whole day, nothing much to do, studied just a bit.
Didn't want to touch them today actually!
So anyway, met Cal @ 7pm for dinner! :)
But  I was late, because basically, he did not msg me when he leave home, i was happily watching my JJ's videos!
And when he said.. "im reaching in 2 stops" I chiong-ed like mad!
Reached bedok point @ 7.20pm. oooops! I am so sorry!
in the first place, this whole thing is a v v v impromptu session. Just cause potato says he doesnt want to stay at home and he got the feel to sing!
So, out of 4 of us.... 3 doesnt have voice. MMMM, we still went to sing. how great right! =)

DO not laugh at me, cos i seriously didn't know bedok got Kbox!
now i know, which i dont know is it a good or bad thing that i know! mmmm, get what i mean? LOL!!!

CHW and Kwang came at 8pm.
I got shock la! like.. 8-2am! OKAY, but we didnt stay till 2 la! too tired already!
plus really gt no more voice. =X
have got to say, chw really got a unique voice which i really think it's nice! :)

so yup, my v boring sunday became not boring at all!

I really hope my voice would recover soon.
I dislike my singing man! like.. no power like that! ):
but still did my best! =X oh well!!!

okay, gotta hit the books seriously tmr!

and i am craving for hot cakes! :D


at 4:33 PM

It's sunday and I am no longer working!
Okay, I got to study then!

Just feel kinda sad!
because no one is at home! ):
not even my parents! ):



lonely sunday. how great.


CONCERTS at 2:03 AM

im tired to post a v v v long post abt JJ's concert! Maybe I will do it tomorrow!

But I just want to say! it's DAMN awesome! :D
every single part of it! REALLY! :)
his live is as usual, GOOD. XJT made everyone SUPER high including JJ himself! LOL!
everyone singing XJW really OMGGGGG! :D
yvonne is also v v v on, we all shout and shout and scream like mad! :D THANKS BABE! :)
it's great that i know all the song, so it's like a SING ALONG session!
Didn't see him like he's an ant! :D the view was NOT BAD! :D quite thumbs up! :)


now,
I can't wait for lzx concert!
firstly because he's lzx! i cant wait to see him dance.
secondly because of who i am going with. :D  i hope LZX will sing our song on that day, so it will definitely bring smile to our faces! :D 


at 2:44 AM

JJ's concert in a few hours!

I AM EXCITED! :D
Finally the day is here!!!!!! :)



but trust me, i am more excited and happy abt smth else! :)
you know you know!? :D 


at 11:35 PM

because i can't seem to give him the smile, i hope you would not make him upset.


at 9:10 PM

totally feel like sleeping now. ):
I don't know why I just don't feel right.
and to be honest, I totally dislike this feeling.

我一整天还蛮闷的。
studied in school, got quite a bit done.
Still coughing, nose blocked, felt like as though I'm having a fever. ):
UPSET is the word.



hopefully tomorrow will be a gd day!

and by the way, sister good luck! I know you will score well! :D


at 11:05 PM

feel quite stupid.
i think too much.


at 7:19 PM

AHHHHCHOOOOO~
sneezing every moment! ):

boooooohooooooooo~


at 5:18 PM

i need more motivations.
i need more encouragements.

i am falling aslp! ):


a happy day to remember! :) at 11:47 PM

today is another happy day! :)

finally started studying again!
thank you CHW for studying w me and also talking rubbish and some htht session! :)
"darling", i hope time will heal for you! :)
there's someone who loves you out there!

but to be honest, today my main motive of going down ps is to find my HPY for lunch! :)
and this is the last time im going down PS just for special reason. :)
well the reason why i went down to look for HPY was because yesterday, i heard he went to eat lunch alone and he looks kinda down! so, i thought maybe I should just cheer him up a bit! :D 
A simple lunch which means a lot to me! :)
A simple lunch which isn't at all simple! :)
A simple lunch which is enjoyable and happy! :)
We had just a simple lunch! :D
That 1 hr seem like it was only 10 mins! ):
I'll definitely remember today, yup.. I will! :)
It gave me more motivation to study! :D Thank you HPY! :D

Went to study w darling CHW at Starbucks! :)
Finish IS-LM chapter! :D
Studying with him is REALLY funny! :) He kept making me laugh! tsk!
i really need to study seriously!!! =X
Studied till 9pm and then went back to pscsc. :D
thank you CHW for going back pscsc w me! :D 

:D:D:D:D

as much as I didnt want to leave at 1030! I really got to leave! ):


I feel really happy to see you today.
like SERIOUSLY. 讲真的!
Hopefully I'll see you soon again! :D


something i'm looking forward to. at 10:41 AM

Good morning world! :)
I am on mc today, and today I don't have to do anything except 1 thing :D


Anyway, I concluded that, eating medicine and sleep..seriously can bring me to deeeep sleep! :)
and yayyyy! I don't have sore throat anymore! :DD at least when i swallow my saliva or drink water it's not pain anymore! :) Will continue to drink more water and hopefully im all ready to fight the war tomorrow onwards! :)
healthy lifestyle will start tomorrow! :D


Today will be a great day, I just know it! :)