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I am getting crazy..or am i always crazy? at 12:52 AM




good things always come to an end. at 11:08 AM

I didn't sleep well last night! *sigh*
And a phone call woke me up early today. I wanted to sleep longer!
But light sleeper me can't sleep back. =(

Yesterday after exams, went out with ZR.
Because it's part of my plan to not study yest!
(oh yes, I will go back to study after this post. alright?)
These few days haven't been feeling happy at all. Maybe with a few surprises which made me smile.
But overall mood is REALLY bad.
So went to sing at teoheng after exams(thank you ZR for picking me up at bukit panjang where you got lost! hehe!)
I haven't been to k-session for.. damn damn damn long. =(
Afterall, singing has been, by far, the best way I can let out everything. =)
After that we went to arcade, and yay! new collection. New Stitch collection.
That's when I feel HAPPY, like REALLY happy for the first time in many days.


Studying makes people emotional and it's mentally straining. =(
But oh well, NEW STITCH. happy me! =]
Please don't get me soft toy for my 21st though! =D


Straighten my thoughts out, I have been making things up in my head.
It's all wrong.
Honestly, whatever happen or whatever didn't happen, made me upset.
If given a choice, I wish to turn back the time and return back to where it all begin.
It's not as easy as packing it all up and putting them in a box.. and next moment you just forget about everything.
做人要有始有终。
It just can't be force or control.


Oh well, hopefully next year I would do better in exams.
I've slack enough this year and I have experience the result.
Going all out for my 2nd upper class honours next year! =)
When you set your heart out for something, you know you would want to get it.
Yes, I am going to do so.


Things will all be different from now on, and maybe this is the best way.


Alright, going to study now. =)
LAST PAPER ALL THE WAY!


silly things make me happy, like a.. not-one-liner title. =D


好的事情 最後雖然結束
感動十分 就有十分滿足
謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路
痛 是以後無法再給你幸福




butterflies in stomach! at 1:16 AM

I am starting to dislike once a yr examinations.
O-M-G


FL, please.. study harder next yr okay! ):



I am freaking out for tomorrow's paper! WHAT IF I CANT EVEN CALCULATE A SINGLE THING.



thinking about it gives me stomach ache! ohno~


at 4:30 PM





upset.


POST EXAMS ACTIVITIES! at 10:30 PM

Alright! Yet another post! 3rd post of the day! :)
Next post probably will be on 27th May! I need to start to focus from tomorrow onwards!
I believe I can conquer maths, because I am strong in maths!
(although I still regret taking maths and econs, no choice got to love what i chose!)


Things to do after exams:

1) book BTT date!
2) work for times bookstore roadshow.
3) prepare TW stuffs!
4) continue my 3 more story books!
5) Timbre
6) K BOX! OMG, I SUPER LONG NVR GO ALR!



Life's too short for me to hold back!

一百次的感动比不上一次的心动


at 7:30 PM

when you just can't figure out what's in your mind, you will choose to run away from it.
but this is only a short term solution and I hope you will realise it.


confusing.
disheartening.
upsetting.


are the emotions to describe this whole thing.


But I did realise too, someone said something today which got me thinking...
It's actually all in the head. When no one says anything why assume? Why think that it's this way when it isn't?
Don't even think about it if no one wants to talk about it. If not, you will only get yourself upset.
So that's it. No one said anything. No one confirmed anything. So just look at it on it's surface and don't even read into them.
Whenever in doubt, ASK.




you'll never be THAT important as compared, so move on in life.


as usual another random thought. at 11:22 AM

I was thinking what I want to be in the future.
The answer I will always give is.. I want to be a teacher.
I really do and I really want to! But maybe not the first job!
So I was thinking and thinking and thinking....



Actually... I feel like becoming a DJ. :)


no longer the same, never will be. at 12:07 AM

officially moved my blog from my previous email account to my gmail account. :)

Anyway, today started off well, on a high note. But it didn't end on a high note.


It was already part of the plan not to study today.
I basically did nothing.

Breakfast with PY/Alex/Zx/Esther/Kwang/Vicki
Met NNSS.
Had a gd talk with Nik.
Met Yvonne and Bob.



seeing something and knowing something and feeling something which is ALL THE SAME THING.. brings my mood freaking down.
no one will understand this feeling.



I can't blog anymore. I'm tearing just from the thought of it.



第二顺位。


at 11:02 PM

Micro was not that bad, at least I got more things to write for micro as compared to macro.
The weird thing is, I spend more time on macro yet I got that result.
I spend lesser time on micro, much lesser. the ratio is about.. 1: 5
Nonetheless, *cross fingers* for micro!
I need to pass micro, cause it's one of my prerequiste for next semester module.
And I am high and happy it's because it's over and not because I know I did well. =X
Seriously, after the first paper, which is macro.. I really want all my papers to end fast. =(
Too depressing.
说不出的话。。


my inner voice. at 10:27 PM

i know im supposed to be doing the best i could.
but come on, can't i get a breather?
when i study so hard into late night, you also never give any words of encouragement.
when i start to youtube and listening to songs like NOW, you SUAN me till no tomorrow.
我不爽...
Damn hurting honestly. 


and did you even say, good luck or ... all the best?
you didn't.


and do i care?
I actually care.


2011 羅志祥 舞法舞天之一萬零一夜 新加坡站好看惨了 at 1:22 AM


2011 罗志祥舞法舞天之一万零一夜新加坡站好看惨了


Yes, I am back from 羅志祥's concert! I have to say, he really impressed me ALOT. :)
I was skeptical of his singing before the concert and now I have to say, he REALLY can sing and DANCE! :)
not just that, he's SUPER comical! :)))))))
His voice is in good condition. GREAT.
His concert has VERY awesome visual effects!
He was able to make the whole crowd HIGH.
I'm having post-concert effect!

*touch my heart, touch my heart* doing the hand sign...
*twinkle twinkle...* doing the dance...
*我不会唱歌* singing altogether! :D 
*singing 撑腰* PartyBoys之道兄弟为你撑腰 BOOM YEAH BOOM Let's get this party crazy 
 
WOOOT!

I envy those lucky girls who he took their camera and 自拍！OMG! TO ME, that's much better than having the towel with his sweat! I mean, I don't even know what to do with it if I got it! BUT THE CAMERA ONE.. TOTALLY.. WOOOT~ confirm will melt my heart if I see his picture taken by HIMSELF in my camera! :D

more photos on FB soon! just a small PREVIEW! :D




















he looks like JJ in the below 2 photos!!! 




Will do all the uploading in FB after my next paper. So on 17th which is my self declared RESTDAY, many things need to be completed! :)

one more important photo..with my awesome hpy:



I'm super glad he sang THE song! :D
it's great to hear it together LIVE from the original singer, isn't it? :)

OKAY. BLOG TILL HERE FOR NOW.


my first doom paper in my life. at 11:30 PM

I don't really want to blog because I said I wouldn't till after 16th.
But tonight, I really don't feel like studying. ):
I just don't have the mood to touch any books now. Seriously, the first paper.. hit me SUPER hard.
That I fell on the ground... even when the paper is still commencing.
At least, there are still something that I can answer, if not...... I.. really don't know what I will do.
I'm not suicidal, so don't worry. I just feel very upset.
Not that I didn't prepare for the paper, but seriously, no one else to blame other than myself for not studying HARD enough that i can answer any crazy type of qns.
If I am lucky enough, I can scrap pass. BUT..... I really don't want to scrap pass only. ): I mean, before the paper.. what's in my mind was.. Okay, I am gonna get my 2nd upper class result!
I swear when I was flipping the paper....... whatever left in my mind was... "I am doom. I really need to get as much marks as I can."

I flipped and flipped... trying to find the familiar questions....
and my heart literally sank. ):
I feel very demoralised after my very first paper. ):
I really dont remember myself crying for an exam paper before.
Even when I failed my DnT during O level, i didn't even cry. (okay, because I really couldn't bothered abt DnT, and I wasn't allowed to drop!)
Maybe just this time round, it's not like every other exams.. it's costly and it's not worth to retake. ):
Moreover it's university, every results determine my future.
I can't afford to NOT do well, and.... I don't want to let my parents down.
I know education is all for myself and not for anyone else.... I just don't want to burden my parents.

Guess it really hit me damn hard today. ):
I cried when I was on my way home, I cried when I bath, even after bath.. while on the phone with my mummy, I cried again. ):
crybaby. 


I just hope my next few papers will be nicer. Although I reckon they will, because no matter how many past yrs paper I do.... the questions just seem so different. Nevertheless, FL never gives up! :) So even at this point of time, I will move on and continue to FIGHT this thing.
It's mentally straining. =( I hope the next 22 days will past by V V V V quickly.
Tomorrow the routine will start all over again.. I hope, I have the strength to last throughout.



The only thing that made me smile tonight....
was what's in talkbox. (: 



today i met my primary school special friend, he was one of the invigilators. the hall is so big.. i was seated at row 56 and there's like almost 30 people in a row. I was seated near the invigilators table, then i saw him.
he looks just like how he was 10 yrs ago, when we were both 11. (: Sweet memories came into my mind before the exam commences. I remembered, we joined the robotics club together, and then we had this workshop that taught us how to create website, and then we were in the same team for some competition, and we won.. a motor video game. (: I remember vividly, how we went around school together. It was that innocent... sweet love? Too young to say it's love. But whatever happened then was sweet.. :)
it's great to see him after 9 years, since we graduated. :) He looks the same, like the innocent young boy I used to know, but only difference is.. we are no longer the same.




I'm still waiting...


at 11:30 AM

kinda depressed now.





not because of elections. ):

can i make a birthday wish now?
I just want people around me.. to be healthy.
And I really need this birthday wish. )':


at 8:51 PM

instead of just invisible.



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